First fanfiction (amg) please read and please rate? It is all about life after the kira case
What is the point?
I have always been an outsider, even at the place where everyone is almost up to my standart of genius, though some people I wonder how the hell they got into the whammy house. I never felt complete. I was, and still am, an unfinished puzzle.
There are people that make up my puzzle. Mello, the annoying brother I never had, Matt, the surprisinly perverted guy who ruffles my hair, Linda, the sweet hearted girl who always took interest in me..
And L.
He is the most important part of my puzzle piece. Many people have role models, well, L is mine. I idolize him, he's like a rockstar, a famous idol and your favourite write all rolled into one. He is my god. He was my god.
Ever since the Kira case ended i've been at a loose end, hanging onto the edge of life. I watch my co-workers go home every day, back to their families for dinner, while I stay here. Pondering my pathetic life. I have lot all hope.
Every case seems so ordinary, every plea for help seems pointless. Why doesn't anybody help with my problems? Who can I talk to about my nightmares of Kira finally getting me, or my dreams of Linda's smile, my dreams of pestering Mello and Matt during lunch times.
They were so young. And so close too. They died in tragic ways. I couldn't even mourn for them. That shows weakness.
What have I got to show? I'm a fake, a copycat of L. A puppet. I can never escape my dreams and my nightmares.
They're ghosts will haunt me forever, it will never end. Not even in the afterlife. I will not be missed. As soon as I die they'll bring in the next L, noone will realise i'm gone. Who would cry for me? Everyone I ever loved is gone.
I hope that for all of us, that Linda can live on. Live an adventurous live, fall in love, have a child possibly. Tell them of our stories. The story that will, like my nightmares, stay with them forever.