* Of all the things I've believed in
I just want to get it over with*
Lorelai held her breath as Christopher started to yell. The harshness of his words filled the diner, as all eyes turned towards the pair. His words lashed at her heart, and she didn't protest as he jumped up and walked out.
*Tears form behind my eyes
But I do not cry
Counting the days that pass me by*
Her chest tightened as he stormed out. She could feel the tears that wanted to escape, but she fought them away. She glanced down at her plate, feeling like her heart had just been ripped out by him, and he'd dropped it to the ground.
*I've been searching deep down in my soul
Words that I'm hearing are starting to get old*
Everything she said was true. It must have just come out wrong. She hadn't meant to make him feel like it was his fault. It wasn't. It was hers.
*It feels like I'm starting all over again
The last three years were just pretend
And I said*
She knew it was over, done, there wasn't going to be anymore Christopher. She'd blown it, and she knew it, and she hated herself for it.
*Goodbye to you
Goodbye to everything I thought I knew
You were the one I loved
The one thing that I tried to hold on to*
She'd kept Christopher in the back of her mind. She'd always assumed he'd be there for her, after her broken engagement, string of relationships. But that was wrong.
*I still get lost in your eyes
And it seems that I can't live a day without you
Closing my eyes and you chase my thoughts away*
Christopher….he had that ability to make everything right. NO matter what he did, she would forgive him if he smiled at her, kissed her, made the world spin around. Ever since she was 16. He was the one, her one, her soulmate.
*To a place where I am blinded by the light
But it's not right *
Lorelai glanced at the window, wincing at the bright light that came in. She saw Christopher approach Sherri, Rory. They laughed, they talked. Christopher's hand rested lightly on Sherri's arm. And she wasn't out there.
*Goodbye to you
Goodbye to everything I thought I knew
You were the one I loved
The one thing that I tried to hold on to*
She'd held on to him, but never let him know. If she had, she'd be with him right now, instead of that annoying witch. She should have told him, should have confessed how she felt. She was scared. But if she had, maybe things would have been different.
*And it hurts to want everything and nothing at the same time
I want what's yours and I want what's mine*
But she hadn't know she wanted it. Maybe she did, but she wanted everything else. She wanted to have Max, yet she expected Christopher to always be ready and willing to be with her. That was stupid.
*I want you
But I'm not giving in this time*
She refused to go chase him. She'd blown it, it was over. There's nothing she could do about it.
*Goodbye to you
Goodbye to everything I thought I knew*
Christopher linked arms with Sherri, and the two bid farewell to Rory. Lorelai watched them walk off, and she inhaled sharply as an even sharper pain stabbed at her heart.
*You were the one I loved
The one thing that I tried to hold on to
The one thing that I tried to hold on to*
There was no chance. She'd pretended to let go, in high school, when he'd asked her to marry him. She'd held on, but now she had to let go.
*And when the stars fall
I will lie awake
You're my shooting star*
Sniffing quietly, she looked up and locked eyes with Luke.
I just want to get it over with*
Lorelai held her breath as Christopher started to yell. The harshness of his words filled the diner, as all eyes turned towards the pair. His words lashed at her heart, and she didn't protest as he jumped up and walked out.
*Tears form behind my eyes
But I do not cry
Counting the days that pass me by*
Her chest tightened as he stormed out. She could feel the tears that wanted to escape, but she fought them away. She glanced down at her plate, feeling like her heart had just been ripped out by him, and he'd dropped it to the ground.
*I've been searching deep down in my soul
Words that I'm hearing are starting to get old*
Everything she said was true. It must have just come out wrong. She hadn't meant to make him feel like it was his fault. It wasn't. It was hers.
*It feels like I'm starting all over again
The last three years were just pretend
And I said*
She knew it was over, done, there wasn't going to be anymore Christopher. She'd blown it, and she knew it, and she hated herself for it.
*Goodbye to you
Goodbye to everything I thought I knew
You were the one I loved
The one thing that I tried to hold on to*
She'd kept Christopher in the back of her mind. She'd always assumed he'd be there for her, after her broken engagement, string of relationships. But that was wrong.
*I still get lost in your eyes
And it seems that I can't live a day without you
Closing my eyes and you chase my thoughts away*
Christopher….he had that ability to make everything right. NO matter what he did, she would forgive him if he smiled at her, kissed her, made the world spin around. Ever since she was 16. He was the one, her one, her soulmate.
*To a place where I am blinded by the light
But it's not right *
Lorelai glanced at the window, wincing at the bright light that came in. She saw Christopher approach Sherri, Rory. They laughed, they talked. Christopher's hand rested lightly on Sherri's arm. And she wasn't out there.
*Goodbye to you
Goodbye to everything I thought I knew
You were the one I loved
The one thing that I tried to hold on to*
She'd held on to him, but never let him know. If she had, she'd be with him right now, instead of that annoying witch. She should have told him, should have confessed how she felt. She was scared. But if she had, maybe things would have been different.
*And it hurts to want everything and nothing at the same time
I want what's yours and I want what's mine*
But she hadn't know she wanted it. Maybe she did, but she wanted everything else. She wanted to have Max, yet she expected Christopher to always be ready and willing to be with her. That was stupid.
*I want you
But I'm not giving in this time*
She refused to go chase him. She'd blown it, it was over. There's nothing she could do about it.
*Goodbye to you
Goodbye to everything I thought I knew*
Christopher linked arms with Sherri, and the two bid farewell to Rory. Lorelai watched them walk off, and she inhaled sharply as an even sharper pain stabbed at her heart.
*You were the one I loved
The one thing that I tried to hold on to
The one thing that I tried to hold on to*
There was no chance. She'd pretended to let go, in high school, when he'd asked her to marry him. She'd held on, but now she had to let go.
*And when the stars fall
I will lie awake
You're my shooting star*
Sniffing quietly, she looked up and locked eyes with Luke.