I remember that first year, when you broke into my house, beat me in a fight, then smirked and said, "whoa, easy there, tiger."

I lost the love of my life, and you were right there to take care of me.

I still fought you, I still pushed you away, but you held on because I needed you to.

You never left my side.

I remember that second year, when I almost lost you, and my world felt like it was gonna crash and burn.

We both lost Dad, and I don't know why, but I could see a change in him near the end. I know that change was because of you.

You stuck with me through my freak show experiences, and you never abandoned me, even when I got stabbed and nearly died.

You never left my side.

I remember the third year, when I found out just how far you would go for me. How far you would go to save me.

You were so stubborn, and you drove me crazy, but you wouldn't do anything that would put me in danger.

We had one more year together, just one more year of carrying on the family business.

Then it happened. You went to Hell for me, you died so I didn't have to.

And yet, somehow, you never left my side.

I remember the fourth year, when you somehow returned home.

I left you, I abandoned you for a demon chick, and you still stayed with me.

I opened the gates to Hell, I started the freaking APOCALYPSE and you still didn'the leave me.

You never left my side.

I remember the fifth year, when the apocalypse went down, and we had to stop it ourselves.

It was all my fault, it had nothing to do with you, but you joined the fight without a second one thought.

We had a freaking ARCHANGEL and the DEVIL on our tails, and you never gave up on me.

I let the Devil possess me, and I trapped him in Hell with an archangel. I went to Hell.

And until the end, you never left my side.

I remember the sixth year, when I came back, but I left my soul behind.

I left you to vampires, didn't think twice when you got abducted, I even tried to kill you myself.

Angels and demons were battling all around us, fighting for Heaven.

The wall in my head broke, I lost all sanity, and I nearly killed you.

You never left my side.

I remember the seventh year, when we faced another kind of enemy.

Bobby came home, but wasn't the same. He was dead, and he should've stayed that way.

It was hard for both of us, losing our surrogate father, but you kept it together for me.

On top of it all, we had a mob of Leviathans trying to eat everyone, and you led us to defeat them.

You never left my side.

I remember the eighth year, when you returned from Purgatory, and you discovered what I hadn't done for you.

I hadn'the even tried to look for you, Dean, and I let you down.

Then there were the trials, which you tried to do for me. You tried to close up Hell so I wouldn't have to.

When I was on the last trial, and nearly killed myself, you brought me back to reality.

You never left my side.

I remember the ninth year, when we were trying to figure out how to get all the angels home, and how to defeat the Queen of Hell.

I remember being so battered that I was on the brink of death, and you did what you had to do to save me.

I remember finding out what you'd done. How betrayed I felt.

I broke you, Dean, and I did it on purpose.

Even so, you never left my side.

Now, it's almost been ten years.

You're not the same, Dean.

You took that blade and you took off. You told me to let you go.

But I can't let you go, Dean, I need you.

But you're not here, you're not at my side anymore.

So where are you?