I never wanted any of this.
I never wanted to lose my best friend.
I didn't want to make everything get so out of control.
I didn't even mean to kiss him.. It just happened.
I had a funny way of making things happen.
I always made a big deal out of everything.
I always blew things out of proportion.
I always messed everything up.
I always ruined everything for everyone.
You never wanted any of this.
You never wanted to lose your girlfriend.
You didn't want to let everything get out of control.
You didn't even mean to kiss me.. It just happened.
You had a funny way of letting things happen.
You always smoothed things over.
You always acted like things meant nothing.
You always let things go.
You always made things easier for everyone.
We were never really looking for any of this.
We were happy with the way things were.
We didn't even try to make something out of it.
We were close, but had her to be closer too.
We didn't want to hurt her like that.
We wanted things to stay the same..
We wanted things to be different..
We didn't know what we wanted..
We just know that this isn't it.
We know that this is exactly it.
She didn't deserve any of this.
She might have been mean,
She might have been cruel.
She may have stabbed people in the back for no reason.
She may have been overly jealous at times.
She may have been snappy and rude at others.
She never did anything to deserve this.
She didn't need her best friend to steal her boyfriend.
She didn't need to have her heart broken,
She didn't deserve to have her back stabbed.
Why was everything so different now?
Why did everything change so much?
Why had they let this go so far?
Why hadn't we stopped everything right when it started?
Why couldn't things have gone differently?
Why did we messed it up so badly?
Why did we destroyed something so amazing?
Why did we let those feelings get so... out of control?
Why did I fall for him?
Why did he catch me?
What if I had stayed with my old boyfriend?
What if we had never started hanging out at his 'house' alone?
What if we hadn't left the door unlocked?
What if his girlfriend hadn't walked in when he kissed me?
What if I had stopped him from kissing me?
What if I didn't kissed him back?
What if I didn't liked it?
What if we had never been friends in the first place?
What if this never happened?