Title: Boxing the Stars
Author: AbayJ
Disclaimer: I own nada! The characters belong to ABC Daytime and song belongs to Jack Mannequin.
Rating: M (Language, violence, and sexual situations.)
Genre: Romance/Drama/Angst/Adventure
Fandom(s): General Hospital
Ship(s): Mainly JoLu, a few others thrown in.
Author's Note: This is my newest piece of fiction; I have A LOT (about 75%) of this done, so expect this to be updated at least once a week, since it's nearly complete. I also still have no beta and am looking for one for my General Hospital stories (I am also going to update a few other of my stories since I am finally rid of my damn writer's block.), if you are interested, PM me or e-mail me. Thanks.
Author's Note II: This chapter is the climax of the story; we'll go back to the beginning in the first chapter.
Warning: This chapter contain sexual content and not suitable for younger audiences.

- o O o –

"Dark blue (dark blue)
Have you ever been alone in a crowded room?
Well I'm here with you.
I said the world could be burning (burning) down.
Dark blue."

Prologue

"This is wrong…" His words were shakey as he felt her kiss his neck, his own hands moving down her side, bunching up her shirt as he went, finally feeling the smooth silky skin of her stomach. He remembered exactly how she felt, even after the two years that had passed, he knew her skin. It called out to him. All those secret places that made her writhe were begging for his touch.

He wasn't strong enough to deny them but he had to be sure. Be sure the rest of her wanted the touches.

"Everything is wrong, everyone and everything is so screwed up, but this…this is the first thing that's felt right in a long damn time."

Her words rung true to him and he couldn't deny her. Not now, not ever so he pushed her shirt the rest of the way up, breaking her lips from his skin just long enough to jerk the shirt over her head, letting out a groan at the sight of her bra-less state beneath the shirt. It had been too damn long since he'd seen her like this. Flushed and wanting him, desiring him just as he desired her.

She was right; this was the first thing in forever that felt right.

Running his hands back to her hips, he brought her flushed towards him, her chest meshing against his as his lips found hers. Nipping at her bottom lip as they kissed, their teeth clashing and tongues tangling. Loosing both of them in the kiss, remembering each other's taste, savoring them, holding them close as if this would be the last time they would ever kissed.

He let hands move past her hips and reach down, cupping her ass and letting her feel what her kisses were doing him, letting her feel how he desired her.. Just as her nipples and breathless pants let him know how much he needed her. Jerking her up, she quickly wrapped her arms and legs around him, securing our bodies together as if someone was trying to rip them apart.

He would kill someone first, no one was taking her away from him again; he would never allow that as long as there was a breath in his body. It had happened once but after tonight, never again, LuLu was his just as he was hers.

He moved them both towards the bed and crawled on to it with her still in his arms. Laying her down and coming above her, this lips never leaving, mating as his hands took inventory of her skin. It was better than any memory he had, as if in the past two years apart she had grown even more soft and beautiful; Even more right for his hands.

"God…" he moaned against her lips, "You feel perfect, so fucking perfect." He whispered as he slid his lips down across her jaw and neck, tasting and nipping along the way.

"You too…God…Johnny…"

Her whimper drove him on, his lips picking up speed as he suckled at her collar-bone and finally to where she was flushed and waiting for. She was a perfect handful, her nipples darker than the rest of her and pebble, begging for his touch and tongue.

He could not ignore them anymore then he could stop breathing.

His tongue lips encircled one and he sucked, lashing the pebble with this tongue gently; palming the other one with his fee hand.

"Fuck…"

The pleasure he was bringing her urged him on, she wanted this as much as he did and he would give it to her. He would give it all to her.

"I love you…" His words fell from his lips without though and as he moved towards the other breast, wanting to give it the same attention its twin had received.

"Wait…what…Johnny…"

At first he had been preoccupied with her breast, not feeling at the hands that were pushing him way but once he did, he quickly sat up and looked at her.

"What? What's wrong?" He asked as he moved to sit on his heels, jerking a hand through his hair. Trying to calm his ranging arousal and his rapid heart beat.

"You…what…what you just said…are you crazy!" Her voiced was panicked and he tried to think about what he said and when he remembered, he slid a hand down his face.

He had spooked LuLu and now she was running. Fuck his life.

"LuLu, calm down okay. You know I never stopped…I don't expect anything in return, I just…I guess I just wanted you to know."

"I'm still with Dante! I'm still…I'm still dealing with my father, your father, and all this crap with Michael. How can you expect me to do anything but freak out?" Her words rising as she quickly got out of the bed. Going to the dresser and pulling out of his t-shirts, pulling it quickly over her head and hiding her from him.

"You know I would never pressure you." Moving to sit on the edge of the bed, he let out a sigh and let his head fall forward. Everything was a mess but that, what they had been just doing, that was the first thing that made sense. They were both in this so deep and she was his anchor.

Yes she was still technically with Dante, yes their father's were creating a heavy burden for both of them, and yes they were still trying to figure out how to handle Michael but that didn't lessen or cheapen his feelings for her. They were stronger together then apart and she had to know that.

"LuLu, stop…just stop."

Reaching out, he grabbed her hand before she could go further and tugged her closer to him, letting her stand between his legs.

"I love you and I know you love me, even if you don't know yet. You have too much on your mind but that doesn't mean we should just stop. I need you; I need you to get through this just like you need me. So please, calm down, take a breath and don't freaking run."

Her hands moved up to his hair and he sighed, letting his head fall against her stomach.

"I'm sorry, you're right," she whispered and kissed his head.

Moving, he looked up at her and smiled, glad they were on the same page again but before he could kiss her or remove her shirt again he saw something out of the corner of his eye.

"Fuck!" He shouted just as the booming sound came from his window, glass shattering on impact. Jerking her down to the floor, he tried to ignore the stinging in his shoulder as he did. "Stay down..." He mumbled as he covered her body with his.

"Johnny, blood!" LuLu's panicked voice said.

This wasn't how he planned on tonight going. This is what he had been scared of and what he wanted to shield LuLu from. But once again, his love was going to cost them both something.

As the fire rang out around them, he just hoped the cost wouldn't be too much.

"Fuck my life."

"If you've ever been alone in the dark blue.
If you've ever been alone you'll know (you'll know.)"