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A song you could listen to with this chapter is Never Say Never by The Fray.
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And now without any further ado…
"You are kidding right?" Ron looked me right in the eye and asked. He was heartbroken, anyone could see that. I didn't know what to say so I didn't say anything. Looking into his eyes broke my heart too. Harry was quiet but the anger was evident on his face. I just told them it was my fault and I didn't know what to do. I'm probably going to jail.
I took a deep breath and attempted to explain.
"It wasn't like that. I- I can explain," I started. Ron and Harry just got up and walked out in reply. I drew my hand to my mouth and let out what sounded like a muffled sob. Ginny would find out soon and I knew that wouldn't be good news. I'm 24 years old and now I have no home, no job and no friends.
Slowly taking everything in, my walls started to crash down on me and I crumpled to the floor in a heap. I let out another sob and that was it. I'm officially done.
FLASHBACK
I need to tell them. I can't keep this from them, I just can't. While wiping the tears that were threatening to fall I picked up the quill and started to write on the parchment.
Harry,
I'm back from New Zealand. I need to talk to you, now. If you and Ron could come over now it would be great.
Hermione x
I put the quill down and attached the note to my owl, Hera. After the war, Crookshanks was great but Harry and Ron decided I needed an owl. Hera flew out the window and went to deliver the note. I still had my old flat from before I moved so they would meet me here.
It's been seven years since the war ended and for the last three years, I kept this secret. This secret has been clawing at me from the inside and it's killing me. For the last three years, I moved to New Zealand because I needed a break. I needed a break from my friends, a break from my job, and a break from life. New Zealand was the worst decision I had ever made.
I had lied to Harry and Ron, and even Ginny. I was the reason he was missing and I couldn't live with it. As if on cue, an excited and tired looking Harry Potter appeared from the Floo. A couple moments later, Ron appeared as well.
"Hermione," they whispered almost in unison. I just started at them not being able to hold back the tears that pushed through.
Over the three years, we owled each other but I always lied. Just last year after an incident, we exchanged no more owls. I no longer had any connection with my friends in England.
Putting it all to the side, I rushed into the arms of Harry Potter and Ron Weasley. It was probably going to be the last.
"So Hermione, how are you? I've missed you so much." Ron said.
I bit my lip like I always did when I was in deep thought.
Judging by the look on my face, Harry spoke up. "Mione', what's wrong? You look troubled."
"It's about James," I began. James Sirius Potter is Harry and Ginny's first son and my only Godson.
Harry's eyes went wide. I could see a million questions forming in his head. Before he said anything I jumped in.
"No, I didn't find him," I sniffled, "it's much the opposite actually." Ron looked at me and scrunched his eyebrows in confusion.
"What do you mean?" he said in a tone I couldn't quite understand.
"I-It's my fault," I wiped the tears off my cheeks. It's because of my own selfish reasons he's missing.
They both looked at me and nodded which I took as permission to continue.
"It happened last year. Well, when I was in New Zealand, one night, he just appeared in my flat at night. I didn't know how he got in. James was only 3 years old last year, there's no way he apparted so I guessed he used the Floo. I was going to return him to you at that very moment, but I don't know why, I just couldn't. He fell asleep and I just let him. The very next day, you owled me saying he disappeared and I owled you back but I didn't tell you he was with me." I swallowed the lump that was forming in my throat, still looking at the floor, "that day, I took him out to the park because he wanted to play. I sat literally 5 feet away from where he was playing. I looked away for 10 seconds and he was gone Harry!" I sobbed. "I swear to you, I was going to owl you that day telling you James was at my flat but then he disappeared. Then I didn't know what to do! Please guys, you have to believe me!" the tears just kept pouring out.
There was complete absolute silence. Harry was taking it in while Ron just looked absolutely livid.
"Are you bloody insane!" Ron exclaimed. Harry brought up a hand as if to silence him.
Harry looked at me and clenched his jaw.
"DAMN IT HERMIONE! BLOODY HELL!" he screamed. I jumped a bit at his tone.
And that's when it began…
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