So since I was in a rush yesterday when I posted this, I didn't notice that I didn't save it and just went on ahead and put it up without telling you guys some things. Advice on writing Brennan would be really handy to me since Ihave tons of story ideas that involve her and it's hard for me to get into her mind set. I think it's because she's a genius. Anyway, the song in the italics is Diane Birch's Rewind. Awesome song, and it's story goes right with it in case you were wondering. I like to sync songfics for some reason. I guess it just flows.
She shouldn't feel bad. She honestly and truly shouldn't, but she did. She couldn't help it, though. She couldn't help but feel bad about everything that happened between them: turning him down, letting him go, letting him move on.
She felt so many emotions, too many to compartmentalize; anger, sadness, jealousy; and she felt them on so many different levels. She'd say it was heart breaking, but hearts can't break, no matter how close it felt.
There are many things
That I would like to say to you
She wished she could tell him all the things she wanted to.
But I don't have the words in my head
But she could bring herself to tell him. She couldn't form the words.
Days are passing by
And all the leaves are changing too
She messed up, probably the best thing in her life.
But time won't change the things unsaid
Now he was the best thing in someone else's, or he'd better be the best.
Cause everything is
Different now
Any woman would be lucky to have Seeley Booth in their life.
I'd really like to
Tell you how
How I
And if not, they were a fool.
I wanted you here by my side
Like she was…
I know what I said
But I lied
…and still is.
It looked like I laughed
But I cried
Because she was afraid.
Oh, I wish I could push rewind
Afraid to love him, to have the best. She didn't deserve him. He was too good for her and he deserved better. Better than someone who couldn't gamble with her heart. Who couldn't take the risk.
Oh, stupid pride it just can't hide
The holes inside my heart
Cause I need you here with me
She strongly believed that fact.
Oh, I wish that I could take it back
I'd go back to the start
And tell you all the things that I feel
No matter how much she cared about him…
Cause everything is
…loved him.
Different now I'd
Did she love him? God… she did.
Really like to tell you how
Temperance Brennan loved Seeley Booth.
How I
I wanted you here by my side
He made her love him.
I know what I said
But I lied
She was actually in love with someone.
It looked like I laughed
But I cried
She chuckled pitiably at that fact.
Cause I wish I could push rewind
She stood from her table, and left the restaurant; rubbing her eyes a bit hoping she didn't look how she felt. Like she was about to cry. That feeling creeping up inside her, the loneliness and sadness of the thought that wandered in the back of her mind that maybe… maybe she wasn't his anymore. His girl, though she hated to admit she wanted to belong to him… She wanted to be his.
So there she stood.
I saw you on the corner holding
Hands with someone new
Watching the man who made her love him.
Happy as a boy could be
With another woman.
Love was in your eyes and yeah
She looked the same way too
Looking at him the way she only wished she could.
It's funny that was almost me
She turned and walked the opposite way.
Oh, now I
I wanna be there by your side
She couldn't bring herself to watch them any longer.
I know what I said
But I lied
It would tear her heart out to walk past that scene.
Oh, I wanted to laugh
But I cried
Cause it's too late to push rewind
She stared down at the sidewalk as she walked home, trying to calm herself. It felt as if a lump was caught in her throat and she couldn't breathe. She hated that this could be exactly how he felt when she turned him down.
I know what I said
But I lied
She never meant to hurt him. She couldn't take the gamble because she couldn't bear to crush his heart. Heart crushed. That was how she felt, because it was too late to tell him she loved him. It was too late to push rewind.
A lot of people are saying that Brennan seems cold this season and they hate this season, but I think this was bound to happen. She's heart crushed and of course she's going to go back to her old way of dealing with feelings! She's going to compartmentalize and put on a smile. I'd love to see her and Angela talk though. I like Hannah, I just don't like that she's ruining my B&B! Oh, this was my first Bones story! Awesome Sauce!