This story isn't exactly a story. Its what I've been going through lately. I know I'm young, and I know middle school relationships are stupid, but something is getting to me. I want to share with you my story. And keep you updated on how my dilemma is going. I am literally going to start way back in the 5th grade. I am now in 7th grade. Thanks.
Lovin Him was Red
5TH grade – CHAPTER 1 –
My name is Ansley. I am 13 now, but at this point I am about to turn 11 and I'm the new girl in 5th grade at a new school. I made many friends, Most of them to this day are still my BFFLS. Well I had a teacher, in this story I'm just going to call her Mrs. M. There of course was the assistant teacher too, who in this story is just going to be called Mrs. W. Well anyways, I was new girl. I made friends easily and in my class I was pretty well known. Lets just say, due to all the crap I dealt with that year, my friends and I were the talk in that classroom. Well I had my friends and all. And then in the middle of that mess something hit me. Something I was not expecting happened. A boy. A boy who at this point was kinda short, tan, and still had his baby face or whatever. Came up and told me he liked me. I didn't know what to think. About a month earlier another boy had told me he liked me. I showed no interest in the first one, named Graham, and honestly the more recent one, Sam, I didn't care much for either. He was just a guy. After all I went through that year, I honestly didn't want a relationship, especially in 5th grade. I didn't want to make my life even more confusing. Let me tell you that my 5th grade year was so fun, so sad, and so overwhelming. One of my friends, Kate, liked Sam. She would flirt with him and all, and I didn't care, but she did. Sam saw NO interest in Kate. He thought she was some goody goody or something. I sure wasn't. But Sam liked me. He was determined I tell you. I tried to be friendly about it and just avoid him, but it got a bit irritating. When we had our 5th grade overnight trip at Rock Eagle, Sam would tell me constantly that he loved me, and I would shoot back at him stuff like- JUST GIVE UP SAM. IM NOT IN TO YOU. I DON'T LOVE YOU. And then he would tell me that he hated me constantly. Then it turned into a I love you, I hate you, I love you, I hate you deal. The sad part is that every time he said that he loved me; I would say that I hated him. I'm pretty sure it hurt, but I was immature Ansley, I didn't know how to react. Well long story short, every time I had some crisis, he would try to be there for me. Even though I shook it off and didn't appreciate anything. Eventually he gave up. And throughout all the mess he would start saying he liked other girls to act like nothing hurt him. Little did I know that I was most likely killing the guy inside.
Little does he know that I wish I could have re- done so many things.
HEY GUYS. I just wanted to tell you that the first 3 chapters r going to be the explanation. Btw my name isn't really Ansley. But the other names are real. Anyways chapters 4 and on are going to be like journal entries on how my day went and how I need help with things. Some chapters might be like how do I react or what do I do or maybe I just need to vent and need some support. You can if you want to review you can predict what you thing the 6th grade chapter is gonna be like. You would be so surprised. Well anyways thanks for the support and I hope you guys like this. By chapter 4 ill be going more in depth and all that because its like what everyday feels like to me. Anyways thanksssss byeee…
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