"You are pregnant"

This was certainly not the answer Addison expected after all what she made through in the last years. Not wanting a child, then being pregnant with the wrong person, then she finds out that she is all dried up and can´t get children anymore and now she should be pregnant. That sounds more like a big joke then the truth.

"What did you just say, Miranda?" Addison blurts out thinking that she simply misunderstood what Miranda just said, or maybe it was just wishful thinking.

"You are pregnant Addison" Miranda says again.

"But", Addison pauses " that´s not possible"

"Why not?"

Addison sighs then takes a big breath and tells Miranda what happened in the 2 days when she was in LA.

"Well but you are pregnant and that in the second month already" Miranda says.

~

2 months earlier:

Addison steps out of the airport, with a suitcase in her left hand and her heels in the other trying to find a cab to get home quickly. Two days ago she found out that she can´t have kids and that was certainly not what she wanted to find out while she was in LA. She wanted to come back pregnant or stay in LA forever but now she comes back without any idea how to go on with her life.

Suddenly she sees an empty cab in front of her, she quickly runs towards it hoping that no one else saw it earlier. She opens the door and lets herself fall into the backseat of the cab.

"To the Mayflower Park Hotel please" she says into the direction of the driver trying to get her purse out of her suitcase next to her but then she realizes that someone was indeed faster than her.

"Hey" he says grinning at her.

Addison just glares at him, already trying to get out of the cab but then he holds her back.
"I need to go the Mayflower Park Hotel too, you can drive with me, I won´t let you out looking like this" while saying this he softly brushes away a tear from her face.

Addison didn´t even realize that tears run down her face all the time, she wishes that she could just run away, run away from him, from her life right now and just cry but she decides it for the best to drive with him for now, for one because she doesn't want more people than nessesary see her right now so she just nods and then stares out of the window hoping that he understands that she is not in the mood to talk right now.

Some minutes later everything was different, she suddenly lay on the hotel bed with him on her kissing every part of her skin just the way she needed it, she could never resist the way he kisses her. It all happened so fast, in one moment he helps her with her suitcase and in the other moment he presses her against the wall kissing her neck and ripping her clothes off her body.

She woke up two times that night, the first time he had his arms around her and she felt save for the first time after she moved to Seattle and fell asleep some minutes later, but she second time when she woke up he was gone, without any sign that he was ever there and she was pretty sure that it was just a dream, a dream that felt uncomfortably real.

~

So it wasn´t a dream after all.

Addison steps out of the OR going to wash her hands in the sink, of course she has a surgery with him just after she found out, that she is pregnant but somehow she stayed calm in the OR but now after she surgery she was close to burst out into tears, and not that that would be enough she felt sick for some minutes now.

"Good surgery" she was trying so hard to not burst out into tears that she didn't realize that she stood next to her.

"Yeah, you did a good job" she says feeling the sickness getting stronger

"So did you" he added trying to put a hand on her shoulder but she already rushed away trying not to puke right where she stood.

~

Some minutes later she stepped out of the toilet just to find him staying next to the door looking worried at her.

"What´s wrong?"

"Nothing, I just went to refresh my make up" Addison says innocently hoping that he didn´t know what she just did.

"I heard you Addison" he says trying to read her thoughts.

Addison sighs.

" I just don´t feel so well, okay?" she answers and then rushes away.

~

"I just need some time to figure out what I want to do now, Callie"

"But you need to tell him someday."

"I know but not now, not today, I just can´t"

"But how did this happen, I thought that you can´t have kids."

"That´s what I thought too, otherwise I would have used a condom when I slept with him , god I will kill Naomi"

Callie lies an arm around Addison trying to comfort her.

"You know, that I will be there for you, whatever you decide to too."

"Thank you Callie." Addison smiles a bit at her.

"Who is the father anyways?"

"Oh you don´t want to know this, I´m sure that you will kill him."

"So I know him?"

"Yes you do know him."

"Oh come one tell me, I promise I won´t judge."

"Okay, but promise me don´t kill him and don´t tell anyone else about this"

"Addison, you know how I am, I won´t tell anyone."

Addison thinks for a minute about this and decides that Callie is right, she can tell her everything.

"It´s Derek"