Zoe sat bolt upright, panting, sweating. Adjusting her eyes to the light, she blinked rapidly pushing the duvet from over her body. Looking around the room, she saw him, laying peacefully next to her, the duvet pulled up tight around his neck. Zoe inhaled sharply and watched him for a moment. He was sound asleep. Looking around for the digital clock, she sighed as she saw the time. 05:13. She climbed out of bed and made her way to the bathroom. Flicking on the light, she turned the knob for the shower and stepped in quietly.

"Zoe" he watched her, "Zo, you okay?"

She continued staring straight ahead, remembering the last time she'd had that dream. When she was pregnant, with Jordan's baby. She remembered his face when they'd found out...thought she was pregnant. He was over the moon, it was all he ever wanted, a child of his own, someone to continue his name when his time was up. She didn't exactly lie to him, she just hadn't told him the whole truth. He'd jumped to the wrong conclusion before she even had chance to explain. She had tried to tell him, but Nick being Nick, didn't listen. She'd tried telling him it was a mistake, that she couldn't keep lying but he didn't understand. He put it down to hormones, he had no idea she meant lying about the baby, so he proposed hoping it would make her feel better. It didn't though, it made matters ten times worse. Of course she was happy he'd asked for her hand in marriage, and at any other time in her life she would have said yes without a second thought. It just wasn't the right time for them, especially with the big secret she was hiding. She needed to explain. She needed him to know she loved him. She needed him to know she only lied to make him happy. She needed him to know that she had tried so hard to get pregnant; she upped the dose of her fertility drugs, stopped smoking, stopped drinking. But nothing worked for her.

She sighed as she thought of the moment she finally told him the truth "I'm not pregnant" she'd said. It took a few seconds for it to register in Nick's head. Then she saw his face. He was totally shocked, lost for words, devastated. His face dropped as he leaned back, away from her. Then he left. He couldn't even look at her. He was so disappointed. She'd hurt him more than she ever thought she could hurt a man. His eyes said it all, even though the words couldn't find their way to his lips.

Max clicked his fingers in front of her, hoping this would bring her out of her trance. It did.

She took a deep breath and turned to face him.

"You alright?"

"Fine" she lied. "I'll be out in a minute" she tried to convince him.

Max nodded unsure, but walked back to the bedroom anyway. He pulled on his trousers and went downstairs to make Zoe a cup of coffee, he was sure she needed it and it was far too early for wine, even for Zoe Hanna.

She smiled as she walked downstairs half an hour later smelling the coffee, "thanks" she nodded and took a mouthful. "You should go...we've got work soon."

Max nodded slightly. He wanted to stay but thought better than to push her buttons in a morning. He'd learned the hard way that Zoe was not a morning person. He went and got dressed then came downstairs kissing her cheek before he left "I'll see you later Dr Hanna."

She smiled to herself as she watched him leave, then she walked upstairs to her bedroom. The previous night had been brilliant. The best she'd had in a long time, they just sat watching tv, talking, laughing, drinking wine, having fun, but now she found herself staring at her reflection. She thought about the dream..did it mean anything? Surely not. 'I can't have children' she thought to herself 'it's not possible, stop being so stupid Zoe!'

As Zoe arrived at work, she was bombarded with files from Noel and a message from Louise "Dr Hanna! Max said he wanted to speak to you first thing."

"He's already here?" Zoe tried to joke. "Wow, that's a first" she walked off to her office, dumping her files on her desk and taking her coat off, throwing it on the back of her chair.

There was a knock on her door, she sighed, it was going to be a very long day.

Thanks for taking time to read this. Sorry if it isn't very good, my first fic, please R&R let me know what you think. Will update soon if feedback is good. :)