AN: This one-shot has nothing to do with my current story "The Pieces That I Left". It's just something that came to mind when I was a little depressed. There are no character names mentioned. Those who have read other stories of mine know that I prefer to write about Gibbs and Tony, but it could be every other character of the show, too. Really.
Oh, and please don't forget to tell me what you think. I could really use something lightening my mood right now. And while you're at it, just tell me what you think which characters would fit. It's pure curiosity of mine. So... make me smile?
When I look at you
When I look at you I see why people believe in the good of humans.
When I look at you I see it in you.
I see the smiles and the laughter. I see the jokes and the humor in your eyes. I see the enthusiasm and encouragement when you enlighten the mood of everyone else. I see the passion in your work – so, it may look like goofing around to others but I know it's not. It's passion. And all the happiness is a part of it, even though this is a serious job. I can see it. In your eyes. In your actions. In your heart.
When I look at you I see every bit of what I'm not capable of. Not anymore. Not again.
When I look at you I see that you believe in the good of humans.
You are in love with life. You see the good things, although you are always confronted with the worst things of life. You see the good side in people, believing in what you see. What you feel. You joke because you know that it makes people laugh more. Even if it doesn't seem so. You are enthusiastic because you want to contaminate others with your joy. And you are able to do it.
When I look at you I see all that.
When I look at you I see it in you.
But most of all I see how much you care. You give a god damn fuck about people. You can't see them down. You want to see people smile. You want them to laugh. To forget about all the grief they are in. You want to make them feel wanted. You do make them feel wanted. You care about them even though you don't know them. You are always there when someone needs you.
You are there. Sometimes joking to make them laugh. Sometimes simply sharing moments. Moments of support. Listening even though no word is said.
But when I look at you I also see that there is something else.
When I look at you I sometimes see a hint of sad disbelief.
I see disbelief where it doesn't belong. As if you haven't always believed in the good of humans. As if you haven't always been the optimistic guy you are now. As if you aren't all optimistic even today. The sadness a hint of why that might be. Maybe, because you want to see the good in people but can't. You can't because something has gone wrong in your early life that I'm not able to figure out by simply seeing.
When I look at you I see that there are good people.
But when I look at you I see that there are still too many people who can't be classified as good.
Fin