Goodbye

by Kuulkhaac

A short little poem like-thing that I wrote at like 4 am after being awake for waaaaaaaaaay to long. I is what I thought at the time maybe Yuki thought before he left Shuichi. rated T to be safe.

Lost in the darkness
Searching for a light
Looking to escape
But there is nothing in sight

I'm tired and don't want to move
I don't know whether t come or go
My mind is scream "don't!"
But I shake my head sadly "no"

I try to hold it in
But my tears fell like rain
I'm so afraid to lose you
But I don't see how you can gain

My hand reaches for the loaded gun
And I place it ageist my head
But I can't pull the trigger
'Cause you will be the one to find me dead

My arms flop back down, "stupid" I whisper
To afraid to live but to afraid to die
I feel my life to this point has
All been a lie

I walk to the room
Were you are fast asleep
I watch you for awhile
Then breathe a last time deep

It's better for you this way
And as time passes by
Maybe you will forget
Maybe you won't cry

I want to say goodbye
But I don't know what to say
So I kiss you cheek gently
Then silently slip away