Darkness surrounds me pulling me farther and farther into an endless pit of nothingness. Complete absence of everything. Of pain and love which have gone hand in hand for all of time. Is this what really lies on the other end of love or the other end of pain? Is there nothing to be won from love or is the reward for being pained is nothing? If this is so why do we fight so hard to not be pained but to be loved and love other? When in the end we get pain and nothing else. We just fall into this darkness this nothingness this void of love and pain. Or is this true pain itself? To be stuck in a never ending pit of darkness feeling like you're falling forever and ever just thinking about the things you only know. If this is where I have gone for wanting love while looking pain in the face and biting its face off like a man on bath salts then why would anyone else want this? Why do we so stupidly stumble around for someone we know is just barely out of reach but won't notice us or the ones so far gone the stupidity of this works does effect them anymore. What is wrong with us? Is this why we're all stupid? Is this why we can't solve shit?