Chapter 1
It has been 3 months and he was still suffering. The pain had recided a little as the days wore on but other times dying seemed more and more real. Now today was the 64 day that he had been home at the cottage. The place echoed with grief and loneliness and was sometimes disrupted by the birds outside or by the sun deciding to come into view.
He had lost over ten unhealthy pounds in scarcely a month alone and his eyes were filled with sadness as he let the sunshine settle upon his skin from his house windows, clean and untouched . His skin was fare as it tended to be but was more like the color of charcoal in the shadows. He had cried and sweated through many nights now till it almost seemed hopeless to keep trying for all he longed for at that point was to sleep and dream of better things. THough many times his dreams were strange and unknown. This was because of his very off schedule where he would need to eat more during the night and perhaps gulp down a pint of water too. It was dreadful.
Fear had corrupted his soul almost entirely.
The shook with anxiety and sickness that was consuming him in this time and made him feel wasted. Happiness was dissolving from within him as all of the current events were catching up and beating him down till he was too afraid to wander alone. He lay on the couch for countless hours at a time watching anything that came of interest and contained little-to-no sadness. Or else it seemed to remind him of his troubles and then it would start up again.
He cried out in his sleep countlessly. He wanted to scream but was too frightened to. He had desperately wanted that face to appear. To call his name. He had listened but there was nothing. People had left him over and over and now it was his family that was there. The ones he had thought he had hated for so long were now helping him. Still he longed for a call or a sign. It was almost pitiful to think of such a thing.
He lay there on the carpet as the tears escaped.
".. A-A (he shivered)Ameri-ca. F-f-fr-ance.."
England lay on the soft carpet till his breathing soon had returned to normal and he rose.