EVERYTHING FOR THE
ONE THING I CAN'T HAVE
By: ~*Angel of
Light*~
Author's notes:
Konnichiwa minna-san! Umm..ok this is a
kindda sad fic….it's going to be kinda weird, like it's a short one, with a few
chaps, but not a one-shot….so I dunno what to call it, and I don't like to do
real long ones, cuz I just hate doing long and sad stories. Hmmm…and it may end
in a happy ending..or a dark one. ( I'm still deciding, but you'll see what
happens). Anyways, enough of me yapping. Here's the fic..hope minna san likes
it!! ^^
Sakura walked
down the road home holding hands with her boyfriend. Ever since Syaoran left,
she was depressed, but she got over it, and started a new life. But the one
thing keeps popping into her mind. Was the promise she made at the airport
before Syaoran's departure. ~*~Shaoran-kun! I promise I'll wait for you until
you come back!~*~Sakura-Chan…I promise I'll come back*~ He had said. She
somehow felt guilty. But then again, had Syaoran kept his promise? No. It has
been 8 years since he left. Why would she expect him to come back all of a
sudden. Tasaoran led Sakura to the park. Sakura followed. When she got there.
Memories flooded her mind. The card capting days,….with Tomoyo filming their
captures. Syaoran helping her fight. Kero, Yue, and Eroil guiding her. A tear
trickled down her cheeks softly. Tasaoran looked at her and they sat at the
swings. " What's wrong Sakura?" He asked gently, putting his hands around her
shoulders. She gave out a small smile. And shook her head. " Just some
childhood memories," she replied. " Were they unpleasant?" He asked. Sakura
shook her head. " They were wonderful….and most……unique," she said trying to
find the right words. He smiled. "It just reminds me of my…friend….that left me
at grade 6. It was depressing," She said, once again trying to find the right
words. He gently stroked her hair. " Well, I promise that I'll always be there,
and I promise that I'll help you out whenever in need," He was going to
continue, when Sakura cut him off. She shrugged his hands off her shoulders. "
No…." she whispered. He blinked. He was confused. " No more promises….."she
said , holding her head in her hands. Then she got up and walked off. "
Sakura…I-," He was going to continue. " No,…..i'm not mad.. I just wanna have
sometime alone," She said and continued off. He sighed, and went off as well.
" Sakura!
You're home…..I'm making noodles tonight, I promise they are going to be
great!" Fujitaka exclaimed happily. Sakura shut her eyes, and just went upstairs
to her room. She sat on her desk, and she opened to her
assignment….on……promises, and friendship. " Argh!!" She said angrily, and
slammed the book shut. "Why the heck is everything on Promises?!? I feel so
guilty,….but it's the baka's fault," She yelled. Kero shot up from his drawer,
and looked around frantically. " What's wrong?? I heard you say baka," Kero
said. Sakura sweat dropped, and shook her head. Kero gave her the eyebrow. His
mistress hardly ever called someone a baka, specially someone close to
her. She must be in a bad mood, he thought, and slowly flew back over to his
video game. " Gomen, Kero… I'm just pissed off," she said. Kero gave her a
questioning look. She sighed. " I don't know why,,..but everything lately
seemed to be about baka promises. Minna's
saying things about Promises. I feel bad….but…." she said tiredly. "
Sakura… it's not your fault, it was his, he shouldn't have left you,….you're
giving pressure to yourself….you love Tasaoran now right?" He said. Sakura
turned her head. She gave a slight nod. But something in her heart's stopping
her. But she doesn't even want to think about it.
The next
day, a weekend. Sakura took a walk down the road, in the cool autumn breeze
blowing against her hair. She sat down at the bottom of the slide of the
penguin park. She tided her shoelaces, and saw a white, and blue sneakers in
front of her. She slowly looked up, examining this mysterious person, as she
did so. She saw a man with brown unruly chocolaty hair, and amber brown eyes. In
a light blue jacket, and baggy jeans. He was fit, and strong. She felt the
strong aura surround her body. "S-S-Shaoran-kun…………" She mumbled. " Sakura……"
He said calmly. She walked over to the swings, and they took a seat. "I'm
finally done my training," He said happily, with warmth in his eyes. " " h-how
come you never wrote, or contacted me?" She asked. " Gomen,…..The elders didn't
allow it, I really wanted though…that's why I came back as fast as possible,"
he explained. " Oh," Sakura mumbled. He looked confused. " How come you don't
seem very happy to see me?" He asked softly. Sakura's head shot up. " ummm…. I
just don't know how to break it to you," She said quietly. He seemed even more
confused. He held her hand. Sakura felt a
warm sensation around her. But she shook it off. " I-I-I-I have a-a
B-boyf-friend," She said quietly. Syaoran dropped her hands. He stared at her
in plain shock. He stood up. " B-b-but, you said you'd wait for me," He
stammered. Sakura turned her head. "I kept my promise. I came back. And I gave
up everything for you…..I was supposed to stay back there to take the Leader's
place. But I refused, and I went against my family, my future for you. And
you're telling me that, that……" He wasn't able to continue on. Then he calmed
down. " If you couldn't' keep your promise…..then why make it?" He asked
angrily, but tried to control himself, and said it quietly. Tears fell onto
Sakura's cheeks lightly, she felt warm whispers blowing on her cheeks. She
gulped, then she turned to look into the amber eyes….so cold, and angry,…but
deep deep in his eyes,..she thought she could see a twinkle of sadness and
indescribable look of disappointment…or even deeper. " I-I-I thought that I
could handle it," she mumered. " I was too young, I didn't realize." She added.
He shook his head. " No……maybe it was just me. Maybe I expected too much from the love…. I gave everything for. I kept
my promise. Same age. But with the eagerness to be with you…to be driven by
love. Now I'm here to find out I've been living in a lie," he said with his
eyes closed…to keep his tears from falling. Sakura didn't know what to say. It
was true, he did it. But she couldn't. She wanted to say something…that could
possibly make it better……but she couldn't.
Syaoran stood
up, and turned around, his back facing her, and took a small step, one after
another. He felt weak. So weak, he couldn't' even lift his head up, and let his
legs support his body. Felt like falling, into a sorrow deeper than he could
bear. Sakura just sat there. She held her head in her hands. She didn't know
what to do. She wanted to call out his name. But she couldn't find the words
after that.
Sakura ran
home as fast as her legs could carry her. She ran into her house, and ran
upstairs. Touya wouldn't be coming back that night, cause he had a business
trip, and Fujitaka would come home late that night. She buried herself under
her covers of her bed. Kero flew over. " Ummm…Sakura, is it really that cold??"
He asked, giving her the eyebrow. But then he heard sobbing. " what's the
matter, Sakura?" He asked gently. Sakura looked up, and explained everything. "
Oh, Sakura…it isn't all your fault..he shouldn't have been so mean….I'll kill
that gaki!" He said the last part in a whisper. He knew if she heard, it would
just make her more upset, but he was angry at him. " No….Kero, what he said,
was right, b-but I don't know what to do," Sakura said quietly, tears still
falling down on her face. "Hmmm…Sakura, I don't know what he said to you….but I
don't know how to comfort you…..you should go talk with Tomoyo….Cuz I just
don't understand ' Girl' stuff," Kero said. Sakura gave a small smile, and she
went to get the phone downstairs. After a good talk with Tomoyo, Sakura felt
better,….but still, she couldn't get his words out of her mind, nor get a good
idea of what to do.
That night,
she laid in bed , thinking about it. Tears came down her face again. And she
cried herself to sleep.
The next day,
and the next, then the next…..Syaoran didn't appear,..he didn't go to school,
he didn't show up anywhere, for weeks. Sakura was getting edgy. She wondered
what could possibly happen. Could he have went back? She had asked herself lots
and lots of times. Tasaoran was getting worried. Sakura 's heart didn't seem to
be with him while they're going out, and spending time together, she was always
drifting off. But Sakura wouldn't tell him what was wrong. She'd just say she
was fine, or tired. He tried to get Tomoyo to tell him, but Tomoyo wouldn't,
and told him that she just needed time alone to think about personal issues.
"
Sakura,…..lately you've been ignoring my questions….what's wrong? Something's
on your mind, can't you let me know?" He asked gently. Sakura just gave out a
sigh. " Gomen nasai….but I just need to deal with something alone. It's
personal," She answered briefly. " But I'm your boyfriend,….can't you let me
help you? Your problems are supposed to be mine too. We can bear it together,"
he reasoned. Sakura just shook her head. He got a little frustrated. " Why
can't you tell me, and can tell Tomoyo??" he demanded. " She's my bestfriend!"
Sakura said slightly frustrated herself. " And I'm your boyfriend!!" He almost
yelled, but calmed down his voice, not wanting to hurt Sakura. But she didn't
seem to notice. She had had enough problems for a while. " You just wouldn't
understand," She said. " Try me!" he said firmly. Sakura sighed. She closed her
eyes, to relax a bit. She shook her head. " Onegaii,….just let me be alone."
She said, and walked away. But what was really on her mind, was……………….. Where
was Syaoran?
Author's notes:
Sooooo….how was it??? Onegaii Review…
