We'd known each other since we were in kindergarten.

Of course our relationship changed over time. In kindergarten, it was just as innocent little kids.

He'd bring in the big pack crayons with the sharpener, and I had the magic markers that smelled.

Most people say you don't know about love when you're young, but I was sure that Edward and I would always be friends.

And we were, but as we got older we changed. I dated other people, and he dated other people as well. It wasn't until recently I had come out of my ignorance and realized how much I really liked him.

Edward had made me laugh the night I got stood up by Bobby Johnson at our 5th grade school dance.

And I comforted him through his heartbreak with Justine Santos. We always had a bond that lasted through childish drama and even some of high school.

But now, we don't talk as much. And the only time I really talk to him is a quiet "hey" in the halls, or when I catch him in his room (our rooms face each other, creepy huh?)

He became quarterback sophomore year, and I was class president. We were both pretty popular around. But he was Edward Cullen; he wooed everyone with his charm and got away with everything. He was dating Callie Thompson, the gorgeous blonde on the cheerleading team.

Together, the whole school agreed they could rule the world. When they got together was when Edward and I drifted apart.

Callie always seemed threatened by me when I was around. When they started dating she would make me feel like such a third wheel. It hurt to see her push me away from my best friend. But I accepted the fact that Edward was growing up.

I couldn't keep him to myself, no matter how much I secretly loved him.

As more than a friend.

But I promised myself he would never find that out. So now, junior year I associate with my best friends, Alice and Rosalie.

They've been great through the years and are the only two people in my world that will ever know my feelings for Edward.

I'm glad to say that they are the people that keep me going, besides Charlie of course, and I love them.

Now, I just see him around, or at public places. And occasionally I visit his myspace page to see if anything is new with him, since I'm too shy to ask him myself.

But that's something I don't tell people…they might think I'm a stalker or something.

I just seem to be THAT infatuated.

With a guy that doesn't even know…

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August 24, 2010

"Alice I still don't see why you are making junior year seem like such a big thing. It's going to be the hardest academic year, yet."

"Uhh HELLO? Prom???" Alice looked insulted by the fact that I forgot about junior/senior prom.

"What junior actually GOES to prom unless their boyfriend/girlfriend is a senior? It's kind of lame."

"I can't believe you just said prom and lame in the same sentence. Shame," Alice scolded.

"You're so dramatic…" I complained.

"Whatever, it works for me. I'm going to be famous one day…" Alice said gazing into an imaginary bubble of her future.

"Yes, we know. When you're famous you better thank me for putting up with all your dramatics," I said teasingly.

"You know I love you, Bells," Alice said just as the first bell for the first day of school rang.

"I love you too, I'm going to class, Al. See you at lunch?" I asked.

"You bet! Text me during class. I want to know how 3rd period goes with Cullen," she smiled.

"Edward has Chemistry with me?" I asked surprised.

"Oh yeah you two have plenty of chemistry!" she said running away from my questions.

"I didn't mean THAT kind of chemistry! Smart ass!" I yelled at her while laughing.

"Edwarrrd babyyyy, I need to go to class," I head Callie coo from behind me. Edward and her were leaning against the building 4 wall. I guess they had just finished making out since her lips were totally red and disgusting.

"Alright, alright but…" his voice drifted from behind me as I sped up. I thought I was going to puke with all the puppy talk they gave each other.

Don't get me wrong, there are couples in my school that are just like "aww they're so cute together", but those two just made me throw up in my mouth a little.

Like the midget couple- cute.

The two mentally disabled kids- cute.

Quarterback that I'm in love with and Callie- not cute.

"Hey Bella! Wait up." I heard a familiar voice call from behind me.

"Hey Jacob, what's up?" I asked.

Jacob had also been one of my best friends since junior high. We used to date, but it fizzled out quickly. We both agreed we are too much like brother and sister to date. But he still remains my best friend.

"Nothing much, aren't you happy to be a junior already?" he asked. He was still only a sophomore, so he had a while to go. But a lot of upperclassmen girls had the biggest crush on him. He was pretty tall and muscular for a sophomore.

"Yeah I guess. Everyone's making such a big fuss over it. It's not that much of a big deal to me. It just feels like another year," I admitted.

"Yeah, I guess you're right. What do you have now?" he asked.

"Smithers- Calculus," I sighed.

"Ew. Have fun with THAT," he joked.

"Yeah, I know right? Well here it is bye Jacob…" I said reaching for the door handle.

"Bye Bells. Oh yeah and if you see Alice tell her I said hi. We need to catch up during lunch," he said.

"Will do. Bye," he disappeared down the hall as I stepped into the classroom.

"Sit anywhere for now," said Mr. Smithers. Apparently he's one of the hardest math teachers in school, but also very fair. I was actually looking forward to his class.

I found a seat next to Rosalie; we quickly exchanged hugs as I sat down.

"So how was your summer Bella?" Rosalie asked in a hushed voice.

"It was great actually; I visited Renee for a while in Florida. We went to a bunch of water parks."

"I can tell, you look very tan, by the way," she said giving me a friendly wink.

"Yeah, those 'wonder bread' jokes you guys gave me last year took a toll on my pride," I said jokingly.

"Haha, I knew it would. But you look great…until winter of course," she said smiling mischievously.

"Its practically always winter here…" I sighed.

"Not always…" she said.

I pointed to the window. It had just started to pour.

"Okay well maybe it rains A LOT, but it does get sunny on some days?" she said unsure about her point.

"Sure sure," I said.

"Okay class. Obviously today is just the first day so you won't really be doing anything. But if you look on your desks you will see a list of things I expect you to bring to class.

For the most part half of those things we won't even use, like most classes. But they're good to have at home because sometimes I will request you to bring them in.

Some of you may already know of me. But for those of you who don't, my class is very simple. You come to class, do the work I assign, and you should do good. I don't give many tests, just for the simple fact that they are unnecessary. Some teachers think that tests measure what you know. But if you really think you need help, then you can come up and ask me for help. If you don't ask, you won't do well. And that is not my issue."

"Jeeze," Rosalie said under her breath.

I shrugged; he seemed to just want to treat us like adults. Finally, a teacher that understood I didn't need a test to tell me what I know.

"Don't get me wrong, you will have tests. But it will just be the ones that the state sends us. Those are demanded, but if I do give a pop quiz I don't start at zero, I start at 40."

He droned on and on for the rest of the period and as the bell rang; I was actually starting to feel a little bit nervous about eventually running into Edward.

Again.