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Sunlight peered into the messy apartment ending sakuras peaceful slumber with annoying rays of light. She Yawned irritated cursing herself for always forgetting to buy darker curtains. Unable to get back to sleep she slid out of bed noisily into her comfy pink slippers awaiting her at the end of her bed. She stretched and walked to the window. Pulling back the curtains she managed to gather up a smile for the good weather. Unfortunatly she had already agreed to spend her afternoon leading a crew of highly trained medical ninjas in the critcal care department of the hospital where she worked.

"No rest for the wicked..Heh more like no rest for anybody" she mumbled scooping up the contents of her bathing supplies and forcing herself onward to the bathroom.

She set her things in various locations, and adjusted the water temperature before stripping her cloths and throwing them at the laundry basket. She watched aggravated that they all managed to land just outside the bin.

"Pathetic.. Finally a jounin and I can't even throw cloths in a bin thats two feet away.. I really need more sleep" She retrieved the cloths and this time placed them in the bin up close. Then stepped into the shower and let the heat wash the last bits of her exhaustion away.

She tried to think of happy thoughts, plesant memories that would jump start her day on a good note. Failing miserably her mind tortured her with memories of sasuke and how he'd broken her heart. Frustrated she turned the heat up hoping the sting would erase the pain building in her chest. She knew she was a mess always having to go out of her way to distract her self. To keep her barrier intact. It took her a long time to realize it wasn't sasukes fault she was like this. It was her own. She let someone too close and now she suffered the consequences. Never again she promised herself.

She'd managed to push all thoughts from her mind by thinking of every movement she made in the shower. It eased the pain drastically and allowed her to regain composure.

Sadly the comfort of the shower came all too soon, (literally) Still washing shampoo from her hair the water turned painfully cold and she had to rinse the rest of her hair in the bathroom sink.

*~*Ring*~*Ring*~*

"Who in the hell" Sakura clumsily wrapped the towel around her head as she headed for the phone.

"Speak" Her voice flat and monotone as she impatiently waited for a response.

"Sakura thats no way to answer the phone" Hinata scolded

"It is when I pay the phone bill, What do ya want, I'm kind of in the middle of drying my hair." Sakura tapped her finger on the wall she leaned against, she liked hinata so she reigned in her attitude as much as she could.

"I was wondering if you'd like to have a girls night out? Me you and Ino." Rolling her eyes she tried harder to keep it pleasent.

"Listen Hinata, You know I'm not in to that kind of stuff"

"anymore.." Hinata corrected.

"Yes, Anymore." Lately it was if all the girls in the village were joining forces and working towards an Annoy-the-fuck-out-of-sakura goal.

"Listen I'm worried about you, Naruto is worried about you. In short we all are. It's been years since i've seen you truely happy and not forcing it." hinatas sympathetic tone was wearing sakuras patience thin.

"Everyone can mind their own business i'm fine hinata. I'm a busy woman and I have work today. I'd love to continue this conversation with you but i'm afraid Time waits for no one. If this is all you had to say i'd like to hang up" Tapping her finger more aggresively on the wall she closed her eyes trying to find her happy place. She wasn't even sure if one existed anymore.

"I guess thats all, wait- atleast come over for dinner tonight" She couldn't blame hinata for being so persistant, Her and ino had been her bestfriends before her attitude took a turn for the worse.

"Fine." she rolled her eyes in defeat, anything was better than a girls night out

"You mean it?"

"Yes. Bye"

"BYE!! See you-" She hung up the phone. Hinata really wouldnt mind, she's probably jumping around for joy knowing her. Sakura placed the phone on the hook and walked back to the bathroom. Nearly tripping over a random shoe she cursed and kick the shoe so hard it left a permanent dent in the wall.

Straightening the loosening towel on her head she caught a glimpse of her naked body in the mirror and turned to analyze herself. She'd seen herself naked plenty of times, but it was good to check to make sure nothing was out of order. She wasn't ugly, infact she was very beautiful. however she resented all aspects of herself, everything. Her large chest, her curved hips, the structure of her nicely developed face. This body wasn't good enough for sasuke. It wasn't good enough for anything. Ever since the day he left her making his emotions clear that he had no intention of ever being with her [disgusted he seemed at the very thought] she hadnt looked at her self approvingly.

Disappointed she stepped away from the mirror and walked back into the bathroom to finish her morning routine.

Sakura chewed each bit of her breakfest slowly, savoring not only the taste but the silence she was allowed while eating. Once her stomach had been satisfied she cleaned up her mess, and checked the clock.

"I still have a few hours before work" Biting her lip she thought of what to do next. Her once spotless apartment was cluttered and disastrous. In sakura's eyes nothing justified sloppyness and this was utterly disgraceful. She sprawled out on her bed for a moment and closed her eyes.

"Sasuke, I love you. I've always loved you" Sakura blushed staring down at the ground she finally decided that coming clean would rid her weary heart of regret. He stared at her in disbelief... no disgust...she wasn't sure but he hadn't said anything and she was beginning to wish she hadn't either.

"Sakura, whats with you? Always trying to confess your love. Always wasting my time with something so stupid." He hit the wall next to her making her flinch.

"Sasuke i just.. i just want to be with you. I've trained so hard so that you'll notice me, and so i could protect you. I just want to make you happy" her voice sounded childish like she was begging for him to be with her.

"If you want to make me happy how's about staying out of my way. We are comrades. Nothing more. When i returned to this village it didn't mean i was just going to settle down. I still want to be strong. I still have alot of training to do, but how can I do that if your always acting like some love sick puppy" His voice became apathetic, bitter. She shrank away from him unsure of what to say, she practiced this moment in the mirror every day since his return to the village. Perfected just the right words that she thought would draw him in. Hoped that her gorgeous body would pull him the rest of the way if she wasn't able to convince him. Now she saw she wasn't even close. He was so far away from her grasp and she felt like a fool for trying.

"Sas..-"she began.

"Dont even speak. It's time I make things clear. There isn't and never will be anything between me and you. You're not my type. I can't stand girls who obsess over such idiotic things when theres so much they could be doing to help with the village. Girls who care more about physical appearance then exploring the actual mind. I like a challenge. You sakura. Are nothing interesting. You're simply a clone of what society calls attractive." He paused staring at her. His words dug into her chest like a thousand kunai knives being buried permanently.

"Do you think, That you can finally comprehend that I have no physical or emotional attraction to you aside from you being a loyal comrade" She didnt answer, she didn't even look athim. Instead she did the most pathetic thing ever. She turned and ran doing the best she could to hide the tears that now streamed uncontrollably down her cheeks.

Sakuras eyes shot open and she jumped up out of the bed trying to push the crude images of sasuke to the back of her mind. Glancing at the clock she realized she had 30 minutes to get to the hospital.

"Shit, how could I fall asleep" she thought while checking her appearence in the mirror and straighting strands of hair that were sticking all over the place. she gave one longing glance at her still messy apartment and slipped on her shoes promising she'd clean it later. Hurrying out the house she regretted not taking a walk sooner to enjoy the nice weather. It'd be evening by the time she was off of work and she'd have to hurry to Naruto's house for dinner.

Sakura ran with her eyes on the hospital, she didn't dare admire the scenary, if she happened to look in the wrong direction she could see sasuke, she never wanted to see him again. Never wanted to speak to him again. Life would be easier if his presence wasn't a constant reminder she was a failure.

She didn't love him anymore, and she never would again, but the damage had been done. Her life was altered because of him.

Pushing the thoughts from her mind yet again she walked calmly through the hospital entrance only to be nearly run down by wide eyed medical ninja

"Sakura! Where have you been, You afternoon shift isn't sceduled till tomarrow you were supposed to be here 3 hours ago." She blinked in disbelief, how could she make a mistake like this.

"Sakura! the number of patients here in the hospital has nearly doubled since yesturday, lots of shinobi are returning from their missions injured. Simply bad luck for them but a whole lot of work for us"

Questions and complaints whizzed past sakuras head to many for her to understand.

"ENOUGH" she yelled silencing her co-workers. "Momo, I need you to triage the critical care patients and i'll take number 1, Yuki Gather up the other two specially trained medical teams and have them pick up at number 2 and 3 we'll work from there." A short haired woman hurried off down a nearby corridor and sakura turned her attention back to a shorter woman who's hair was the same shade as a peach.

"Momo, Give me the details of number one" The peached haired youth study the diagnostic chart a moment before speaking

"A shinobi who just returned to konoha, has a vast amount of internal injuries that none of our current specialists could diagnos, for the moment we've given him a small amount of sedatives but were unsure of how to act. His situation is becomming worse though it's best that we see to him right away." The girl stared back at sakura waiting for the next order.

"Alright lets get to it, we dont have any time to spare, gather up any missing people for my team and have them report to the surgery room immediatly."

"Yes ma'am"

Sakura sighed as she made her way to save yet another life. If only she could save her own.