Secret

Feelings

Chapter 1, Talent is born

"Today's the day you're gonna die!" cried Kyo as he ran towards Yuki. Crash! Kyo was lying flat on the ground on what was a boulder. Yuki didn't say anything, he just walked away.

"Kyo! Are you okay? Say somthing!" cried Tohru going through another panic-spaz moment. She didn't know what to do. 'Why do they have to fight like this?' Tohru thought, 'I guess it's because Kyo wants to be a member of the zodiac and to do that he has to beat Yuki. I wish there was another way.' she felt depressed. Then it hit her, 'That's it! I have another reason to break the curse.' She jumped with joy causing her to land on Kyo.

"Ahhhh!!!" he screamed.

"I'm sorry!" she cried. 'Though I might winde up killing Kyo before that happens.' She sighed as Kyo scolded her.

"Hey Tohru, Orange-top, your late. What's up?" called Uo with the biggest smirk on her face."You didn't force your self on Tohru did you?"

"Uhh!?" cried the confused Tohru.

"Don't even start with me yankee! I'm pissed off as it is!!!" yelled Kyo getting red in the face.

"Someone's flashing pretty red." Uo teased.

"That's because you said something really disgusting!" he responded.

"Shut up you stupid cat you're only making this worse for yourself" said Yuki getting really anoyed. That's when Kyo blew a gaskit. It was another quarril all over again. Insults went this way and that, and poor Tohru worried as to what she should do. Uo and Hana however, seemed pretty amused by the whole thing.

"What ever. I'm going!" Kyo said turning around to leave.

"What, you don't want to play Badmington?" Uo yelled at him.

"I didn't want to play in the first place, but you guys made me!" and he took off. Tohru felt bad, after all she was the one who asked him to play with them yasterday.

Kyo was mad, but not because of Yuki or Uo but because he did it again. He blew up in front of Tohru, and took off. He hated himself for it. 'Man I'm the worst.' he thought, 'Why do I keep doing that? Why? Why, why, why, why, why? How pathetic can I get? Oh well nothing left to do but see what Shishou's doing.' So he headed off to the dojo. When he got there he was surprized that Kazuma was not teaching Martial Arts like he usually does, but instead was playing a guitar. "Shishou?" Kyo said. Kazuma jumped. He wasn't expecting to see Kyo until tomorrow.

"Kyo! What brings you here?" he said embarressed. "I thought you were going out with Yuki and Tohru today." Kyo couldn't help but laugh. Who would have thought that his foster dad, his shishou, played the guitar. "Okay you can stop now Kyo. Hey come on, stop it. Can't a guy play an instrument without being teased at?"

"Sorry Shishou, but it's just too funny. To think you play the guitar.Heh hah heh heh heh." It was hard for Kyo to stop laughing but he was able to pull it off. Then Kazuma handed him the guitar. "Huh?"

"If you think it's so funny then you try." Kazuma said with his classic smile.

"But Shishou..."

"No buts. Think of it as training. I'll even teach you how to play. If you can learn to play to my liking within a month, I'll have you teach the other students in the dojo for a month." Kyo couldn't resist that offer.

"All right you're on." They shook hands and the first lesson began. It was tougher then Kyo had thought. Kazuma had to repeat some of the lessons so much that he thought he would never get it. After two weeks at this Kazuma came up to Kyo before he had left.

"You've been doing a wonderful job Kyo. I think you're ready to start writing songs and go with that."

"You really think so Shishou?" asked Kyo. He couldn't believe it. He thought he was doing terrible. He was so sure that he was bad because of all of the lessons that had to be repeated. He ran home happy. When he got back only Yuki and Shigure were home. "Is Tohru working today?" he asked.

"Yeah. She wont be off until eleven tonight." Yuki responded. Kyo look at the clock, it was nine-thirty. He had time to pick her up.

"I'll get her." he said as he headed for the door. Before Shigure could say some sick joke, he was gone. He ran all the way to where Tohru worked and was out of breath when he got there. "There, and I have time to spare." He leaned against a wall that was right infront of her work place. Some of the other women that worked there saw him and were giggiling in the locker room. Tohru heard them and at first thought that they were talking about Yuki like always. Until she heard them saying something about his orange hair.

"Kyo?" she said when she walked out.

"Tohru! Um, I was just- ya know, picking you up. Rat boy couldn't make so I did and..." He was getting red in the face.

"Thank you Kyo." and they started walking home together. "Uh, Kyo, you've been spending a lot of time over at Kazuma's- you guys must be having a lot of fun huh?"

"Oh you know, same-ol', same-ol'. Just practicing my g-

uh, my, martial arts." he stuttered. Tohru didn't seem to notice. 'Man I almost blew my cover. I can't have anyone find out about this. At least not yet.' He sighed, he had yet to come up with a song.

He sat at his desk with a blank sheet of paper in front of him. His mind was blank. How was he supposed to write a song? Then he remembered what Kazuma had said before, "Think about the most important thing to you Kyo, close you eyes and see it's wonder and beauty, then put it in words." Kyo closed his eyes, then the words just came to him, and he began writing.

The next day there was no school so he went to the dojo. Kazuma was waiting for him with the guitar. Kyo was excited to play his song. "Now Kyo, with this you can come up with your own melody." Kazuma said. Kyo nodded and started to play the guitar. As he started he closed his eyes and pictured Tohru. While he was doing this Tohru was actually showing up. Kazuma had asked her to come over. She stopped dead in her tracks as she heard Kyo play:

"Those fingers laced in mine are what hold me together

Slowly retracing the lives we've led

And that day in the rain is what's keeping me going

Keeping me far from the things I've said

I used to think I could hide behind the mirror

Holding on to what I thought was a life

I'd given up on all the world's complications

Until you stared me down with those bright eyes

Now I can breathe steady

With you standing here next to me

Letting go of all my tired misconceptions

Finally able to just let it be

Building bridges to when I was rejected

piecing together things I couldn't comprhend

What a change of pace to kn-"

Kyo looked up and was shocked to see Tohru standing there with tears in her eyes. "Kyo that was amazing! You're so good. I didn't know you played the guitar. This is realy amazing!" Tohru cried. Kyo was blushing bright red. Why was Tohru here? He looked at Kazuma who had the most guilty looking face since Shigure's last scheme.

"Shishou! You told her! How could you tell her? I wanted to tell her when I was good!" Kyo yelled, getting even redder.

"I didn't tell her Kyo. I just asked her to come over that's all." Tohru was still in awe from Kyo's performance, and it took her awhile before she realized that they were arguing.

"Uh, you didn't want me to hear it?" she asked.

"No that's not it. I did want you to hear it. Just not until I was good." His face was as red as it could get. He looked away from her in embarressment. Tohru noticed and grabbed his hand.

"You're the best Kyo. I mean it. I've never heard anyone play as good as you." Kyo looked at her, noticing once again that sparkle in her eye.

'She's so beautiful.' he thought. 'I love her. I love her so much.' Tears started to roll down his cheek. Tohru wiped them off with her finger.

"Ahem." Kazuma interupted, "Kyo, in this short period of time, you have become even better than me. I say you won the bet." Kyo's smile was as big as it could get.

"Realy? You think I'm that good?"He asked. Kazuma nodded. Kyo couldn't believe it. He was so happy. "All right! Those weaklings won't last a day with me. I'm gonna wipe the floor with them."

"Uh!" Tohru cried. Kyo was overcome with joy and 'accidentily' hugged Tohru. Poof! He transformened into: Itty Bitty Kitty Kyo! "Um, Kyo..." but he was to busy prancing around. Later Tohru was caring him home. "That was a beautiful song Kyo. How'd you come up with it?"

Kyo got all red. "I, I uh you know it uh just came to me that's all." Poof!

"Ahh!" Tohru turned around as fast as she could. It was a good thing they were in the woods. Kyo put on his clothes and told Tohru it was safe to look. "Hey Kyo? How about peforming in the school talent show coming up?

"Huh?"

"Cause you know you're so good and all."she said.

"Nah, I'm not sure if I'm really that good." It was then that Tohru realized that Kyo was different some how. That he hasn't been the same since they left the summer home. Yuki too, they've changed, something happened and she wasn't sure what but it was some how connected with Akito in a way, she was sure of it. There it was calling to her, a small voice, Kyo's voice, but she couldn't hear it.

"I have to open that tightly closed lid. If you would listen I'd like to tell you. Not now but someday." Those were Yuki's words.

'Does Kyo have a tightly closed lid?' she thought, 'I'm sure he does. Even I have things locked up in a box with a closed lid that is difficult to open. I'm sure one day we'll be able to open them up and tell them to ones we care about.'