Prologue

I'd never thought that a moment like this would measure me. It was a dream, but the biggest nightmare all the same.

Finally getting the love I wanted , making me sink in the deepest of darkness, I struggled to stay above the water, not drowning.

Another hit of the pain struck me, making me cry out as my brother held me in his arms in an attempt to soothe me.

If someone asked me that if I could take the hands in time, I would do it differently?

No.

Everything that led to this, today, this moment was painful. But it was worth it, more than worth it even.

No, I wouldn't have done it any other way, but I wished he was here with me. that he would hold my hand.

But he wasn't. He wouldn't.

The front door banged open and my sisters rushed into the room, taking matters in their experienced hands.

I was going to be fine. We were going to be fine.

And that was all that mattered.

At least for now.