I owed him - Snape's Soliloquy
A.N. Another monologue about James and Lily's deaths. God I'm getting repetitive. Advanced warning, I won't post the weekend of July
8th, I'll be reading HP4. Please review. Thanks to Merlyn for letting me use her Snape's family killed by Voldemort storyline.
Disclaimer: I don't own these characters, they belong to J.K. Rowling OBE, Bloomsbury, Scholastic et al. Please don't sue. As I have already
mentioned, Snape's wife and son and their demise belong to Merlyn.
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More deaths.
The Potters, killed by Voldemort. James and Lily, some of my worst enemies. The two people I admired most in the world, though I hate to
admit it. I admired James and Lily.
Perfect Potter, always top of the class, always the centre of a crowd of girls. He could have had any girl in the school. I, Severus Snape was
pushed into the background, humiliated. I owed James my life and I never got a chance to repay him. I HATE James Potter. He hated me
yet he saved my life, now I will never get a chance to repay him. Did he plan the werewolf prank? Would he? If he did why did he pull me
out? Even when he's dead, he still has the power to aggravate me. How will people feel when I'm dead? I have no one, no friends, no
family, no one to mourn for me.
Lily, beautiful, kind and intelligent. She did nothing to me yet I hated her with all my soul. Now she will smile no more.
The Potters had it all: love, beauty, friends and a child. I have none of this and I am left to live out my miserable life tormenting students
and myself. I once had a family but Voldemort took them from me. I owe the Potters double, James saved me and his son avenged my wife
and baby son.
I am grateful to young Harry Potter yet I hate him. He is the son of my second worst enemy, he now has all the hatred I bore for his father
and extra for himself. My only son died at Voldemort's hand, yet perfect Potter's son Survived; another way in which James Potter has bested
me.
How did Potter's son survive? Why didn't mine? Why could Lily and James die together yet I had to be seperated from my wife as she died?
She died because I wouldn't join Voldemort; if I had the same offer now, would I do something different?
I HATE THE POTTERS; I am almost screaming hysterically out loud.
I hate them yet admire them, I envy them with all my heart yet I hate them with all my soul.
Curse the Potters, curse Voldemort, curse Black, Lupin, Pwttigrew and all the rest. I hate them all but mostly I hate myself. It's my fault my
wife died. It's my fault Potter died while I owed him, now I will have to carry that debt all my life. Now I have to control my emotions, this
is a side to Severus Snape no one knew existed, not even me. I can't tell anyone how I feel. They'll laugh at me. No one understands me. I
am Severus Snape, the lone, twisted and prematurely aged potions master. I may think that james Potter was my worst enemy but my real
worst enemy is myself.
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A.N. I really hate that story. I never like anything I write. I'm hoping to get another post done soon. It may be HP&VSW or it may not. Don't
forget to review, I always value people's opinions and constructive criticism.
Nemo 26/5/00
A.N. Another monologue about James and Lily's deaths. God I'm getting repetitive. Advanced warning, I won't post the weekend of July
8th, I'll be reading HP4. Please review. Thanks to Merlyn for letting me use her Snape's family killed by Voldemort storyline.
Disclaimer: I don't own these characters, they belong to J.K. Rowling OBE, Bloomsbury, Scholastic et al. Please don't sue. As I have already
mentioned, Snape's wife and son and their demise belong to Merlyn.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
More deaths.
The Potters, killed by Voldemort. James and Lily, some of my worst enemies. The two people I admired most in the world, though I hate to
admit it. I admired James and Lily.
Perfect Potter, always top of the class, always the centre of a crowd of girls. He could have had any girl in the school. I, Severus Snape was
pushed into the background, humiliated. I owed James my life and I never got a chance to repay him. I HATE James Potter. He hated me
yet he saved my life, now I will never get a chance to repay him. Did he plan the werewolf prank? Would he? If he did why did he pull me
out? Even when he's dead, he still has the power to aggravate me. How will people feel when I'm dead? I have no one, no friends, no
family, no one to mourn for me.
Lily, beautiful, kind and intelligent. She did nothing to me yet I hated her with all my soul. Now she will smile no more.
The Potters had it all: love, beauty, friends and a child. I have none of this and I am left to live out my miserable life tormenting students
and myself. I once had a family but Voldemort took them from me. I owe the Potters double, James saved me and his son avenged my wife
and baby son.
I am grateful to young Harry Potter yet I hate him. He is the son of my second worst enemy, he now has all the hatred I bore for his father
and extra for himself. My only son died at Voldemort's hand, yet perfect Potter's son Survived; another way in which James Potter has bested
me.
How did Potter's son survive? Why didn't mine? Why could Lily and James die together yet I had to be seperated from my wife as she died?
She died because I wouldn't join Voldemort; if I had the same offer now, would I do something different?
I HATE THE POTTERS; I am almost screaming hysterically out loud.
I hate them yet admire them, I envy them with all my heart yet I hate them with all my soul.
Curse the Potters, curse Voldemort, curse Black, Lupin, Pwttigrew and all the rest. I hate them all but mostly I hate myself. It's my fault my
wife died. It's my fault Potter died while I owed him, now I will have to carry that debt all my life. Now I have to control my emotions, this
is a side to Severus Snape no one knew existed, not even me. I can't tell anyone how I feel. They'll laugh at me. No one understands me. I
am Severus Snape, the lone, twisted and prematurely aged potions master. I may think that james Potter was my worst enemy but my real
worst enemy is myself.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
A.N. I really hate that story. I never like anything I write. I'm hoping to get another post done soon. It may be HP&VSW or it may not. Don't
forget to review, I always value people's opinions and constructive criticism.
Nemo 26/5/00