Hey there! This is my first fic ever! Hope you like. Reviews are good for letting me know what needs improvement.
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Muse about Cherubs:
A full white sphere hung among the scattered clouds, casting the world in a blue radiance. I had decided to take a meandering walk thought the forest I had set up camp in.
There weren't any demons, as all knew better than to cross this Sesshomaru. Yes, the night was perfect for me to think, something I could not do in the daylight hours, as Rin required near constant attention. It wasn't that she couldn't take care of herself, she was fairly self sufficient for a child her age. In fact, Rin did not even require supervision, she merely had an unconscious tendency to draw my thoughts to her. Thus the reason I was mulling them over. I needed to figure out the reason why.
Over the past year, I had started to develop strange and unfamiliar emotions towards the now nine year old girl. Rin's childish ways amused this Sesshomaru. Her curiosity made even the smallest things seem profound. Her adoration of me caused a unique sense of pride and happiness. This Sesshomaru loved...no...this Sesshomaru loves no one. Least of all a weak human girl. I would not become like my father. I would not mate a worthless human female and have half-breeds that would undoubtedly turn out as weak and useless as Inuyasha.
'But Rin is special! Any puppies you have with her will certainly be a blessing rather than a curse.'
The voice in my head had a point, but I did not 'love' Rin. While this Sesshomaru admits that I tolerate Rin, I do not have special affection for her. Not only would that go against everything this Sesshomaru has learned from the old Inutaisho's mistakes, it would be taking advantage of a small child, and while child brides were common, this Sesshomaru had no wish for one, demon or human.
'You do too care for Rin! Father and that whore Izayoi never had a relationship like this.'
I mused on how I could dispose of that voice, it was starting to annoy me, but I knew it was true. The latter part, anyway. I loped back to the campsite, rolling the words through my head.
Reaching the area where I had left a sleeping Rin and Jaken, I glanced towards the sky, determining it to be a few minutes before dawn. My eyes were then drawn to Rin, gazing upon her sleeping face. She was very angelic in appearance, my very own cherub. I noticed that a flower was tucked behind her ear, still there after I had twined Rin's daily gift of such blooms into her silken locks, rather than eating it as I usually did. It seemed to make her happy, and the thought had me feeling like I would explode from joy. Then realization hit me. I felt like that because I DID care about Rin. It was impossible, and yet it WAS. I stood shocked from the epiphany until I had noticed that dawn had broken.
"It is time to go." I stated, loud enough to rouse my companions.
"Rin! You heard Lord Sesshomaru! Get up you useless human!" Jaken screeched as he jumped to his feet, shaking the staff he always held (even in sleep) at Rin, and earning him a swift stomp, bringing his face in contact with the hardened dirt. He had no right talk to my Rin like that.
Rin began waking from her slumber, her eyes fluttering as she was roused back to reality. The sweet cherub stretched her arms above her head before smiling and rising to a standing position from leaning on Ah-Un.
"Good morning Lord Sesshomaru!" Rin exclaimed, baring her teeth in happiness.
"This Sesshomaru wishes to leave now." Jaken hurriedly packed everything while Rin ate a breakfast of berries. Rin looked adorable stuffing her face. I couldn't help the twitch of my lip as I watched. Yes, although this Sesshomaru can not 'love' Rin, I did care for her.
Rin mounted Ah-Un while Jaken took the reins in his grasp. They were now ready to leave. I merely turned and started to walk, hiding my smile as we continued our journey.
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Wow, the ending was horrible, but I couldn't think of anyway else to write it, it was a lot better in my head, when I only had the beginning and the ending to think about. Any comments are welcome, although I would much more appreciate constructive criticism rather than flames. Remember, I can't improve unless you tell me what I need to improve on.