This takes place following Stef confronting Lena about the kiss with Monte following the trip to Idyllwild.
Lena sat there on the couch teary eyed. She felt the most uncomfortable feeling in the bottom of her stomach. Stef had every right to be angry and heartbroken. How could she have kept such a secret from Stef? She was more upset with herself then Stef was, She loved Stef more than anything in the world, and would do anything to take that moment back. Lena sat there her face in her hands trying to think of a way to fix this.
Stef lay on her side of their bed. She felt so hurt and empty. The world felt different knowing that Lena of all people was capable of hurting her this way. Stef somewhat blamed herself deep down, maybe all of the times Lena asked her to be open she should have tried harder to connect with her wife, and could have avoided this hurt.
She heard footsteps on the stairs coming near their bedroom.
Lena knelt down so she was face to face with Stef, she reached for her hand and pulled it to her cheek.
"Honey I know you probably hate me right now… but you have to know that kiss meant nothing. No kiss, no person, nothing in the entire world means more to me than you. I'm sorry. You were right, I should have said something, I just didn't want to upset this great thing we have over something that means nothing at all." Lena stopped speaking. She knew this was something that needed time, but she also knew she needed to do everything she could.
Stef didn't look at her, she looked past her the entire time she spoke, she couldn't look Lena in the eyes, the eyes she loved so much, were too heavy for her broken heart to bare.
Stef just left the tears roll to her pillow. She could say anything back. She hated seeing Lena upset, but she just couldn't bring herself to do anything but lay there on her side of the bed.
Lena kissed Stef's cheek and went in the bathroom to shower.
The hotwater made Lena feel a bit of comfort, at least enough to stop the constant tears for a moment. She got ready for bed.
Lena hated lying on her side of the bed, only inches away from Stef, but it felt like miles. She wanted nothing more than to wrap her arms around her, and to kiss her… just to comfort Stef the way she did anytime she was upset. This time she couldn't be her comfort because she was the cause. She turned out the light on her side of the bed.
"I love you." Lena said. Stef didn't respond. For the first time in ten years Stef didn't say it back. Lena's eyes filled with tears and she closed them. Hoping sleep would ease her hearts pain.