~~ I felt like writing this after reading a few Miaka-Yui fanfics and when
I saw the oav episode "Parting... and then" whick filled me with an
intense bittersweet feeling. I mean, it was really sad that Miaka couldn't
stay with Tamahome ( they 're in my favorite FY couples list by the way)
and how Miaka reacted, but on the other hand, before I watched this episode
I believed that Miaka's first prioprity should be the protection of her
friendship with Yui. I know that there is more ( with the globes of memory
e.t.c.) but I like to think of this episode as an alternative ending.
Anyway, this fic is from Yui's pov. I know Yui is kinda out -of- character
in this. (hmm...) After you read please write a review. ~~

Disclaimer: I do not own " Fushigi Yuugi " and the characters I wrote
about.

[ Time and place setting: Night, in Miaka's room. The two girls share the
same room for this night, Miaka is sleeping but Yui is awake, absorbed by
her personal thoughts...]

Hidden Love

Kneeling by your bed
while you 're sleeping so peacefully,
I smile sadly at you
refusing, insisting not to cry
Your soul is so gentle
always filled with unending courage deep within
to face the dark and the pain of an unkhown world
But I am afraid
your heart
always shinning with such beauty
is a precious gift that I am not allowed to touch
with all the love and care
that exist secretly and forever in my heart
I tried to deny it, pressed myself too much
and even turned myself against you
and walked away from everything we shared... remember?
" Don't worry " I whisper softly to you, " I know the love I feel for you
and I will never, ever...
Hurt you..."

Then I lean closer to you
My trembling hand brushes affectionately your auburn hair
And I can feel the tears moistening my eyes...
If you only knew...
that I have one single wish...
to let me in your warm heart, to be yours
and always with you- in life and death...

I'm here now.
Nothing will ever tear me apart from you...
My whole existence finds its source in you,
and even simple things about you make me happy
your everyday presence, seeing you smile at me or when we talk...

I hold your warm hand in mine
rubbing it softly and leave a careful kiss on it
hoping it won't disturb your sleep...
I close my eyes
feeling your sweet breath against my hand and face
I sigh quietly and whisper your name...
At least, I know that
We 'll share another day together
Like tomorrow, in school
and still so many fond words will remain hidden
from day's light
But I hope someday
we ''ll reach out together
the dream of pure love and never-ending friendship.

~~ + ~~

Thanks for reading!