What Bella Thinks But Would Never Say
Disclaimer- Characters not mine.
To Esme-
You make me feel like my
childhood meant nothing.
To Carlisle-
I hope it hurt you as much
as it hurt me when Edward left you all those years ago. Just so somebody could
understand.
To Rosalie-
Every time I get jealous of
you I remind myself that I should be glad I'm not you. Edward doesn't
love you.
To Emmet-
You keep reminding me I'm
human and I hate you for it.
To Alice-
You tell me I'm beautiful
and that Edward will change me. I'm really getting sick of this false
hope.
To Jasper-
I keep feeling that if
Alice and Edward weren't alive (existing
as they say) that we would fall in love.
To Edward-
I'll never forgive you for
all your selflessness.
To Jacob-
You originally meant as a
distraction from Edward. Sadly, you still are.
To Renee-
I wish you were more like
a mother, and I hate myself for that.
To Charlie-
When you smile at me, you
give me reason to stay human. Stop it. Please.
A/N
Warning- With Jasper, I
through in some crazy noncanon feelings. I wish they were closer in
the book though.
Okay really now. Bella isn't canon here! Hardly anything is. Her feelings and thoughts during this fic are my own delusional twistings of her character.
When I was writing this, I didn't intend for her to come across as malicious or hostile. She's not honest with herself, even in her thoughts (as we learned in New Moon). But I think that if she was honest, she would feel this way. I know I would.
The point of this fic was that Bella hardly ever anknowledges things she doesn't like about the other characters in the book. And even though she feels this way about them she would never dwell on it or tell them.( hence the title).
Her love and adoration for every character listed above outweighs and overwrites these problems. All the problems she has with them above are miniscule compared to the way she loves them, so she she would never confront any of those problems head on with the other person.
And no, these are not my opinions of the characters. Only what I think Bella''s should be.