heyy, first songfic, it's probably awful :) oh well :D
ok, this is based on the song Run by Snow Patrol, which is an amazing song, soooo, look it up, listen to it, it's good :D
this is during Twilight, and Edward is playing Bella's lullaby before she goes to...somewhere (can't be bothered to go get the book :D )with jasper and Alice, you know, at the end :D
during the 'to think I might not see those eyes bit' the POV of the SONG changes to Bella, but all the non-italics (song) is Bella POV and all the song apart frm that one verse is Edward POV :D just so you know :D
I did miss out the other 'louder louder' verses beacuse it would be repetitve :) ...soo...yeah.
on with the story! :)
'Once more Edward? Please?' I whispered
He chuckled sadly, 'Only once'
He started playing again, my song.
I'll sing it one last time for you
The song ended again, and Edward rested his hands lightly on the keys.
'That was the last time Bella, you have to leave now.'
Then we really have to go
'Ok,' I murmured, disappointed.
'You know I love you right? I don't know what I did to deserve you...'
You've been the only thing that's right
In all I've done.
'I know, I love you too, and it's me that's not worthy of you, not the other way round.
I looked up, he was still gazing at his hands, which hadn't moved.
And I can barely look at you
His eyes flicked up to meet mine, golden and bright.
But every single time I do
'We'll be fine Bella, I'll come back for you, I always will'
I know we'll make it anywhere, away from here
'Cheer up Bella,' He said, clearly seeing the tears rolling down my face.
Light up, Light up
'How can I? I don't even know if I'll ever see you again,'
'For me Bella, you know you can,'
As if you have a choice
'And you know, even if I'm not right there, I'm always with you, my love is always within you.'
Even if you cannot hear me voice
I'll be right beside you dear
'Whenever you need me Bella, just call, I'll be with you in an instant'
I didn't think he was exaggerating.
Louder, Louder
'You have to go soon Bella, they'll find you soon.'
And we'll run for our lives
His voice was thick, as though he was suppressing tears that could never come.
I can hardly speak, I understand
...Not that I was any better, at least he could still choke out words.
Why you can't raise your voice to say...
I stared into his golden eyes, trying to convey what I was trying to say, wishing more than ever he could read my mind.
To think I might not see those eyes,
To never see his face again...
Makes it so hard not to cry,
I was choking back tears again, my vision blurring, I could not see him through my tears...
And as we say our long goodbye, I nearly do,
But I was not going to let them fall, I would be strong, for myself. For him.
I held his face between my hands and pressed my lips to his desperately, this could be our last kiss...
Time stopped.
Slower, slower,
After a few moments he pulled away, 'Bella, stop, please, you have to go...'
We don't have time for that
'I just wish...' I choked, 'I wish that we had more time...'
All I want is to find an easier way,
'Hush, hush, don't think like that, it's all in your mind, there's no need to be so worried'
To get out of our little heads
'Be brave, Bella, you can get through this,'
Have heart, my dear
'I'm not surprised that you're scared, it's natural...'
You're bound to be afraid
I'll be with you again when it's over, less than a week, I promise,'
Even if only for a few days,
A thought came to me then and I started choking a laugh
'Bella? What is it?' Edward seemed worried at my sudden reversal of mood
'I suppose it's only fair that something like this happens,' I said
'What? For all the difficulty we've been through already, Fate decided to add one more?'
Making up for all this mess,
'No, this has been too perfect so far, but nothing's perfect' I corrected him, smiling.
'Oh, I have to disagree...' He said, staring at me.
'I suppose you're right,' I replied, staring back at him.
'Bella?'
Both our heads snapped round to see Alice standing in the doorway,
'Bella, it's time to go, we must hurry, Jasper's waiting, and they're coming closer.'
'Yes, Alice, I'm just coming...' I turned back to Edward, and he held my tightly, my tears soaking his shirt. I promised myself I wouldn't cry, but I couldn't do that, it was too hard, so I gave in.
'Goodbye Bella, I'll come soon, and everything will be fine,'
'Goodbye...'
He stood up and led me to the door, then turned and sat at the piano again.
As I turned back to see him for the last time in God knew how long, I watched as he started playing my song again head down.
I turned my back, so he did not see my tears, and left.
ugh, so, that was awful I know...the end is really rushed cos i'm tired and slightly sugar-high, cos I went to see Eclipse today (friday, 9th july) at the cinema with a frend and we had lots of sweets and cola :D and now i'm drinking pepsi...not the best idea...
anyway! never mind! :D review? :) I'd really appreciate someone telling me it's not as awful as I think it is, but dont lie, if it's awful, tell me, I can take it :D