AN: The song at the end is Unintended by muse. i don't own it or muse or anything at all.
How long had he been drinking for? It was impossible to tell.
His mouth was numb with the burning liquid he had been downing since he had awoken, he still had a hangover from last night but it didn't matter much to him, he was used to it by now, ever since Chas came to stay.
He knew it was wrong to have such impure thoughts of a boy so young but there was nothing he could do.
He was obsessed with Chas, everything he did drove the exorcist mad with lust. Something so simple as a yawn turned into infatuation.
Sometimes he would stare at the boy for so long his eyes lost focus, Chas was beginning to suspect something was wrong.
John had become so withdrawn of late and instead of confiding in a friend he had turned to drinking (more than usual). There was rarely a second of the day John wasn't drunk.
He swilled the amber liquid around the glass staring deep into it, searching for the answer to his troubles, the answer he would never find.
Finally he tossed back the liquid taking a deep drag of his fresh cigarette.
Then he heard the door open, Chas no doubt nobody else had the nerve to walk into John's apartment without knocking first.
John didn't even look up just continued taking long drags of his cigarette.
He heard Chas sit down across from him, could feel the boys icy stare, he could even hear Chas's heavy breathing perfectly synchronised with his own.
"What?" He asked raising his eyes to look him in the eye.
"Don't what me! All you ever do is drink, smoke and pass out! When's the last time you were at an exorcism John?" Chas said angrily his brown eyes wide.
"What's the point kid? I'm going to hell either way I might as well enjoy myself before I get there." Was his reply as he poured himself another large whiskey.
"C'mon John don't talk like that I'm worried about you." Chas pleaded silently with his eyes begging John to listen.
His chastity was blatantly obvious it made John want him all the more.
But it was much more that just lust, obsession or infatuation. No, it went much deeper than that it was love.
Love for a boy he knew would never love him back, who could never return his feeling.
And John knew he could never reveal his feelings, he would never involve Chas in the mistakes he'd made in the life he had before.
So instead he would settle for observing from a distance, he would remain cold because no one could ever be as good as Chas, no one came close.
You could be my unintended
Choice to live my life extended
You could be the one I'll always love
You could be the one who listens to my deepest inquisitions
You could be the one I'll always love
I'll be there as soon as I can
But I'm busy mending broken pieces of the life I had before
First there was the one who challenged
All my dreams and all my balance
She could never be as good as you
You could be my unintended
Choice to live my life extended
You should be the one I'll always love
I'll be there as soon as I can
But I'm busy mending broken pieces of the life I had before
I'll be there as soon as I can
But I'm busy mending broken pieces of the life I had before
Before you