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Hi I'm from England I love the OC and I'll be gutted when it ends but for now please read and reveiw. I have already written most of the story on the OC boards anyways I hope you enjoy reading it please reveiw xxx

Ryan sat on the edge of his bed with his face in his hands.

Knock, Knock

He didn't lift his head, how could he look at anyone now everyone he ever trusted in his life had let him down why did he think this would be any different, why didn't he just give up now get the rest of his life over with then he could just be happy a word he barely knew, something he only knew with one person…

Knock, Knock

A face peered round the door

"Look I know its hard sweetie but you have to come in & have something to eat"

"Not hungry" came his reply

"Honey you have to eat something, I know you don't want to do anything you just want to stay here & be left to drown in your own sorrows but you have to face the outside but the quicker you do the less it will hurt & the pain will heal soon…"

"PAIN" he yelled cutting her off mid-sentence "you don't know anything about pain, you don't know how to be upset you don't know anything" tears were running down his cheeks & he found himself stood up towering over her feeling a unusual sense of power like all he could do was throttle her & he would feel a thing, no self regret, nothing.

She stood up terrified but didn't show anything, she grabbed his shoulders & shook him hard

"Calm down" she said softly, her voice barley above a whisper

He suddenly felt all his anger melt here was a woman who wanted him & would never leave him, he couldn't hurt her even if he wanted to. He would hate to admit it to anyone in case is hard guy chino reputation was lost but he loved her with all his heart he wouldn't let anything happen to her

He found himself sought of hugging her as she hugged him back never wanting to let him go she whished she could take away all his pain & his past & make everything better, but she couldn't however hard she might try his pain would always be there & she knew as well as anybody skeletons don't stay in closets forever. His past will come back one day it was just a matter of time but for now she was just happy hugging the beautiful blue eyed boy she called her son.

Seth & Summer were hanging out at the Cohen's pool arguing flirtatiously & splashing each other. Ryan watched wishing he could be as happy with Marissa as Seth was with Summer.

FLASHBACK

"I cant do this anymore Ryan I loved you, still love you but I cant go on with not having anyone you always punch first ask questions later at first it was kind of cute but now…look I'm going & there nothing your going to do about it & if you try anything I'll never speak to you again" Marissa tried to explain through her tears

"So this is it your going to leave me, your going to go to New York & forget me just like everyone else in my life has" Ryan felt so angry, so hurt he trusted her she knew that he had dealt with more pain then she could ever imagine but still it seemed to Ryan that she set out to hurt him.

"Ry you're the only one you can blame I'm sick of your 'oh I'm such a hard guy' attitude there's nothing left for me in Newport there was only you but…"

"But you don't love me anymore just 'cause I got into one stupid little fight & while I was grounded you decided to go & find someone else to hook up with who just happen to be my brother…" Ryan fumed on deciding that volume was the only way to get his point across

"Two, & I've not seen Trey for months not since he went to Texas with Holly…" arguing her case

"Excuse me?" Ryan said stunned

"You got yourself into two fights not one" Marissa corrected

"You hooked up with my brother" Ryan yelled in her face, she took a step backwards in fear of him she knew what he was capable of & it scared her a little "I was grounded for three & a half weeks & you couldn't wait that long for me, you want to know why I kicked the sh.it out of those creeps? Well do you want to or not?" he wasn't yelling anymore but he was still angry & he still had a voice filled with pain & hurt.

Marissa nodded

"Because they were planning to rape you, they knew I had to leave Sarah's party early & they knew about you & the drink…"

"Sarah's party? They couldn't the only people who would think of doing anything like that are…OMG was it Brice was it Craig & Brice, those sick…"

"Hey, hey, hey don't get upset I sorted them out, right?

She cracked a small smile "your brother?"

"Yeah" his voice lowered to a normal "well…"

"OMG so he's back to get you back for something that happened when you were kids? Doesn't he know of a little thing called 'letting it go'?"

"I guess not but he's 5 years older than Trey so he was practically grown up when I was I kid he hung out with his mates & he had more girlfriends than my mum had boyfriends but that isn't the point you hooked up with him 'cause you couldn't wait 2 weeks for me"

"I didn't hook up with him I got drunk at Jason's party & we kissed, that's it "

"THAT'S IT" he stormed "THAT'S YOUR EXCUSE?"

"See you around Ryan"

END OF FLASHBACK