Lets pretend in Neverland that there was no cannon……just pretend this could happen…

CHAPTER 1

Sara's Pov.

She couldn't believe she just did that… but she did just do that. She Sara Sidle C.S.I. level 3 just told the women she secretly loved that she hated her. It was the slip of the tongue during one of their worse arguments but it didn't matter. Right as it came out the hurt in the older woman's eyes was unmistakable. So here she sat alone, cold and staring at the front of her apartment building from her car. She knew no one would be coming by to check on her. No one needed to and no one wanted to. So she took her time mentally berating herself in the front seat of her car.

FLASHBACK

"I know your type just like her disobeying men. She needed to be taught trained for her purpose and she was"

"You bastard!" Sara screamed at the suspect in the interrogation room and threw herself at him ready to attack.

"SARA" Catherine yelled pulling her back hoping that no one provoked the other any further

"Can I see you in my office please?" Catherine spoke in a controlled but angry voice.

Once they got to the office it was as if all hell had been let loose

"Sara what the hell are you thinking you cant go and scream at suspect no matter how much you want to…..what is wrong with you?!"

"Me! Ha you want to talk about what's wrong with me I can't believe you it's him we should be talking about!! or maybe you just want to go and screw him to make sure"

"you have no right to say that and my personal life is absolutly none of your business and guess what Sara its not up to me and its not up to you but until the evidence proves him guilty he is innocent you can't just do what you did. You go over the top and we both know what happened the last time and dammit if you keep this up it will happen again!"

" god catherine you don't know what he does to those girls what the go through you come in here pretending to give a damn about the victims but guess what you don't!"

"Oh come on Sara don't gimme that shit you know I care but at least I can control it you- you go too far and it pisses everyone off!"

"OHH now I get it I'm the official lab Nazi meet me and you get no merci is THAT IT!"

"Yes Sara it is and until you get your goddamn head out of your ass and treat suspects as human beings you shouldn't be here maybe you should just go home and drink yopurself into oblivion again"

"You bitch if we werent in this office i swear ..."

"what sara what would you do huh?"

"You see Catherine its people like you that I hate!"...

All of the sudden it was quiet the anger and regret in Sara's eyes were as obvious as the hurt in Catherine's. Both women were breathing hard and now down to glaring at each other. When Sara finally gave in and slammed the door behind her leaving a tear brimmed Catherine behind.

END FLASHBACK

Catherine's Pov.

Oh my god.

Did she just say that…. I can't believe she said that. Am I that much of a bitch. No…NO! I am not. Ughhh oh god yes I am. We both knew that guy was a monster and a wife beater but Sara had the guts to actually tell him. No no no what Sara did was wrong you should treat every suspect innocent until proven guilty. But what if you know their guilty. STILL she shouldn't have done that damn you Grissom it's your damn fault i'm so confused right now. I don't think I should have said those things to her. Great! Now I get to go apologize to her. What's wrong with me I can't even continue hating the women I love for even a minute after she leaves? Now THIS really sucks.

Seeing Gil walking down the hall she calls out to him

"hey Gil"

"Yes Catherine what can I do for you"

"I need to know Sara's home address"

Looking wary Gil answered "Cath. I'm not so sure that's a good idea…"

"Please Gil I have to make it right PLEASE"

"Fine" he sighed "you had better fix this "he drifted off

"Thanks Gil"

After driving and anxiously waiting she finally got to Sara's apartment complex. She looked around the outside. Well it wasn't the Belagio but it was adequate stopping her exam of the area when she spotted a slouched figure in what she recognized as Sara's car. She slowly walked over making out the shaped of a slightly moving figure she got up to window and tapped. Abruptly the figure snapped it head up making Catherine jump back but stepping forward when she saw who it was.

"Sara"

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