Jacob stopped the truck infront of my dark house, cutting the engine so it was suddenly silent. Like so many other times, he seemed to be in tune with my thoughts now.
He threw his other arm around me,crushing me against his chest, binding me to him. Again, this felt nice. Almost like being a whole person again.
I thought he would be thinking of harry again, but then he spoke, and his tone was apologetic."Sorry. I know you don't feel exactly the way i do, Bells. I swear i dont mind. I'm just so glad you're okay that I could sing- and thats something no one wants to hear" He laughed his throaty laugh in my ear
My breathing kicked up a notch,sanding the walls of my 't Edward, indifferent as he might be, want me to be as happy as possible, under the circumstances? Wouldn't enough friendly emotion linger for him to want that much for me? I thought he would. He wouldn't begrudge me this: giving just a small bit of the love he didn't want to my friend Jacob.
Jake pressed his warm cheek against the top of my hair. If i turned my head to the side-if i pressed my lips against his bare shoulder... I knew without a doubt what would happen. It would be very easy. There would be no need for explanations tonight.
Butterflies assaulted my stomach as I began to turn my head.
And then, as clearly as if i were in immediate danger,Edward's velvety voice whispered in my ear.
"Be happy" he told me.
I froze.
Jacob felt me stiffen and released me automatically, reaching for the door.
"wait!" i said. Jacob turned to look at me questioningly.
"i need to explain this right" i stated.
"What is it?" asked jacob with his smile that i loved but rarely saw on his face.
"I need you to know that i'm not settling or are much too good for me Jacob. No listen" i said as he tried to interrupt. "you already know that i'm broken, but not the extent of it. "
I told him about the hallucinations and explained about the voices i heard. The times when the hole in my chest gets really bad.
Everything.
When i was finished i looked at my hands in my lap.
"Bella" jacob began. " yeah?" looked up at him." I don't care."Immediately after saying this, he put his warm hand to my cheek and pulled my face to his.