Disclaimer: This is my first fic, so please be gentle. This is what happens after watching the ending of Escaflowne five times in a night. Please R&R. All characters and other stuff are copyrights of Shoji Kawamori. Heaven Knows is a very beautiful and inspiring song by Rick Price.
Italicized lyrics
HEAVEN KNOWS
She's always on my mind
"You seem so near...yet, so far."
From the time I wake up,
"You know what, we can see each other..."
Till I close my eyes
"...anytime we want..."
She's everywhere I go
"...we just have to think of each other..."
She's all I know
"...Hitomi..."
And though she's so far away,
Van stares out into the Mystic Moon as it casts a longing reflection in his hazel irises.
It just keeps getting
Stronger everyday
He closes his eyes and pictures Hitomi in his mind, smiling.
And even now she's gone
I'm still holding on
Clutching the red pendant hanging around his neck, he wishes with all his heart for a miracle to happen.
So tell me, where do I start
'Cause it's breakin' my heart
Van remembers how Hitomi have always reminded him. "If you wish hard enough, your wish shall be answered." A faint smile curves his lips as if he can actually hear her voice in his head.
Don't wanna let her go
"I miss you..." a short whisper escaped his mouth.
Maybe my love will come back someday
Only Heaven knows
Wings sprouted on his back, white angelic feathers falling off from them as he dove from his dragon to reach for her hand, his angelic being casting a shadow on his face.
And maybe our hearts will find a way
But only Heaven knows
He charged everyone in the way, did not even hesitate in cutting off the serpent's head just to arrive at her side. Blocking her protectively, he positioned his sword, all ready for any upcoming assault.
And all I can do is hope and pray
'Cause Heaven knows
He embraces her out of the way, as both of them fall into the ruins of Fanelia, away from the abrupt flare up from behind...his arms wrapped around her warmly.
My friends keep telling me
He runs...away from his regrets...despite of the cold rain.
That if you really love her,
You've gotta set her free
"I should have told you." ...as fast as he can...
And if she returns in kind
I'll know she's mine
"I'll protect you." ...but only as far as his longing can take him...
But tell me, where do I start
"In time with my own heartbeat..."
'Cause it's breakin' my heart
"Don't die! Don't die on me, Hitomi!"
Don't wanna let her go
"Hitomi!"
Maybe my love will come back someday
The dragon flees, its wings in flails against the cool night breeze.
Only Heaven knows
"I could only reach for the moon, the beautiful Mystic Moon."
The stars watch him, thoughts conquering his mind. "Hitomi, I want to see you again."
And maybe our hearts will find a way
Light engulfs him, granting his wish, as he disappears into the night sky.
But only Heaven knows
Finding himself in a familiar-looking strange land, the mythical place where they have met for the first time, he can only reach for her.
And all I can do is hope and pray
He gets hold of her hand, not wanting to let her go.
'Cause Heaven knows
"Hitomi, I'll never let you..." A warm embrace envelops him in surprise.
Why I live in despair
The rain pours onto his body, soaking him, as he walks absent-mindedly in the rain.
'Cause wide awake or dreamin'
I know she's never there
He bows his head, his eyes shut in defeat, water splashing off his hair.
And all the time I act so brave,
I'm shakin' inside
He stops, his hands closing up into fists, yelling at himself. He struggled violently, wanting to scream, and hating himself for letting her go.
Why does it hurt me so?
Van looks up and cries out the ache in his heart into the dark skies, his magnificent wings betraying his loneliness. They spread out marvelously underneath the heavy downpour.
Maybe my love will come back someday
A vision of her flashes in his mind...her peacefulness, her smile. He is coming for her.
Only Heaven knows
He screams in determination, wings sprouting from his back, as feathers fall into the hells of war.
And maybe our hearts will find a way
"Hitomi, I'm coming!" She is waiting for him.
But only Heaven knows
Green light burns perpetually...the heart of the machine cracks open.
And all I can do is hope and pray
And there...an angel...with open arms, dashes his way toward his waiting magic.
'Cause Heaven knows
A loving embrace overjoys his heart, knowing that they share a common feeling...this love they have for each other, this emotion of theirs surpass even that fate of war, which is born of man.
Heaven knows
"Even if we're worlds apart." A magnificent dragon soars high up in the azure skies, its destination uncertain.
Heaven knows
A single star twinkles, saying a wish has been granted.
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Author's Note: It was as if the song was made especially for Van and Hitomi. Sorry, but that's how I really felt. So I made an AMV for this songfic. Proceed to Chapter 4 for the link.
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PS: I'm not trying to boast around, but I have a classmate who looks like Van Fanel. LOL. One time, he even dressed up like him for role-playing, and WHOA! he looked GREAT!