This is my new story I hope you like it, any and all suggestions for it are welcome via review or PM

It's my own twist of Hiatus, an episode I've never done a story coming from, I've changed the time that Jibbs was together to let them have older children, I hope that's ok and that you like this.

The title comes from a song called More than anything by Rudimental featuring Emeli Sande, no surprise there

More than anything

Previously on NCIS:

"then get me a gurney"

"Gibbs can't remember Ducky"

"And I killed Ari"

"I was wrong"

"You weren't wrong"

"I was angry at Mike, I couldn't understand how he could quit…until now"

As soon as Gibbs was out of sight, having stepped into the elevator with Ducky by his side, Jenny left her place on the catwalk and walked as quickly as she could back to her office, not wanting anyone to see the tears that were threatening to fall.

The minute she walked into her office she shut the door behind her and leant against it, finally letting the tears fall, she couldn't believe that her world was falling apart, how had the last twenty four hours had turned her world on its head.

She had to resist the temptation of having a stiff drink but she knew it was wrong, she needed to have a clear head.

Instead she walked over to her chair and collapsed into it, she opened her desk draw and lifted out what she found, her wedding rings, she slipped them on to her hand where they had been since her husband and placed them there, her husband being the man that had just walked out, quit his job to go on a margarita safari, a man who claimed he remembered everything yet his mind was a little hazy on the fact that he had a family, that they had been married for the past eighteen years.

Jenny had completely forgotten that she would have to explain to their three children why their father wasn't coming home and probably wasn't coming home for a while or perhaps, even though she dreaded to think ever.

An hour later she still sat in her office, no longer crying but instead her face was stone cold with emotion, she just stared off into the distance, thinking of all the memories that had happened in this office, Gibbs and Jenny first meeting, she telling him she was pregnant with their third child, the late night dinners, the surprise cup of coffee left on her desk in the mornings, the sweet fleeting kisses when both got a moment, the arguments that always got resolved when they got home but started in the office.

Her office door slamming open made her almost fall out of her chair, she looked over to the door and envisioned her husband standing there, yet she was disappointed when she blinked and it was Ducky, and for once in his life he actually looked upset and a little angry.

"Did he get on the plane?" Jenny asked him.

Ducky gave her a small nod "Why didn't you say anything Jennifer?" he asked her.

Jenny closed her eyes for a moment before talking "Jethro remembers everything Ducky, everything but me, his family, I thought that maybe….maybe if he didn't remember us that maybe he doesn't want to….. to be with me, with the kids, maybe….maybe I was only supposed to be another ex-wife to him…the only reason he stayed with me was because he felt obligated to when we had Jay and then along came Jess and then LJ then maybe he felt trapped and couldn't leave"

"Jennifer do you hear yourself" Ducky yelled at her "This is Jethro were talking about, he wouldn't do that, he loves you, he loves your family, your children" he told her "He doesn't remember because he is focused on his past at the moment, but I assure you the moment that he remembers his future, his present, you, then he'll come back"

Jenny nodded "I hope you're right, I don't know what I'm going to tell the kids" she said feeling sick at the thought.

"The only problem with him returning will be that he'll be angry when he realises you didn't say anything to him" Ducky warned her before going to turn away to the door. "He spoke about you, he asked me what type of a relationship you had with him" he stopped and turned to her.

"What did you tell him?" she asked literally sitting on the edge of her seat.

Ducky shrugged his shoulders "I told him the truth, you two love each other very much" and with that Ducky walked out of the office leaving Jenny alone with her own thoughts.

Jenny sat for another couple of minutes before picking up her stuff and put on a brave face for her journey home so she could face her children and tell them the truth.

Half an hour later Jenny walked through the front door of the George town house that she, Jethro and their children had called home for the last eighteen years.

The minute she'd shut the door she heard the sound of feet rumbling through the house, just as she'd hung up her coat the three children appeared, Jasper Jackson was eighteen, Jessica Anne was twelve and in her oldest son's arms was a squirming two and a half year old Lucas Jethro.

"Hey guys" Jenny hugged them all and kissed the sides of their heads, she had to stand on her tip toes to kiss Jay as he had inherited the Gibbs tall genes and so his height was rivalling Jethro's.

"Where's dad?" Jess asked with a concerned look on her face.

"Well uh…." Jenny took a breath "He's gone to visit uncle Mike for a couple of weeks, he had a tough case and needed some space but he sends his love" she told them faking a bright smile.

"I'll put LJ to bed" Jenny said taking her youngest from her eldest's arms and then carried her baby boy up the stairs.

Every single one of her children's bedroom held an item of handmade furniture that they had worked on with him in the basement, Jess had a trunk with her name written on it, Jay had his bed frame which was handmade, Jenny wasn't sure what Lucas would have but right now he was using the same baby bed that her two other children had used when they were his age.

"Come on baby boy, sleep time" she whispered soothingly to him before pressing a kiss to his dark brown curls and watching as his blue eyes closed and soon he fell asleep, Jenny switched on his baby mobile and his night light before walking out and closing the door behind her, knowing full well he would wake up in a couple of hours, crying for his father to read to him.

Once out of the room she walked down the corridor, passing her daughter's bedroom as she did so and was happy to hear music blaring from the speakers with in, she hadn't caught on to her mother lying.

Jenny then made her way back down the stairs and to the kitchen, getting herself some coffee, she and Jethro had agreed to cut down their alcohol intake, so they only drank bourbon on rare occasions.

Just as she'd poured herself some coffee a figure in the doorway made her jump "Oh Jasper" she put her hand over her heart to stop it beating so fast "You've got to stop creeping up on me like that" she told him with a soft smile before moving over to him. "You're getting more and more like your father every day" she informed him moved a piece of his dark brown hair out of his face.

"Mum, what's going on?" he asked her.

Jenny gulped before answering her son in an almost shaky voice "I already told you" she said before turning back to the coffee pot and then pulled out two mugs out of habit, her heart sank for a moment and all her walls crumbled at once, a tear fell down her cheek, she felt strong arms wrap around her and found that Jasper was holding her for a moment before he let go.

"Please tell me" Jay asked his mother, just like his father he knew when Jenny was holding something back.

"Fine" Jenny nodded before wiping her eyes, feeling stupid for showing her son weakness, "But you can't tell Jess or LJ" she told him.

"I won't" Jasper assured his mother.

"Your father was in an explosion and hit his head, in doing so it meant he lost his memory, Ziva managed to get it back but he still doesn't remember us" she explained "I don't know why, but I thought it would just come to him but it didn't" Jenny shook her head "And now your father is gone and I don't know if he's going to come back let alone remember any of us again"

Jay wasn't sure what to say, his father had been his hero his whole life, his idol, he'd walked away, he couldn't believe that his father, the great Leroy Jethro Gibbs was off in Mexico drinking himself silly and possibly flirting with women at the cantina when he had a family that wanted him back home.

"I've had a long day, I'm going to go to bed" she told her son.

"I'll lock up" Jay told her.

"Thank you" she pressed a kiss to her son's forehead before walking away up the stairs to her bedroom that she usually shared with her husband, it would be a night spent of no sleep but thoughts and quiet crying. She just wanted her husband home.

TBC…

I hope you like this, I'm not great at writing son and parent relationships as I only have sisters and my dad never sees his parents.

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