Strange Happenings
(kendall dominant/slight Kogan)
~Kendall POV~
I sat I'm my dim light room, sighing sadly at my pitiful state. I didn't want my boyfriend seeing me like this, heck! I didn't want anyone seeing me like this. I didn't need people laughing, making fun of how my body looked. I didn't need the questions or the dagger stares from my ex's. I didn't want my mum questioning the fresh cut marks on my skin or my bad attitude. I slowly got up groggy from the night before. I couldn't remember what had happened but the empty bottles scattered around my room and tear stained pillows were a big clue. I slinked over to the bathroom rubbing my heavy and expanded stomach, glancing up in the mirror.
"I'm a freak... I'm an ugly monster" I sighed. My stomach has been like this for the past 5 months, getting bigger and heavier every time I woke from my slumber. I covered up the mirror, not wanting to see my hideous state. I quickly turned on the shower and slipped into the warm running water, sighing softly. My whole body cried out in relation as I slide down the cold tiles holding my stomach.
"I'm sorry little guy" I spoke softly stroking my tummy. I wanted to sit there all day i wanted to be alone with my poor undeveloped child but I knew I had to get some food, i had to keep my child well fed and healthy, even if I did want to die. I got out quickly drying myself off and slipping into some xl clothes which only made me feel worse. I struddled into bed, grabbing my phone to text Logan. He may have only been a wall away, but I'd only come out for food if everyone was out. Logan could stay but I would never let him touch me, or look at me.
It's clear. Was the response my phone flashed. I quickly waddled over to the kitchen hurrying in case the others came back and saw me. Sure in enough my beautiful logie was on the sofa with his head in a book. I wanted to let him touch me again I was just too scared. Of what? I don't know. I sighed loudly to myself grabbing a load of food and drink from the cupboard, without warning tears streamed down my cheeks and I fell to the ground sobbing uncontrollably.
"Kendall baby!" Logan threw his book down running over to me.
"Kendall?" Logan started.
"DONT LOOK AT ME!" I sobbed gulping down tears with my back to him.
"k-kendall" Logan started again placing a hand on my shoulder.
"GET OFF ME L-LEAVE ME ALONE!" I sobbed louder.
"I'm not leaving you!" Logan's voice was stern but breaking i could tell he was scared like me. Despite my harsh and bitter words Logan pulled me into a tight hug, not letting me thrash free. He stroked my hair softly instantly calming me down to silent sobs spilling onto his chest.
"I'm here Kendall, I've got you" Logan crooned gently kissing my quivering lips.
"I'm here for you and our baby" He sighed, softly placing his hands on my stomach.
"Logan you don't know it's your baby!, remember? That night... we all got pissed and ended up having a foursome...it could be James or Carlos's" I frowned
"and i'll still love him OR her like they were my own baby and I'll still love you like the first time i met you" Logan spoke softly, stroking my damp blonde hair, I blushed slightly pulling logan up to his feet with me.
"can we go to our room?" i asked quietly. Logan nodded and held my shaking hand, locking our bedroom door as we got there, we had installed the locks after James barraged in on our last love making session.
I stumbled over to the bed and sat leaning back into the cold pillows sighing. Logan quickly laid his head across my chest.
"do you have a name for our baby? Logan spoke softly rubbing my tummy gently.
"im not sure, i was thinking jack" i replied chuckling softly, my logie would make a perfect dad, i smiled running my hands threw his soft hair.
"if it's a girl...can we call it Sophie?" Logan asked closing his eyes leaning into my touch.
"aww logie that's such a cute name" I chuckled, softly pecking his lips. Logan let out a little yawn it had to be one of the cutest sounds ever.
"Goodnight kendall" Logan smiled up at me before shutting his eyes.