Doctor Who iPod Shuffle
Tourniquet – Evanescence
He stared into the dead space of the constellation of Kasterborous, watching the twin suns burning with no planet to circle them. It made perfect sense really, all that was left was the burning. Everything else, everyone else was gone. Except the burning suns and him. He wished he hadn't survived, he hated being alive with the knowledge of what he did, what happened because of him. He wished he didn't have to survive any longer, he wished he could just give up. But then he burst into flames too.
The regeneration had started.
These Four Walls – Miley Cyrus
He was safe. Although safe felt wrong, alien, not right. But he knew he was safe. He was alone again, but then he always ended up alone. He should be used to it but he still hated it. He still couldn't stopped the tears which had fallen from his eyes and dried on his cheeks. And it was worse this time, this time was like the end of the Time War all over again. This time he was truly alone in the universe, this time the Master was dead. It was just him and the protective hum of the TARDIS.
Given Up – Linkin Park
He tried to fight it. All his life he always tried to fight it. taptaptaptap, taptaptaptap. But he couldn't, it was always there, it was always controlling him. Forcing him to take control of whatever was around him. Ahead of him was the Doctor, the drums taptaptaptap were calling for him to take control of this situation. Show who was in charge, who would always be in charge. But he didn't want to hurt the Doctor, not really. It was the drums, he had to fight them. He had to. But it hurt.
He gave up, raised his fist and hit the Doctor, knocking him to the ground.
I'll Be Ok – McFly
The Doctor was used to those words, used to telling people everything would be ok, that it would get better. It always got better, everything always worked out in the end. He would hug them close when they were scared, he remembered them all; Sarah, Tegan, Romana, Grace, Rose, Martha, everything would be all right and it was. But for once, just once he wished someone could tell him it would be ok and more he wished just for a moment that he could believe it.
Stay Beautiful – Taylor Swift
Donna knew he underestimated himself. She also knew she would never full understand him, she was sure that know human ever could, he was too amazing, too complicated but she knew what she saw and he was a lot like her. He was loud and acted like he thought he was the most amazing man in the universe, but she could tell underneath it all he was scared, scared of messing up, scared of hurting people, scared of everything. And she knew he would never be able to see how much of a hero he was in everyone else's eyes.
Sorry – Jonas Brothers
"You left me!" Koschei screamed, "You said you'd always be there, you said you loved me, you said you understood."
Theta – although he was known as the Doctor by this point – couldn't keep the tears of regret out of his eyes, "I'm sorry. I… I was scared."
"Sorry? Sorry doesn't change anything, Doctor," Koschei said his chosen name sarcastically, "You were scared? How do you think I felt? I needed you and you knew that. I will never forgive you for this. I HATE YOU"
The Doctor's tears broke through, clouding his vision and Koschei was gone when he looked again.
Puzzle of My Heart – Westlife
Rose Tyler had saved him, he would never deny that, because of that he knew he would never forget her. He'd never be able to, and he didn't want to. She had got him through the darkest patch of his life and yeah it wasn't suddenly all all right because of her but it was better, it was more bearable. And he loved her. He thought he did anyway, he wasn't sure. He wasn't sure he knew what love was anymore. But if he was going to find out it would be through her.
What About Us? – John Barrowman
The Doctor didn't like to complain, he worried that if he complained the Master would leave and he couldn't bear that. But he didn't like how much was unspoken between them. He didn't like not knowing where he stood from one minute to the next. He didn't like the lack of control he knew he had. He didn't understand what their relationship was really about. He didn't like how little he really knew about it.
But he could accept it at the end of the day, because he loved the Master.
Just Like You – Three Days Grace
The Doctor knew the Master was his polar opposite, everyone knew it, everyone said it. The Master was desperate for control, the Doctor just wanted to observe. The Master wanted to hurt people, the Doctor wanted to help them. The Master was out for destruction, the Doctor was out for salvation. And yet looking at the Master, the Doctor knew that despite all that they were exactly the same. The Doctor knew he was just like him deep down.
Shine – Take That
It broke the Doctor's heart, even now centuries later, to see what the Master had become. He saw the monster he had allowed himself to become, the way he had given in to the drums and it hurt. All the things he had done, chosen to do, enjoyed doing. And yet he knew, he knew that deep down he wasn't a bad person, he didn't want to be like it. He knew deep down Koschei was still there, trying to shine.