A new Fan Fiction for all of you!

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Disclaimer: I still don't OWN McFly (they're hard to get!!!)

-Chapter One-

-Prolonging The Inevitable-

I hear you breathe in the darkness of the room… your fingers slowly running to the clock on the bedside table and I'm still pretending to sleep while you grab your shirt and head out of the room.

It's the same old story… you come back late, I yell, you scream, we go to bed and pretend nothing happened. I can't go on like that anymore, I can't keep pretending that you're just gonna wake up one day and realise I've always been there by your side… through all the times you felt like giving up on everything… I've cleaned your messes and took the blame. I'm not your girlfriend anymore; I'm just an annoying person who keeps asking for attentions in your tired eyes.

Yes, you're tired… I hear that excuse for over 3 moths now. I'm tired too now… I'm tired of keep waking up with a note of apology on your pillow; I'm tired of getting secluded in the house while you go to bars and hook up… because you've cheated so many times that I can't remember now and what did I do? I forgave you even when you didn't deserve for my forgiveness… I kept telling myself that you loved me. But now I understand it's too late for you and I to fix this up… you've gone too far and now you've lost me; there's nothing you can do anymore.

I raise my head from the pillow just to see what you're doing in the kitchen. I see your back searching for something in the medicines area… aspirins probably.

Typical… you're still hung-over and tonight you didn't even wanna tell me where you've been, drinking and messing around with the others.

The light from one of the wide windows embraces you warmly allowing me to see you fully now.

You're just stunningly beautiful as always but… tonight that's not enough to keep me by your side; not tonight.

One year I've waited to gain enough strength to walk away from you; leaving all this mess behind and start the life I always wanted.

I also wanted you darling; you never gave me the chance though. Not one single time.

Now I'm sitting up properly, waiting for your arrival, I'm eating my nails… yeah, that we have in common.

At last you decide to go to bed once again, I know the last thing you're expecting to find is me, woken up and troubled… you know something again is not right.

'Hey babe… did I wake you up?' you ask me, faking a relaxed tone as you climb into bed once again, that same old smirk plastered on your face.

'No… I was already awake.' I reply wearily, still searching for that tiny spark of regret in your eyes, but I know you aren't feeling guilty for what you did.

'Oh…' you breathe closing your eyes once again.

'I'm through…' I finally whisper, my eyes already filling up with tears; those same tears that I spent for you every night.

'What did you say?' You ask, suddenly alarmed.

'You heard me Danny… I'm through! It wasn't enough for you to come home drunk once again… you just don't care about it!' I yelp, drying my tears on the back of my hand.

'This is what's all about then… c'mon Rach, just go to bed; we'll talk about it in the morning.' You moan as you roll from side to side.

'Oh yeah? With the note you're gonna leave on your pillow? I cannot stand it anymore… I cannot stand all the lies and all the cold between us; you know better than me that I'm nothing in your eyes anymore.' I say, my tone relaxing a little but assuming that icy tone that everyone hates… including myself.

'You're just talking nonsense now Rachel… I love you and you know that.' You reply, your eyes still closed; you aren't even trying to stop me from going… you think that this is just another snap of wrath.

'Then I don't love you anymore Danny… it's just too hard!" I cry as I stumble out of bed, in search for my things… I cannot stay here anymore; I need to get out.

'Rachel! Rach…!' you suddenly scream, grabbing my hand and watching me puzzled in the eyes.

'Let it go Danny…' I whisper slowly, pronouncing every word sharply, knowing that would hurt him.

'You can't just leave honey… I need you!' you cry, finally letting your emotions flow… it's just too late though.

'What do I need you for? I'm just a girl walking in your apartment now… we don't talk, we don't cuddle, we don't kiss and we don't even make love anymore! It's going on for too long now…' I snap briskly.

'Can't we even try to make it work? I'll promise I'll be better' you retort, now tears flowing on your cheeks too.

'Danny… you know it breaks my heart leaving you. I loved you so much at first but I realise now we are not meant to be together! You have dreams and goals you wanna pursue, you don't want a girlfriend messing around with this stuff and I wanna have a boyfriend… a guy who cuddles me when I'm sad, who is at home when is our anniversary; who laughs and play with me, who tells me I'm the girl of his dreams. I knew what I was going through with loving you Danny… but I never thought you'd leave me here waiting for you like you did and the truth is that I'm tired. Yes I'm tired of crying at night and to see you with other girls… It's just not worth it Danny.' I finally reply, stroking your cheek tenderly as I watch you gagging the words in your mouth… you know I'm right.

'I realise I haven't been the best boyfriend Rach… but if you'd just grant me one last chance I'm sure I could be all those things for you!' you squeak, taking my hands in yours and looking at me soberly in the eyes once again.

'I'd granted you so many last chances Danny… I hoped and hoped you'd get some sense out of all the fights we had over time but you know that I'm just prolonging the inevitable, you and I are gonna drift apart, if not now then later…' I hiss frustrated… it just wasn't worth the try.

'Is this really the end then? Are we just never gonna see each other again?' you ask me, your head tossing while you sobs.

'I know you're gonna make one girl out there so happy to be with you Danny… you're just wonderful and I love you… but that girl is not in me. It's over between us and you know it better… it's been over for way too much time now.' I say, a pitiful smile peeking on my lips; even if we're breaking up I cannot help myself from feeling attracted to you.

'I love you too…' you finally manage to whisper as you watch me pack my things and head out to the door, going to never return again. This love is simply gone.

As I walk my way to the gate, my umbrella and bags in hand, I see you, running towards me, your curly hair sticking to your face as you watch me stare at you confused… what are you trying to do?

'Danny? What are you trying to do?' I yell, trying to scream over the loud sound of the thunder that was echoing in the sky.

'I won't let go of you without one kiss… one last kiss.' And as you breathe these words you crash your lips against mines into one last desperate kiss… a kiss I surely wouldn't forget that easily.

We brake apart after some seconds, and with one glance I say goodbye to you as I hurry down the path, heading to my cab waiting outside…that was going to be the last time I would have seen you Danny Jones; crying under the rain, whispering my name frantically like a sort of spell… hoping I would come back to you; but I was already gone

MikyMcFly