Moments

One moment.
One moment is all it takes
One moment and your whole world can come crashing to your feet.

And that moment.
That moment can catch you off guard
That moment can kill you from the inside out.

And my moment.
My moment has come and gone
My moment has cost me my heart and soul.

And her moment.
Her moment will live forever
Her moment will be remembered by all.

I can't believe it. She's gone. Just when things were going well, for the both of us, she tells me she's got cancer and she'd stopped her treatment. I didn't know what to do, just the thought of losing her, my best friend and more, tore me up inside. I couldn't concentrate on work, eating, even breathing became a chore. I would go round and she'd be curled up on the couch, barley muttering a word, a complete flip on her character. But then things picked up for a while, and she returned to her normal self for a few weeks. We'd laugh and we'd cry, remembering both the good times and the bad.

It is true what they say, count your blessings now. I wish I had, in the past, I wish I'd told her just how much I cared more often than what I did. I've never felt as strongly for anyone, not even Steve, in my life before. She was different, we just gelled from the start. We helped each other through everything, she was there for me when my husband turned up, I was there after she was stabbed. We were inseparable.

Until today that is. Our final moment together, she looked as brilliant as ever, a smile spread across her face, her hand in mine. Telling me not to worry, and that I'd be alright. The truth is, I don't know if I will be anymore. I thought I could cope, even though I knew we didn't have much time, which I never expected to be so little, but now, the realisation has hit home. I'm lost without her, her smile, her voice. I'm still half expecting, and wishing, that she'll come walking through the door, her high heels clicking all the way, her familiar smile on her face...

I'll never forget the wonder that was Selena Donovan, 20th October 1968 - 4th June 2006.

And last moments.
Last moments become only for a split second
Last moments become the beginning of and end, but the start of a beautiful memory.