Chapter 1

The day started like it always did…

"I'm not weak at all!" screamed Edward

"Whatever you say little one" said Mustang in a indifferent tone.

"Who do you call "little one"?!" Edward jumped on top of the desk in front of him.

"Now, now there, there Edward" said Mustang and got off his chair. "We don't want people to think that you also are a monkey, but hey, they say that shrimps can jump as well."

"Don't you dare! stupid colonel!" Roy busted into laugher.

"Stop laughing at me! Anyway… I'm taller than you!"

"Yeah… if you get a ladder" Roy laughed.

"I won't need one! old man!"

"Me? old? HA! don't make me laugh my ribs out"

"Yes, you are! Only old people always call others to bring them somewhere... you need a car for everyway out... doesn't that make you worry, lazy colonel?"

"Now, now Edward, you can at least look like you are following orders."

"What makes you think that way?"

"Only that you are making a fool of yourself in front of my staff" Roy pointed over Edward's head.

Edward turned his head to look backwards. His face dropped when the staff began to wave.

"Gah! damn colonel!" Edward blushed.

"OH!" busted Roy suddenly. "I almost forgot where is your brother?"

"Duh... he wanted to wait for me outside..." Said Edward in a 'you already knew that' tone.

"Sad.."

"Huh?"

"You are missing 5 reports, so thought he could help you. You have till midnight."

"WHAT? did your head get hit or something?! How should I do this till midnight?!"

"I don't know, but you better get started, you can use Havoc desk since he's not around."

"Ou! I can't believe it!" Edward stomped over to the empty desk and turned around again.

"If you disturb me just for the sake of making me stop working you should be prepared for death, colonel!" Mustang smiled, and gave Edward a map with documents, then returns to his desk, where he was sitting pleased. Edward was mumbling curses while getting the map and sitting down to write the reports. 2 hours later Edward had finished 2 small reports, and himself and the colonel is the only ones left in the room.

"Are you done yet?" asked Roy tired.

"I don't need a babysitter! Go home if you're tired!" Edward continued writing. Mustang looked up.

"Sorry can't do that. I have to make sure I get the reports before midnight" Mustang stayed silent in a few seconds. "Are you hungry Full metal?"

Edward sighed. "What about I bring you those when I'm finished? or do you want to keep sitting there, staring at me all the time?!" ... "what? ... uhm..." His stomach rumbled. "Why do you ask?"

"Because I'm hungry.." Roy answered. He sighed. "So if you are hungry, I will bring you some too. How does that sound?"

"hm... this is the first good offer you ever giving me."

"First time for everything" said Roy with a grin. He raised from his chair. "I will be back in a few." He left the room. Edward gazed after Roy.

"tsk... he behaves strange-way friendly..." He shacked his head.

About a half hour later Mustang returned.

"Is stew got enough? Couldn't find anything else"

Edward looked up from his work.

"Sure! if it's not poisoned or something it'll be good enough..."

"If you die, I die because they are the same." He placed the bowl on Edwards table.

"Oh! you finished the third report while I was gone. Good job." He returned to his own desk.

Edward raised his eyebrows.

"eh.. thank... you... you're strange today... is it because you're tired?" Edward gave a proving glare. Roy sighed.

"If you think that I enjoy to stay at work late on the night on my night off, then that's fine with me.." He took a bit of a piece of bread.

"Btw. I talked with your little brother. He will be waiting at your hotel when you are done."

"AH SH...!" Edward slammed his face into the desk. He keeped his head lying down there.

"... thanks" he said mumbling.

Roy swallowed a piece his bread. "You're welcome."

Edward sighed by lifting his head again. He took some bread too. He started writing again with the other hand. "...what time is it now?"

Roy looked at the clock. "Around 9.." He sighed, and raised from the chair and walked over to a huge bookcase at the end of the room. He seemed to be looking for something.

"Puh... so I'm on time..." He took a look up. "... you're looking for something?"

"Yeah." Said Roy in a low voice. "I have a meeting tomorrow afternoon. Thought that I could double check the info."

"Hmh?" weighed his head from right to left and back slowly. "what kind of meeting?"

Roy looked at Edward and gave a little grin and then looks back at the bookcase. "A meeting for people over 18 years old. That kind of meeting"

Edward looked at Roy. "What does THAT suppose to mean?!"

Roy grinned and took out four books and walked back laughing to his desk. "You are so easy Edward."

"You're kidding me again, do you?" He started writing again.

Roy puts the books on the desk. "In a way" He said ironic.

"Stupid colonel!" Edward mumbled while eating.

Roy was still laughing. "Think Edward. You are properly the only one in the military under 18 and since you are not going to the meeting.."

"I AM the only one under 18 ... and no one tells my if there is a meeting!"

"Your position only needs meetings with me since I'm your superior."

"Pah! I only asked about it - I didn't say I'd like to go there!" Edward made a pouts. "so don't push me around for something I didn't say!"

"How can you have so much energy at this time at night?"

"Maybe because I'm much younger than you - old colonel!" Edward grinned.

Ed pouched a nerve and Roy gave a little "tst" at him.

"tehe... this is one win for me." Edward smirked. He returned back to his work pleased.

Roy shacked his head and tripped over his own feet on his way to his chair. "Argh!"

Edward winced and looked up from his work. "...Colonel?" He slowly got off his seat and walked around the desk. "...you okay?" Edward walked towards him and bended over Roy. He showed some slight worry in his face.

Roy looked into the floor with one hand over his nose. "arh" he mumbled low "I guess.. that was very graceful."

Edward raised an eyebrow. "... well, yeah, it really looked graceful ... just like the dying swan..." He gave a quiet laugh. "...you really act strange today!"

"How strange?" He looked up at Edward slow with a minor red nose.

Edward laughed. "You seem careless today! anything that makes you nervous here?"

Roy looked up like a thunder hit him. "Nervous? Me?!" Roy tried to stand up fast, but failed back to the floor and felt pale.

Edward twitched and gives a surprised gaze at him. "ah... yeah..." He comes over to Roy and offers a hand to help. "...seems like it's a big bother. You really are rash."

Roy looked up at Edward, took his hand and pulling him down towards him.

"Wah! colonel!" Edward felled down on him. "what are you doing?"

"shh.." Roy pointed out the window. "Can you see it Full metal The clear black sky with stars all around."

"Eh..." He made a totally surprised face. "...did you drink any alcohol... colonel...?"

Roy raised a eyebrow at the last sentence. "No.." He says and swings his head back and hits the desk hard. "The sky is.. just.. beautiful.. Full metal.."

Edward twitched again and looked out the window. "y-yeah... it... it really is..." He nodded.

Roy gazed out the window. "What do you think is beautiful Full metal?"

"hmm... you mean in general or you mean just about the sky?" He blinked.

"In general." Roy swinged his head from right to left like the neck had disappeared.

"That's a pretty difficult question..." He looked out of the window thoughtfully. "...in my opinion everything can be beautiful if it's just a natural thing and nothing artificial..." He took a look at Roy again. "what do you think?"

Roy looked into Edward eyes and stays silent. Edward blinked and gives just an asking glance.

Roy smiled and lean himself closer to Edward. "Do you know what Full metal…?"

"Ehm..." He could that he become a little nervous. "...w-what?"

"I think.. I think.." He stopped few cm from Edwards nose like something were pulling him back.

"sighed." He leaned back slowly.

Edward blinked surprised. Now leaned forward himself. "You think...?" He looked at Roy with a snoopy glance.

"Never mind Full metal.. it's getting late.. I guess, and.." hits himself on his head on the opposite side of Edward. His breathing increased heavily.

Edward twitched again and sighed. "what's up with you today?!" He raised his hands to lay them on Roy's head. "You're not feeling well or something? it might be better if you get some rest..." He looked at him with a worried face.

Roy looked up at Edward with a sad face as if his world was collapsing at his feet. He grabbed Edwards hands and looked into his palms. He removed his gloves. "Your hands.."

" ...hmh?" He looked down at his hands and sighed. "...what... what's the problem with them? it's..." He stopped talking and swallowing some air. "one of them is not natural anymore." He gave a sad smile. "doesn't look beautiful, hm?"

Roy shacked his head and looked up at Edward. "Appearance is not everything Edward." A little smile could be seen on his lips. "….beautiful" is what we make it." He leaned slowly forward and kissed Edward gently on his lips.

"B-but..."

He looked surprised at Roy's face when he kisses him. He blinked a few times and then slowly closed his eyes. Roy took Edward's cheek in his hand and presses his mouth closer and deeper. Edward leaned forward to get nearer. He raised his hands to hold onto Roy. Their lips separated and Roy open his eyes and the sound of a little sighed sounded.

"..heeh.. Maybe we should stop.."

Roy dragged himself a little away and let go off Edward. He swung his head between his legs and his head disappeared. Edward opened his eyes and blinks again a few times. Slowly raised one hand to touch his lips. He blushes. He shakes his head.

"b-but... colonel... wait!" He leaned himself forward again and touched his knees "come on... p-please... look at me!"

"Edward.. This is what I want you to do: stand up.. and hurry out of here.." He was still sitting with his head between his legs. "before.. I do.. or you do.. something.. very.. stupid.."

Edward held his breath for a few moments. Lets himself fall backwards and stays sitting on the floor. "I wont!" He answered with a clear voice.

"IT'S NOT A REQUEST FULL METAL! IT'S AN ORDER!" Roy yelled into the floor.

Edward stares at Roy with a shocked face. He shivers a little and held his breath again.

"y-you... ever called me a stay dog..." He whispered. "...so I wont follow your orders."

Roy's head raised up fast and the look in his eyes were a mix with pain, lust and sorrow.

"I'm warning you Full metal… don't.."

"Don't what...? just because I'm called a soldier now that doesn't mean that I'm not allowed to feel!" Edward stayed on his place.

"Feel?" Roy made a face like someone was dead. "I.. don't want to hurt you, Edward.. Try to understand.."

"If you don't want to hurt me..." Edward looked up to Roy. "...then why do you act like this? giving me so much comfort... something I never expected because of this!" He raised his automail-hand while talking with a shivering voice. "...and then just after this you push me away. what does that mean? what's that going around your head?"

"In my head?" Roy looked up at Ed and his fingers flow gently though his golden hair.

"You mean my mind? That's a dangerous place to visit Edward.." He let's his fingers sliced from his hair to his jaw and ends at his lips. "You might ended up getting hurt.. I don't want to give you more scar on your soul then you already have.."

Edward still looked up to Roy, trying to catch a gazed into his eyes. "I was set out in so much dangerous places already..." He gave a quiet sigh. "Do you really think it wouldn't hurt if you throw me out like this now?" He bowed his head. "This would be like you're ripping a scar you just healed before..."

Roy sighed heavily. "You are right.. I'm sorry… can you forgive me?" He leaned forward towards Edward again.

Edward raised his head once more. "That means I'm allowed to stay with you now...?"

"Well.. you not going to do what I say anyway.. Do I have a choice then?" A smile returned on Roy's mouth and meet Edward in a passion kiss.

"hm... you're right, I wont do it anyways..." Edward smiled at him, too. Closed his eyes again while kissing, breaks off for just a moment, to smile again. "I think I can accept this as an equal price for stealing my first kiss... you bastard..." said Edward with a soft voice.

"You brat." A warm smile was showed on his lips takes Edward head in his head and brought him closer. He pushed Edward back and meet slowly after Edward lips. He smiled.

"Edward.." He whispered quietly.

Edward laughed and leaned backwards just like Roy pushed him. He raised his hands to hold onto him, to pull him nearer. "hmh?" And gave him an asking smile.

"You.." He hesitated a little. "you are.. beautiful.." He pulled a little of Edwards jersey away and placed his hand on his stomach. Roy could feel Edward's warm flesh. "You are very warm…"

Edward looked up to Roy with a surprised expression. "you... you really.. think that...?" He blushed deep red and winced when he felt his hand on his skin. He bowed his head a little, still blushing.

"yes.. yes I do.." Roy smiled and pulled Edward's jersey more up and began to lick his stomach gently. "You really.. puts me on fire..!" He sighed. His hands slowly moved from between Edwards legs and up. Edward gasped. Slowly closes his eyes again and spreads his legs just a little.

Slowly but certain Roy's hands neared Ed's crotch with a cautious and elegant hand. His tongue danced all the way from Edwards stomach to his chest and further to Edwards mouth and their lips meet again. It was a kiss Roy never had felt before. "..Edward.." .He said quietly between their kisses.

Edward aspirates some low sounds of his voice. His body moved a little nervous when he feels all those touches. Obviously enjoys every kiss Roy gives to him. "...colonel.." Edward gasped slowly raises his hands to hold onto Roy's neck.

"Yes Edward?" When he had found Ed's crotch he didn't let go. He began slowly massage it and could start to feel the younger alchemist reaction. He leaned slowly to Edward ear and blew a little air in while he asked. "What do you want me to do?" He began gently to bide a little in Edwards ear while still massaging his crotch.

Edward moaned with pleasure while his hands grab harder on Roy's shoulders. He turned his head a little and tries to keep his breath down, but fails by moaning again, moving under the other's body. He gasped quietly. "it's..." he sighs. "...it's embarrassing to tell..." He shyly looked up to Roy.

Roy smiled. "So you want me to read your mind?" Edward's moans gave him an endless pleasure. He made a fast movement and squeezed his grip on Edward's crotch.

He kissed Edward again and looked deeply into his eyes. "Edward.. this is it.. the point of no return.. your last chance.. after this.. I will not be able to stop myself.."

Edward moaned again when he felt the other's harder movements. He looked up to Roy with a glance infiltrated with lust and much more feelings. "I don't want any more chance to return..." He breaths heavily and gave a slight smile up to Roy. "...do it."

Roy eyes smiled and he kissed Edward. His tongue danced between Edward's teeth obtained the younger ones mouth lust and passion. His hand lifted slowly from Ed's crotch and began to open the younger ones belt. He kissed Edward, passed his cheeks and further the jaw line and down his neck.

Edward hand raises up from Roy's shoulders, strokes through his hair. Cranes his neck to give some more place the other one can act on and sighed heavily.

"Do you like it?" Roy asked and smiled. He got Edward's belt and pants open. He took his young lovers arms and pulled him up. He began to undress the younger alchemist. First his jacket, then his two jerseys. He stopped and looked admiring at Edward's body.

Edward allowed himself to be led by the older one. He blushed deep red again when he sees the other one's glance. His hands were still trying to take a hold on Roy's clothes, while he bowed his head shyly. Roy studies Edward's chest closer. He leaned forward and started to licks every scar that his dark eyes could find. Edward gave a quiet sigh again and his hand grabbed into the other ones hair. His body twitches a little, every time Roy reached one of his sensitive scars. Roy leaned his ear towards Edward's chest to hear his heartbeat.

"You know.." He began. He sat up and lifted Edward's hips a little to remove his pants and underwear.

"I never thought.. that I.. never got the chance to kiss you.." He smiled at the younger alchemist while he removed his own jacket.

"This is.. like a dream" He said quiet and swiped his hand towards his head. Edward slowly let go off Roy's hair, when he heard his voice. He patiently listens to him, starting to smile happily looking into the night-dark eyes.

"You will feel it's reality..."

Roy looked up.

"Edward!" he almost screamed. They kissed. Roy kissed Edward on his forehead, down his cheek, jaw line and then his lips gave Roy a feeling of trust. A feeling he hadn't felt in many years. From Edward's mouth Roy's journey temporary stopped at Ed's nipple. Roy's tongue danced around it, right before he kissed it and began biting a little in it.

Edward was enjoying every little touch. He slowly closed his eyes again. Everything seemed to feel so warm and save, just like the comfort he always was searching for. He gasped again, when he felt the other's tongue and teeth, lightly lifting his body to get nearer, to feel more. Roy's tongue still danced around Edward's nipple. Mean while had his hand found Edwards penis and began gently to hold it.

"Edward" He whispered. "What's on your mind?"

Edward tried to hold in his voice, breathing heavily, when he felt the other's hand grabbing him.

"hmmh..." He gave a slight smile. "On my mind? ... it's you just now..." He sighed again while his body started moving nervously again. He raised one hand to keep his mouth shut, but his voice struggled against it together with his thoughts of Roy, taking everything and turning his head with every touch. Roy smiled.

"Don't hide it Edward.. I want to hear you.."

Roy's grab around Edward's penis became tighter and his hand began move back and forward. He kissed Edward's chest gently and began with one hand to open his shirt while trying to satisfy Edward. Nervously Edward's hands tried to catch hold on anything, while he gave up on holding his voice back. He moaned again with pleasure and leaned his head back. Edward's moans was like sweet music in Roy's ears. Roy removed his shirt and opens his belt. He let his fingers fly over Edward warm skin as the young alchemist lie naked in front of him, he suddenly didn't know where to start. Roy sighed.

Edward opened his eyes again to look up to the older one, when he heard his sigh. He raised his hands, after he looked at him for a while.

"I want to feel you... near me... please..." He only begged slightly. Roy almost lost a tear down his cheek hearing those words. He opened his pants and removed them. He could feel his penis pound like ten wild horses and he began breath faster.

"Let me know if there is something you don't like.."

Edward gave a precious smile up to Roy.

"I'll tell you... I promise.."

Roy nodded.

"Good..."

He spread Ed's legs and lied down between them. He looked into Ed's crotch and grabbed his testicles gently and began to lick them with a smooth tongue. He closed his eyes.

"You.. are.. so.. beau.. tiful.. Edward.." he whispered.

Every time Edward head Roy saying his name he felt warmer. He sighed again, closing his eyes once more.

"Roy.." He sighed lowly, starting to enjoy pronouncing his name.

Roy open his eyes in a spilt second after hearing his name. He putted a finger in his mouth so it began wed.

"Say my name again… Edward…"

He opened his eyes again to look at the other one's face. A light smile appeared on his lips.

"Roy..." He says again, putting more moaning sound into his voice just to bother him a little.

Roy's finger approached his young lover anus slowly. He lost his breath like somebody had pushed him in his stomach after hearing Edward saying his name. He grabbed Edwards penis and began to hold it tight like before and putting it in his mouth. In a split second Roy introduced his index finger inside Edward anus. Edward gasped again much louder when he felt the other's finger inside. He felt a little pain, trying to suppress it anyhow. He started to breath much heavier, when he felt Roy's lips around his penis. His body was filled of lust again. Roy's head moved back and forth many times. He knew that to much to fast would only hurt his lover. Some minutes later he withdraw his finger and few seconds later both the index finger and the middle finger inside Edward.

Edward's body started to shiver because of the lust and the full of expectation. From time to time he gave slight sounds, moaned while searching for any place he can find stability, any place to hold on with his hands.

"Do you want me to stop?" Roy asked gently, still kissing Edward's penis methodically. He moved his fingers has much as he could and few seconds later the third and final finger was in Edward's opening. Edward clenched his teeth, realizing that Roy's moves start hurting but still feel good in anyway. Intense he tried to catch breath.

"it's okay..." he whispered slightly and sighed again.

Roy was in one way or another glad to see his loved mixed between the feelings of pain and pleasure at the same time.

"I will go slow…" He promised and kissed Edward's cheek.

"Thank you..." Edward answered lowly. He smiled gently. He got a little unconfident, relying on the other one's experience. Roy wrapping one arm around Ed's neck, kissing Edward and keeping their lips joined, and the other wrapping under Ed's thigh, he rocked his hips forward slowly. Roy waited, still kissing Edward's mouth and paralysed his lips, giving time for the body let its guard down again before continuing. Edward raised his arms again, putting them around the other one's neck. A little shy he joined the kiss, enjoying keeping their lips in touch while his body seems to calm down slowly. The distraction allowed Roy to push deeper if only a little. Slowly and gently Roy's hips moved forward and his penis glide into his young lovers anus.

"Shiit!" said Roy and noted something was wrong. Roy could feel the adrenaline in his body and it filled him up.

"Edw.. I.."

Roy closed his eyes and shacked his head. The younger one couldn't hold on, moaning loudly, grabbing harder on the other ones neck. His body twitched, he tried to get hold, but his feelings flew over, when he felt the other ones moves.

"Roy..." Edward's breath became heavy again and he looked at the other ones face, starting to worry a little.

"...everything okay?"

Roy kissed his lovers forehead, getting Edward to look him in the eyes before kissing his swollen lips.

"Everything is fine.." He answered.

"I guess I just didn't prepare myself enough…" He bit his under lip and waited some seconds before the worst pain was gone. He began moving his hips gently.

Worried, Edward looked up to the other one, but smiled gently, when he answered.

"I think there's enough time left to go on slowly..."

He smiled, caressing the others neck, sighed again cause of his movements.

"heeh.. I guess this is the price of being old.." Roy said with a grin. He slowly moved his hips back and forward, closed his eyes to felt noting more then to be inside of Edward.

"hm... don't worry old colonel - I'm here to give you guidance." Edward commented with a grin, before he also closed his eyes with a sigh, bracing himself against the other one's body. Roy began worried that he had gone too quickly, not prepared his lover enough, when something just gave and he was able to slide all the way in. Felling Edward around him got him to lose his breath. Sweat drops began running down his cheek.

"Haa.. Nnn.. Haa.. Nnn.." Roy moaned. Roy looked at Edward leaning forward and whispering in his ears.

"What do you what me to do?" Edward's body started shivering again, overflowing feelings started to play mind games with him, the pain he felt was hard but even so good to feel. The paradox feelings made him grabbing harder on Roy's shoulders, moaning again, searching for comfort.

"Stay near me..." He begged moaning. "...it's so good to feel you..."

"As you wish" Roy smiled. Grabbing his lover under his back and pulled up towards him. He sat up taking Edward with him so Edward now sat on Roy. He moaned in pleasure of having Edward so close. Edward gave a surprised look up to Roy, when he heard his answer, letting himself being pulled on top by the other one. He moaned again, feeling those movements inside his body, trying to answer those moves with his own hips. Roy lied himself down to the floor while he looked at Edward. In his face you could read the new emotions that his body was experienced.

"How.. does.. it .. feels.. Edward? To.. ride…" Roy stopped talking and started to arched his back. He placed his hand on Edwards hips helping him work his hip up and down. Edward's hands laid down on Roy's chest, he steadied himself in this way, while moving his hips in tact.

"it... it feels good..." He moaned, closing his eyes to feel it more intensive.

"ah..." His body leaned a little forward, he tried to do some faster movements. Roy swung his head backwards.

"oh.. Edward" He moaned quiet.

"I.." He try to say, but stopped. He closed his eyes.

Edward got more satisfied with his movements and more and more feelings came over him, he wasn't able to hold it anymore. He moaned. He pushed his back through, leaning his head backwards

"Arhh! Edward..! I'm..! Co.. ming.." Roy's grip become hard and he got the feeling that his hips where about to jump up and spilt Edward in two. Edward moaned loudly again, when he came after some strong movements. His breath was heavy and he felt so weak. He leaned on his arms, trying to hold his body up, but his arms shivered, showing how tired he got. Roy tried to catch his breath and felt as tired as Ed was. He look at the younger alchemist.

"Are you okay?" He asked nervous. Edward raised his head to look at the other one, giving him a precious smile

"I'm okay..." he whispered slightly, before he decided to lay down on Roy's chest to rest a little. Roy smiled not only with his mouth but also his eyes. He kissed the younger alchemists forehead and flowed his fingers though his hair.

"'I'm glad." He hugged his lover and closed his eyes. Sighing quietly, Edward closed his eyes too.

"hmm..." He weary agreed with the other one. They both feel a sleep on the floor.