A/N: what happens to me, I try to share through writing.
I do not own Naruto.
Kakashi looked away from the scene in front of him.
Obito was holding hands with Rin and they seemed to be very happy. Rin was laughing and Obito smiled his toothy smile.
He looked away, not because of his usual dislike for anything Obito (but deep inside, he cared for his teammate.) but because he was…well, he was jealous.
No, not jealous because Rin now returns Obito's affection (or the other way round, no!), but because he wanted someone to hold on to, too.
He is human too, after all. Yes, he chose to show little emotion through the visible part of his face but behind the mask lies a kid longing for everything Hatake Kakashi never had.
He had always been waiting for someone to find him. Find him, care for him. Make him disregard inhibitions. Someone to make him as chipper as Obito, blush like Iruka and soothe his pain just like Rin and her medical jutsu.
To find someone who won't mind if he fails. Someone who wouldn't mind if he admits he gets weak and tries to ask for help. Kakashi was lost amidst this crazy world.
He needs someone who will see him as the greatest thing in this world. He needs someone who will defy anything to be with him because he's willing to do so too. He wants someone who will stay through the test of time and will prove that true love never dies. He needs someone who will be his refuge when times get rough. Someone who will accept who he is, who he's not and who he wants to be. He needs just someone who'd understand.. But when will they come for him?
Loneliness is seeking someone's hand to hold on to yet no one holds yours, so you grasp your own.
All these years Kakashi held on to his own hand, wishing, wanting, longing and waiting.
Kakashi sighed silently. Of course, he had somebody else in mind all along while wishing for that "someone" to come.
He smiled ever-so-slightly but cut the rare moment short. He knew that they couldn't be together, but he is determined to try anything. He writes his own story, so maybe he'll try and work to his own happy ending. Still he hopes.
Hope is comforting, Kakashi thought. Hope is all I got…
The slight surge of pain didn't pass through unnoticed. His eyes stung and watered. He quickly covered his eyes with the palms of his hands and wiped the stubborn tears which insisted on falling.
"Stop, idiot. Why are you crying?" he mumbled to himself.
But more tears came.
"Shit.", he said in a barely audible whisper.
He looked up into the sky and saw the most beautiful hue of blue he always longed for. He thought maybe looking up would push his tears back.
He rubbed his eyes with the back of his hands, pretending that something got in his eyes. He turned around so Obito and Rin won't see. He walked blindly on the training field, the easy morning wind and warmth caressing his pale skin and messing his silver hair more.
Grass scrunched beneath his feet as he walked as normal as possible so his other teammates would not notice. Kakashi lowered his hands, got momentarily blinded by the sunlight and bumped into something.
No, someone.
It was the Yellow Flash of Konoha. Namikaze Minato. His sensei.
Time seemed to stand still for Kakashi as he gazed upon the bright face of his Minato. Kakashi was surprised but didn't let it show. He tried to look as if his sensei's sudden appearance didn't startle him.
Minato looked down at him with those eyes… The most beautiful hue of blue that colored Kakashi's skies.
"You alright, Kakashi?" said Minato. He looked over at Obito and Rin sitting on the grass, almost cuddling.
Then he smiled. A smile which outshines even the sun.
Kakashi looked at his sensei. As usual, he was perfect. Always happy. Blue eyes and golden hair set on a perfect face, under the equally blue sky and golden sun. Kakashi looked at the ground near his sensei's feet and let a smile form on his lips.
He hesitated noticeably, looked up and answered with newfound determination.
"Yeah" said Kakashi.
Minato grinned once more and patted Kakashi on the back.
"Good" he said.
Minato walked towards Rin and Obito, calling for them to stand up to begin their training.
Kakashi closed his eyes and thought for a moment. Then he turned around and followed his sensei.
Hatake Kakashi was lost no more.
A/N: I dunno.. should I continue writing more chapters? This one's open ended..so yeah. Maybe I will. :) And oh. I write chapters with fewer words than other people's works. Does word count really matter to the reader? Err...cause for me, as long as I describe what happens clearly regardless of how many words it takes, it's fine. so there.. i hope that. you guys like it. reviews are well appreciated. :)