Spencer sat there, tears in her eyes, a picture of her and Toby in hand, rocking back and forth in the chair Toby made her. Her phone rang over and over, but she really didn't want to talk to anyone, except for Toby but that was impossible because he had died three weeks earlier.

"Spencer" Aria slowly walked into Spencer's room, and sat down on her bed. Spencer didn't even look at her.

"Spencer, I know you are sad, but you can't sit here forever" Spencer turned her head, her face was red and puffy, tears were falling from her eyes. She grabbed onto the shirt she was wearing.. it was Toby's. The one he gave her the night in the motel, the night before they kissed for the first time.

"I miss you Spencer, I haven't seen you since... The funeral" Aria reached for Spencer's hand, but she pulled her arm back from Aria.

"That was two and a half weeks ago Spence" Spencer looked up,

"Don't call me that" Aria was confused, until she remember that Toby called her Spence. Then Aria chose to move past that, and try to get Spencer out of her house.

"Come on, how about we go to the brew?" Aria asked

"Toby" Spencer smirked "He lives.. I mean lived above the brew"

"Oh right, how about we go to Hanna's house" Aria smiled " We all miss you"

"Fine, but I'm not changing, and I'll probably keep crying while we're there" Spencer rubbed her eyes "haven't stopped in three weeks"

"Ok" Aria stood up and reached out her hand to Spencer, helped her up.

"Spencer, you once told me I was little but I was Big, do you remember that?"

"Ya" Spencer laughed a little "why?"

"You also said we were team Sparia, well just remember that we still are and I'm still here if you need to talk to anyone" Spencer quickly hugged Aria as tight as she could,

"Thank you" She whispered.

As the car pulled up to Hanna's house, Spencer looked over at Aria,

"Can we not talk about Toby"

"Of course we won't, we want to cheer you up not make you even more depressed" Aria said as they got out of the car. they walked up to the door, and rang the bell.

"Spencer!" Hanna exclaimed as she opened the door, "I haven't seen or talked to you in forever"

"Well that's what happens when your boyfriend dies" Spencer said, making everyone uncomfortable.

"well come in" Hanna smiled, letting them inside,

"Emily and Ali are up in my room" Hanna closed the door, and started upstairs.

Upstairs,

"Do you like this dress?" Ali smiled at Emily

"Yep" Emily leaned over and kissed Ali, Just a peck. "It looks perfect on you, like everything you wear" The both smiled at each other, not even noticing as the other three came in the room.

"Hello?" Hanna yelled "Get a room, this is mine" Ali and Emily laughed,

"Fine, no more kissing" Ali smiled, and got up

" How are you holding up, sweetie?" Emily and Hanna were on the bed laughing about something, and Aria was looking out the window.

"Spencer" Ali held her hand " are you ok?"

"I'm not crying for the first time in almost a month, so that's a plus" Spencer looked down,

"I'm sorry, I know what it's like to lose someone you love" Ali smiled " it gets better"

"Ya, well you haven't lost the love of your life, have you?" Spencer looked upset by what she said "I'm sorry"

" Its fine, I get it it's a difficult time" Aria walked over to them

"What are you talking about?"

"What do you think?" Ali glared at Aria, and walked over to the others.

"What's going on with you and Ali?" Spencer asked

"She is all pissed cause I told her I didn't believe her whole I'm nice now thing" Aria rolled her eyes.

"Aria, she has been threw a lot and she has changed a lot, you know that"

"well she seems like the same old Ali to me, she is with Emily, but still flirts with all the guys at school, She is mean and manipulative, and still has her secrets and wants ours, like she didn't learn anything from what Mona did to us all that time, I feel like I'm back in time to when Ali was the queen and we all had no spines" Aria looked really annoyed

"I get it, but Ali is one of us she went through everything with A I mean Mona, and she has the scars to prove it, It's our senior year and we shouldn't waste it fighting so apologize and make it right. You know Ali loves you and that she has changed" Aria walked up to Alison,

"I'm sorry about what I said"

"No need for that, I don't care that you said what you said" Ali smiled

" Then why are you mad"

" It's a secret" Ali smiled and all the girls looked at her like she was crazy, hadn't she learned her lesson?

Spencer walked out the door and to Hanna's bathroom, but her mom was in it so she waited.

"Spence" Emily walked over to her, "are you ok?"

"ya just have to pee" She smiled

" I loved Toby, he was a close friend and I am still in pain over what happened, you were in love with him you can't be ok" Emily seemed nervous

"You have Ali and Ali has you, Aria is happy with Ezra and Hanna and Caleb are in love... I'm alone, I have his truck and his shirt and lots of other stuff from him but I don't have him" Spencer started to cry again, " I go to sleep looking at his picture every night, wishing it was a dream, wishing I could go back and stop him from going to work that day cause then he wouldn't have fallen from a three story house roof and died, then he would be here with me" Spencer fell to the floor, Emily sat down with her,

"I'm so sorry Spencer, I know how much he loved you. when we hung out he talked about you all the time and he checked his phone to see if you called constantly and when you did his face would light up like the sun and he would smile so big, he loved you Spence"

"Thank you Em, that actually made me feel better, I knew he loved me but that made me remember how much" Emily wiped the tears from her face, and then from Spencer's face.

" He was my once upon a time" Spencer smiled "My happy ending, my safe place to land, and now I feel as though I have nobody, and like I'm alone and I have no ware safe, but I guess I'll always have you, and the other girls"

"We will always be here Spencer, If you need anything, don't forget that" Emily stood up and then helped Spencer up and they went back to Hanna's room. The rest of the night they watched trashy TV and ate junk food. Nobody talked about Toby anymore that night, But he was all Spencer thought about.