So...it's been a very long while. I feel out of place here, but I got dragged back into this pairing. I miss being excited about Spencer Reid and Derek Morgan. I miss...this. And hopefully there are still shippers who believe in Sperek. So...just a warning this is a slight spoiler for season 11 epi 11 "Entropy." And slightly pre-slash if you squint. (A few lines borrowed from the episode) I own nothing.
As always Reid review and enjoy. :)
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Your mind buzzes as Garcia stumbles back inside, Savannah following closely. You try to hold on to the buzz of laughter swimming through your veins as you turn back to Reid.
You try to joke but your stomach sinks at the look on Spencer's face. He just wants to go home but you don't want to let him go just yet.
"Hey kid, can I tell you something?" Your thoughts tumble as you try to sort yourself out.
"Yeah." He gives you that tired smile and you can't help but pull him into a hug. Spencer relaxes into your touch and your heart cracks just a little bit more.
Even after all these years it still feels as though the rug has been pulled from your feet. When the kid hurts, you hurt as well.
He presses his face into your shoulder, and you just hold him.
"I just uh-" The words are caught in the back of your throat. Your body aches as you put everything you have into this embrace hoping that he understands.
"Yeah."
It's not enough. You want to tell him so bad how much he's come to mean to you. How lost you'd be if something happened to him. How much you lov-
You beat that feeling back. It's not the time and you're pretty sure Reid wouldn't appreciate that sentiment right now.
"You know?"
"I know. I know." Spencer wraps his arms around you and squeezes hard.
"Good- cuz I mean it."
Spencer pulls away and you let him go.
If you were a stronger man you would tell him to stay; hold him close and make him understand you won't leave him. That you're with him until the end.
The only thing that comes to mind is ''see you tomorrow,'' and you want to kick yourself because it's not enough. It's never enough.
You feel hollow as you watch Spencer slip away.
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A/n: Thank you for your time. Let me know what you think...it's all appreciated.