DISCLAIMER:
Inuyasha series aren't belong to me! I only messed around with some particular characters to produce this whole fail thing. ;D
~ Always ~
It's been sometime since i last reminisced about you and i – about us.
You're still being the same person; with all the loud complaints, bragging and things. I'm happy yet sad with that fact. Happy, because i didn't want to lose the same old Inuyasha i've grown to know, yet sad, because with you being the same you, i'm pretty sure you don't even realized anything about me.
Even for the smallest thing like when i prettied up my hair, you've never noticed. You don't even spat out insults, let alone praisings.
Ever since we've encountered her – the love of your life.
Hey, do you know? I've started to hate mirrors. I felt pathetic whenever i stared into one. I can't help but to feel bad that i look like her; can't help but to despise the fact that i'm her reincarnation, or maybe even the reason why i've been chosen, why i'm being placed into this situation in the first place, which is again, her.
Her, her, her.
Always her. Always Kikyou. If only she didn't sacrifice herself, if only i'm not her reincarnation, if only i had stay away from the well, if only, if only, if only, if only i hadn't met you.
But i did, and i fell for you.
You, who never even turned to look at me when she's around.
But me being the stupid me, i never left my gaze off you.
You often stared up to the sky, whether it's sunny, cloudy, or rainy – and i found it hard not to hold my breath, not to feel as if my heart's being torn apart. You're looking for the sign of her. You longed for her. Even when i'm here beside you.
How sad i am, to find you in that kind of state every single morning? How sad i am, to think that you won't even sleep, your mind wandering off to her? You won't even miss a chance to be with her, huh?
How pathetic is that? I could only look at your back, your hair blown by the morning breeze. I could only see your naughty smile, could only hear your brash laugh. Could only stare dreamily at your protective arms, wondering how will it feel having them draped around me...
I realized i'm being selfish. I wonder if you'll miss me if i'm not by your side? Aren't there any space – just onelittle space in your heart, where i can settled into?
I just want you to look at me. At me. Look at me, Inuyasha. I'm Kagome.
Will there be a time when you'll glance at me – with that warm smile – without her shadow being reflected in your eyes?
Will there...? Or will it forever be a hopeless wish of mine?
I wish i could just forget you. I wish i could just love Hojo, and not you (as ridiculous as it seem). But it'll never happened, and so i decided.
Even if my hopes don't come true, i will keep on loving you. Doesn't matter how much it hurts or how much i'll bleed.
Because even when it has crumbled into pieces, my heart calls out to you, Inuyasha.
Only to you.
Because i'm still standing here, to assist you when you fall.
To support you even if it's from the sideline.
To protect you with my life.
To stay beside you.
Always.
First fanfic~ Yay, yay! R&R please~
