Dreamer.

Dear Jace,

I can't do this anymore. I can't wait for you. I'm so tired, I'm falling apart at the seams. I tried. I really did try for you. I waited, and waited, but you never can back. Where did you go? You promised it was only a few weeks. You said you'd keep in touch, but you didn't. I'm graduating next week and I can't wait anymore. When I realized you weren't coming back I wanted to die. Was it easy for you? to leave me? Without goodbye too. I cried for days. I called you, so did everybody else, but I guess were not worth your time. I wrote you letters, but they'll probably be tossed aside like this one. Why am I even trying? I don't even know you anymore, I hear you on the radio, but I don't know who that is. I'm leaving for college in three days, I'm skipping graduation because I cant stand not being able to graduate without you beside me. Pathetic, eh?

Remember all the plans we made? After grad we were supposed to get that perfect brick apartment in L.A we'd always talked about, then we'd explore the city together and drink way more than we should. I remember. I'm not letting you completely ruin everything though. I'm still moving into a cozy apartment in L.A but with John and Simon. We got a lot closer after you left. Isabelle is staying in residence just outside the city in Hermosa Beach. Alec and Magnus finally got together, if you wanted to know. They're going to London for a year to travel together and connect with Magnus's old friends. I'm happy for them, but I'm going to miss them too. They really helped me get back on my feet.

Did you ever go to school? I mean, I wouldn't know. I know I sound bitter, but really I think I'm finally ok again. You really ruined me Jace, but I'm okay now. This is my goodbye letter, I don't know if I'll send it. It's more for me than you. I'm done mourning the loss of my best friend. I'm moving on, taking on bigger things and meeting better people. This is the last letter I will write to you, so goodbye Jace Wayland, I'm done missing you.

AN: Updates coming soon, Reviews? keep it a one short or nah?

-Mel :)