Warning! This story is femeslash. Don't like, don't read.
Disclaimer: I don't own Twilight!
I sighed as I looked around my new apartment. It was mostly bare, with boxes littering the space, but I was far too tired to do anything about it tonight. Moving slowly over to my bed, which was really more of a mattress on the floor, I shut my eyes. But sleep wouldn't come.
I had moved to Seattle because I wanted a complete change, and I couldn't think of anything more different than sunny Phoenix. A change I had gotten, most certainly, but it didn't feel in the least like a fresh start. It is true that the weather was different and the scenery was different, but the same general bleakness seemed to invade everything. The apartment may have been a different shape, but the overall feel was the same.
I wasn't running from anything, except the dullness of my old life. I had spent my entire existence in the same town, taking care of Renee, my scatter brained mother, from such a young age that it seemed I hadn't developed properly. I had always been on the outskirts of life, peeping in from time to time, but too shy to really enter. I was content to stay at home and be socially impaired. I hadn't even left the state for college, and after it was done I returned home like a good little girl.
But now Renee was growing up, moving on with her life. She had gotten married earlier this year. Phil was a good guy. A few years younger than my mom, for sure, but you could tell he loved her. After they had gone on their honeymoon, I took stock of my life, and for the first time I realized how bleak it really was. I had no close friends. I had never had a boyfriend. I had never even gone on a date. I wasn't really all that interested in boys. Even my wardrobe was boring. I had been working at the same unfulfilling job for two years. It was time for a change.
So I came to Seattle. I was the first impromptu decision I had ever made in my life. I hoped it was a good one. I always wanted to do editing, and now I was finally going to make that dream come true. Moving to a new city was supposed to be a good thing, a fresh start. But instead all I could think of was how lonely I felt.
Closing my eyes, I told myself not to think about that. Things always seem much bleaker at night. Tomorrow things would look better. I fell asleep listening to the unfamiliar patter of rain on my windows.
AN: The chapters will get longer. This is more of an introductory chapter. And alice will be in the next one!
