Another AU fic I'm starting :) I hope you enjoy it! Haha It's kind of a discovering yourself fic. I hope it makes you think.
Full Summary: Finn's been noticing something different about his best friend Rachel lately. She's quieter, and she's dressing differently, and so many more things. When Finn finally goes on a mission to find out his truth, he is shocked when he finds out what the tiny brunette has been hiding. And who knew, one little list could take to kids on a journey of discovering themselves:)
This first chapter might have a weird point of view.
Chapter One: The Changes
Finn's been paying attention to his best friend Rachel Berry's new habits. The one's she'd picked up over the fast few months. He noticed all off it. One thing he'd noticed was she had stopped talking to him as much. Which was weird, because Rachel loved talking to him. She told him all the time. But lately, she'd been avoiding him. It had started out slow, but then got to where she never talked to him at all. Which defiantly worried him.
Finn noticed, that she started dressing in darker clothing. She'd been dressing weird lately. Every skirt she wore was black. Almost every shirt she picked was either, black, gray, or dark gray. He didn't understand it. One time he had tried to ask her why she was dressing weird, but she just stared at him and walked away.
He noticed that she quit participating as much in glee. She'd give up her solo's to the other girls instead of taking them. She rarely said a word to anyone the entire time they were there. If anyone asked her what she thought about a performance, she'd just nod and say it was good.
Finn noticed, that she'd only wear long sleeved shirts. He didn't understand it, but she did. He'd always see her walking around in a long sleeved dark colored shirt. He'd always see her holding the end of one of her sleeves when she was upset. Like, one time, he saw her crying, and holding onto the bottom of the sleeve while she bit her lip, and before he could get to her to see what was wrong, she'd run into the girls room.
He noticed, every time he tried to talk to her, she'd give him the same blank stare. He'd ask her what was going on, and she would just shake her head and run away crying, leaving him wondering what was happening to his best friend.
The newest thing Finn noticed was, that Rachel cut her long hair. She cut it off to shoulder length. And she just seemed to over all quit caring. Which scared Finn.
One day, when he saw her crying, it finally dawned on him. Since he wasn't the smartest, he'd gotten later than someone else might have. But he did indeed get it. His best friend was depressed. She needed his help, and even if she didn't want it, she was going to get it.
Now, Finn had a plan. He was going to talk to her tomorrow. Right as he was about to leave the school after football practice, he remembered he left something in his locker. He walked back to get it, and as he opened his locker a pink note with a star on it, fell out.
He looked a little confused at first until he opened it. The note read:
Dear Finn,
If you are reading this, You must already know what happened to me. My dad's have probably already found me, and everyone was a little shocked at first, but now everyone is probably back to there routines.
Besides my dad's, you're the only one I wrote a note to. I feel that you are the only other person I owe an explanation to. I feel that way, because no matter how I've been acting the past couple of weeks, your still my very best friend in the whole world, and none of this is your fault. If anyone ever tries to tell you it is, you show them this note, and show them what I just wrote.
Well, since it's Friday morning, your probably just about to go to math class. Make sure you get everything done that you need to okay? Make sure you don't fall behind in school because your sad over me. Besides, nobody should ever be sad over me. I'm not worth it.
Anyways. If you haven't already found out what happened to me, you will within the hour. I want you to hear it from me first. I'm so sorry. Finn, If your reading this, then I'm dead. Case closed. No way to put it nicely anymore.
Just remember sweetie, it was never your fault. Not once the entire time I came to the conclusion that I was going to commit suicide, did I ever, ever place any blame on you.
You have no idea how I'm feeling. My world his collapsing around me and I just need to fix it. This was the only way I saw fit. Once again I'm so sorry. I'll see you again someday.
Love,
Rachel Berry*
Finn's mouth fell wide open. He started thinking about it. Today was Thursday. Meaning tomorrow was Friday. Meaning Rachel didn't think he would find that note until tomorrow morning.
Finn slammed his locker shut, running out to his car. He knew he needed to get to Rachel's house quick, before he ran out of time.
So what did you guys think of the first chapter? Please Read and review!
