I know I need to update my other stories and I promise I will. I'm getting back in the swing of school and I have midterms coming up. I will update this weekend I promise! This idea popped into my head at the end of the episode and I needed to write it down! Please review. I was going to leave it as a one-shot, but if you want a multi-chapter story please review and let me know. If enough people want a story, then your wish is my command.

Enjoy! :) love yah!


Olivia sat on the stairs. She finally allowed herself to let it all out. She let the tears fall down her face, she took a breath and put her face in her hands. She knew she should be happy that's he's going to jail, but she can't bring herself to feel even the littlest bit of relief.

Brian had tried to help her through it. He had been very comforting, and there for her. She wanted to feel completely safe with him, but she wasn't. If she was being honest with herself there was only one person who she felt safe with and she would never see him again.

She let another sob slip past her lips. She was shaking slightly. She started to hear the creaking of the stairs. She knew someone was coming down, she figured it was Brian. Only cops and lawyers knew about the back stairwell. It's where they took victims out to keep them from the press.

Victim. That's what Olivia felt like, a victim. That's what she was, Olivia Benson was a victim.


His fist were clenched as he walked down the stairs. He was taking deep breaths to keep himself from punching a wall. He knew he shouldn't have went to the trial, but he knew even if she didn't know he was there, that she needed the support. He saw the way she flinched under his gaze and how she tried to act strong, but he knew better than to think she was okay.

It took all of his will power to not kill Lewis right in the courtroom for what he did to Olivia. He knew she wouldn't notice him in the courtroom because all of her attention would be aimed at Lewis. He knew when the verdict was called that she was about to break. She had Brian now and she didn't need him. It broke his heart to see her with him. He messed up and now he was paying. He was alone and she had Brian. She was finally happy and that's why he was leaving though the back. He didn't need to cause her anymore heart break.

He stopped dead in his tracks when he saw the sight before him. Olivia Benson, his Olivia was breaking down. He watched her body shake and heard her faint sobs. He knew he should leave, or walk away and act like he didn't see anything. He looked at her and knew that she needed him. She may hate him, but right now he knew she needed him.

He slowly walked down and sat down next to her. She didn't move a muscle. He watched her try and control her breathing. He slowly moved his hand to her back and started to rub slow circles up and down her back.

"Brian I'm fine, go and wait in the car" she murmured hoping he would just let her be. Elliot took a breath before he pulled her close. To his suprise she wrapped her arms around his waist and without looking up and snuggled into his chest.

"Liv, I know you're not okay, and I'm not Brian" Elliot breathed. He felt her stiffen. It felt like forever before she finally looked up and met his gaze. He could see more tears forming in her eyes.

"El?" She breathed not believing the sight before her. Here was the one person she wanted to see, the one person who she knew could comfort her. She wanted to be so angry with him, to hit him and scream, but she felt so relieved that he was actually here. He didn't speak, he kept looking down at her. She could feel the hot tears streaming down her face.

She watched him open and shut his mouth a few times before he finally spoke. "Liv, I'm so sorry" he brushed her hair out of her face.

"Not now, you are here. That's all that matters" she breathed before snuggling back into his chest. He held her close and ran his fingers though her hair.

She finally spoke the words she's been telling herself all day."I'm a victim" she said her voice cracking. Elliot felt the tears threatening to fall as her voice cracked. He held her tighter, and he felt her grip tighten as well.

"You will make it through this Liv, I believe in you. You are Badass Benson, you are the strongest person I know." He breathed. He planted a chaste kiss on her head. He felt her shaking her head into his chest.

"Olivia, you fought back and beat him to a pulp, he deserved everything he got. You are so strong, you saved yourself." He breathed.

"I was so scared Elliot" she whispered. "He got in my face, watching the spit come out of his mouth in rage. Even though I was safe, I flashed back to when he had the gun to my head" she let more tears fall.

"But you stood your ground, if I didn't know you as well as I do. I would of thought you where fearless. It's going to be okay. I won't ever let him touch you." Elliot spoke softly as he felt her shake against him. He knew she had Brian, but she would always have him too. Whether she knew it yet or not.

She held on to Elliot like he was her life line, but who was she kidding, he was. She held him tight. She didn't want to ever let go. She was afraid that if she let go he would leave her again and she wouldn't be able to handle it. They stayed like that for what felt like hours. He held her tight until her sobbing subsided.

"Promise me" she murmured in response to his earlier statement. Years ago she knew that he wouldn't leave after this, but now she's not so sure. She felt him take a deep breath, she held her breath waiting for him to talk.

"I promise you" he said lifting her chin lightly so she was looking in his eyes. "Olivia Benson, I will never leave you again. I will be here when you need me" he watched a single tear fall down her face. "Always" He finished wiping it away and searching her eyes.

A small smile played on her lips, the one thing she knew Elliot could never do, was lie to her. She knew he meant everything he just said. It may have been four years, but something's never change.

"Good" she spoke softly looking into his eyes. She knew that they had a lot of talking to do. That can wait, he was here and that's all that mattered.


Please tell me if I should continue!