AN: I am a first time writer and I want to give it a go. I've read over a 100 Faberry stories and I have ideas swimming in my head. Also this may be one shot for now I'm not sure if I'm a good enough writer…lol. I will write more if the story is liked. Here goes…

Warning: Faberry AU, and angst/drama with humor and of course romance

Summary: "She was alone, she had no one, it was only her and the life growing inside of her. Quinn Fabray regretted that she threw away something so important to her, someone that she loved, someone called Rachel Berry. And that all because of her father, that's why she ran away from everything and everyone that she loved. Will their paths cross again? Or will Quinn forever live with the thought and feeling of letting HER go?"

Disclaimer: I don't own anything except the pc/phone I'm writing on.

Part One: Moving On – 2012 heading for college and starting a life

Quinn Fabray sits on her couch in her one bedroom apartment in New Jersey staring at the empty wall. She doesn't have much in the apartment but the necessary things. Even though food was sometimes limited she still got by. She was lonely but she had to leave she couldn't stay there she was too ashamed, she can barely look at herself in the mirror.

The small living room was joined with a tiny kitchen nothing separating them. In the far corner was the bathroom which only had a shower and a toilet, the walls were cracking she only owned a two plate portable stove and a kettle made out of iron to boil on the stove and a couple pots and plates with the necessary kitchen utensil and a small fridge half her height and the couch that converts to a bed.

Her apartment was in a dodgy part of town. It was all she could afford now, she has a job as a waitress at the coffee shop down the street. It was busy and the tips were decent but the customers were these dirty men and criminal looking types of people.

She now knows she has nothing she lost it all in Lima but one thing, the only thing that she has done right and that's the baby she is carrying even though the way she got pregnant was wrong and the one person who stood by her no matter what is out of her life, why?

Because she slept with Puck to get her 'gay' away, she was a hurtful blinded bitch and mean and has pushed her away into the arms of another and their romantic relationship has not even started. They had a decent friendship going she has stood by Quinn despite all the things Quinn has done in the past and she has been Quinn's everything, until Russell Fabray happened. Rachel probably didn't even know that she was Quinn's reason for breathing and vice versa.

She pushed her away and now she is regretting it. If only she knew sooner that Russell Fabray and what he believed did not matter. He pushed her to be the perfect daughter, the one he could brag about to his friends at church. Quinn now knows that God loves everyone and that God is not the person Russell made her believe he is. She can go on and on about the what ifs.

It's all too late now. She has to get her life in order, she has her baby to think about now. Quinn places her hand over her abdomen and whispers to her baby "hey little one, I will do my best to get us a better life alright? It's just us now" she wipes the tears from her face that seems to keep coming non stop these days.

She left before anyone knew she was pregnant. She left Rachel crying at her bedroom door begging her to not do this to not give up on them. Little did Quinn know that Rachel meant don't LEAVE her. But Rachel was not brave enough to actually tell Quinn she loves her, has loved her since she saw her the first time, she didn't know it then but she does now. She thought that someone as amazing and as talented and as beautiful as Quinn could never want to be with someone like her. They both realize their mistakes when it's too late.

And when Jessie came back she jumped right on that train to try and forget Quinn. But who can forget her? She just wishes she knew why Quinn left before anything could bloom between them. Their friendship was going well and suddenly Quinn changes and is back to being the horrible hurtful person she has once been and vanishes.

Rachel just whishes she knew why then maybe she can let go and move on, no one seems to know where Quinn is currently they all said she just left. Where, no one knows. Not even her parents, well maybe they didn't want to tell her because she left there in tears. Russell insulted her and her fathers with almost every available word there is.

What hurt most, more than the insults to her and her dads were the insults to Quinn, no matter what Quinn did to her, Rachel still felt hurt when Russell told her "It's best that the little gay whore is out of everyone's life and I hope she stays out especially your life you made her an abomination now she is nothing worth nothing and is not worthy of anything, now get out of my house!". Quinn was everything to Rachel, that's why she slapped Russell across the face as hard as she could, leaving her hand print on his cheek.

Russell was too shocked to do anything so he just stood there and stared at Rachel's retreating form. When he snapped out of his shock Rachel was already gone and he swore he would not let it go.

But nothing came from it yet, Judy told him that Rachel will get punished and he should let her be he doesn't need a charge against him. And she will take care of it. No one will corrupt her baby like that. Even though Quinn ran away Judy swore to let Rachel pay. Quinn's parents believed that it was Rachel's influence that their youngest daughter became so sinful lost in the hands of the devil.

"Come on Rachel we're going to miss our train" Jessie yelled from the rental car. "I am coming Jessie no need to yell I have my fathers to greet properly you know" Rachel replied with an eye roll.

Rachel said goodbye to Hiram first then she stood in front of Leroy and he said to her "Rachel my baby I am going to miss you so much, please don't be sad anymore. Look I know you care deeply for Quinn but she chose to leave, and I will not let you get hurt maybe its best if you forget her you have Jessie now, he does not seem like the old Jessie."

She wiped a tear from her face before replying "Daddy I can never forget her, I know she became the old Quinn again but something huge must have happened, I know its best if I move on and yes Jessie is a good guy. That's why I'm leaving Lima early to just leave here because this place reminds me of her too much." Rachel hugged Leroy and went to the door going to the car and heading to New York to forget.

Just before they took off Rachel did promise to call when she can and visit them when possible. Hiram and Leroy watched as their baby girl left to become a woman.

"She has grown up too fast Leroy" Hiram told his husband when he felt his arms around his waist. "I know Honey "Leroy kissed his husbands cheek and made his way into the living room with Hiram following. They will see their baby girl soon again.

When they finally arrived at Nyada they were tired, the train ride was long getting the taxi to Nyada was a hassle but they made it. Jessie also got into Nyada so they decided to go together since they're dating now why not? Jessie helped Rachel settle into her dorm room. She got a private room because she didn't think that she could handle a roommate or the roommate her. Rachel just asked to be excused she wanted to rest. Jessie understood and pecked her lightly on the lips and told her he will be back later he is just going to set up his room.

Jessie didn't mind that Rachel had a private room, it meant he could be alone with her most of the time. He shared a dorm room with another guy, he was a senior but Nyada didn't sort by year so it didn't matter. The guy was just an inch taller than Jessie and he had dark hair cut short, he was in great shape too. The stranger approached Jessie and introduced himself as Brody.

"Hello Brody I am Jessie St James, best freshman Nyada will ever know" he replied smugly. Jessie will always be Jessie." "Nice to meet you St. James, it's good to have fresh competition now and then." Brody smiled at him and left Jessie in the room. Jessie unpacked and sorted his things then took a nap himself.

After a couple hours of sleep Rachel went to find Jessie, she found him chatting to his roommate. When she entered the room Jessie looked away from Brody and gave Rachel a smile "Hey darling, did you have a good nap? Oh and sorry Rach, this is Brody my roommate, Brody this is Rachel my girlfriend." Rachel extended her hand to greet Brody but all he could do is stare open mouthed at the beautiful creature with a broken smile that she hides well. You will not see the sadness in her eyes or smile if you don't look carefully.

But Brody knows heartbreak when he sees it and wonders if this Jessie is the cause of it, after all he just got over one himself. Yet he thinks that Rachel gorgeous through all that and she must be an amazing actor if she can hide so well. He finally snaps out of his thoughts and takes her hand in his and smiles. "It's good to meet you. I apologize Rachel I don't know where my mind has gone." Brody lied. He would find out why this girl was sad he promised to himself.

"No need to apologize Brody it's perfectly fine." Rachel smiled at Brody. "Do you two want me to give you a tour of Nyada? It's a great place." Jessie looks to Rachel to see if she wanted to take Brody up on his offer. Rachel nodded and the three of them went off to take a tour of the place they will call home for the next few years.

When Quinn got back to her apartment she was beat it was almost midnight and she had to deal with a pervert trying to feel her up. Before she could slap him the owner did it for her and kicked the guy out. He has a soft spot for Quinn she reminded him of his late daughter. He sees there is too much on the girls mind but he never pushes. She will talk to him when she is ready. And he will help her whenever he can.

Andrew Miller probably could own a better coffee shop and live in a better place, he definitely had the money but not the will. Not since his only daughter passed away. She was all he had in the world her mom left them when she was a baby never giving them a reason why. He raised his kid alone and lost the will to go on when she was taken away from him by a damn speeding car, but something in him told him not to just sit back and wait to die. So he opened a coffee shop in New Jersey it wasn't a good place in town but it kept him going. He doesn't need a better place he doesn't have reason to. He protects his waitresses from these filthy men, especially Quinn she was very fragile and he would like to help her, if she lets him.

He wasn't a man to be messed with either for his 52 years he still looks good, his blond hair and beard suited him well he had such sad, caring brown eyes. He had strong facial features and wrinkles that gave away his age. Quinn wouldn't have applied for a job if she didn't meet Andrew, she immediately felt like she could trust him which is saying a lot. After a couple months since she arrived he was more of a dad to her than Russell ever where.

But Quinn still didn't open up about why she was here alone and the reason she was this broken. She will start to show soon she knew it, she must be close to three months now, and she knows she should go see a Dr too, so she decided that she will swallow her pride and open up to Andrew about everything and she desperately needed help. And she did trust him so tomorrow morning first thing before her shift starts she'll talk to him.

Tonight she was too tired after the double shift. She ate even if she didn't want to but she knows she has to take care of the baby. She had some instant macaroni and cheese from last night left over so she ate that and crashed onto the couch without making it a bed first. And fell asleep with thoughts of her decisions and consequences following them. She still has dreams of Rachel and its quickly turning into nightmares when she sees Rachel's face when she said to her she can't be in her life anymore. Almost every night she dreams it and every time it's a different place, but still the same reactions coming from the singer.

And that broke Quinn again and again, she wakes up crying and struggles to fall asleep again, but tonight is a different story she dreams of a little blond girl with the same hazel eyes as she has running to her and yelling mommy mommy before the tiny body crashes into her with a tight hug saying "I wove joo mommy" and runs off to play again.

Quinn promised after that dream she will be the best parent her baby deserves, and maybe then she won't feel as she did now. She went back to sleep for the first time in three months she was smiling.

When she arrived at the coffee shop the next morning Andrew waited for her with a cup of coffee, she took it smiling at him and thanking him. Andrew motioned for Quinn to sit down with a serious looking face and she started panicking. Thinking she did something wrong "Andrew uhm I mean Mr. Miller please don't fire me I can't afford not to work ill do any…." Quinn was pleading but was interrupted with a hand held up by Andrew and he said surprised "Quinn why do you think I wanna fire you?" he asked shaking his head with a small laugh before continuing "listen kid, I know something is troubling you deeply and I care for you I told you, you remind me of my daughter and I just wanna let you know I want to help you." He looked at Quinn and she was crying.

"oh" was all Quinn could manage between tears of stress then tears of relieve then tears of joy when she finally hears what Andrew said. Andrew went and sat next to Quinn and hugged her she curled into him feeling safe and cried more. "No matter what Quinn I will help you, you don't have to be sad or worried anymore ok?" Andrew said while hugging her tight.

After a few minutes Quinn calmed down and thanked Andrew for the coffee and the hug and mostly thanked him for what he said. He smiled at her saying it's a pleasure. "Andrew… I do need to talk to you and I do need your help" Quinn said looking at her feet. Andrew led her to the office and told his other waitress to cover for Quinn. They sat down on his sofa in his office. His office was better than her apartment she thought looking around.

He had a desk and a office chair and a plant by the window, on the desk was the usual desktop items from pens to a mug papers and order forms. Quinn got up and walked to the show case he had with pictures of what she thinks must be his daughter, she did look like Quinn only with darker blond hair and the same eyes as her father. "she's beautiful Andrew" Quinn whispered loud enough for him to hear while running a hand over the picture of Andrew holding a 7 year old Angie.

"Thank you Quinn, that she was, I still miss her so much" he said while walking up to Quinn and leading her back to the sofa "Quinn dear what ever you have to say won't leave this office alright? I will help you in anyway I can so don't ne scared to tell me anything, I'm here for you" Quinn saw he was being serious and she trusted him even more and with no fear anymore she made herself comfortable before she said "Andrew one of the reasons I ran away from home are, because I'm pregnant I am about three months actually" Quinn looked down again.

"Oh Quinn, you haven't been to a Dr yet? Anyway don't answer I'm taking you first thing tomorrow and no arguments you can decide later what you wanna do with the baby but we need to get you checked out to make sure you both are healthy." Quinn smiled at Andrews rant and she was so grateful for him. "thank you Andrew thank you so much I cant ever thank you enough" Quinn threw herself at Andrew and he just hugged her and told her he wouldn't want it any other way.

Quinn started telling Andrew about everything and spared him no details, from beginning to now, from when she met Rachel till she slept with Puck every little thing and Quinn felt so much better afterwards, a huge weight has been lifted from her shoulders and she couldn't be more grateful for Andrew.

Andrew thought Quinn went through too much for a girl of her age and vows he will take care of her. He won't throw her out or away like her parents did, just because she was gay, why would anyone care if their kid was happy and if another girl made you baby girl happy then so be it and practically making your daughter sleep with a guy to 'fix' her was beyond crazy to him. Maybe he was too open minded and caring for his wife that's maybe the reason why she left. But anyway he will show Quinn he can be the father figure she needed from the start.

Quinn thanked Andrew for the 100th time that morning and he sent her home with food and told her to rest well till tomorrow morning, then he will pick her up and take her to the hospital for a much needed check up. He told her not to worry about money because its just money it doesn't mean a thing to him.

He already made plans in his head to get Quinn out of that dump. And helping her helped him, he wants to take better care of himself again.

-* (third month of pregnancy/first week at Nyada)

Rachel had a good first week at Nyada even though her teacher was a bitch but she didn't mind she started to actually want to go with Jessie to parties. Brody became a good friend and the three of them usually went together. Brody saw that Rachel slowly got better, but not quite yet. He asked Jessie about it but he only said its because of her best friend that she lost and that, that best friend was the reason for her heartbreak. Brody accepted that and believed Jessie when he said that but he just thinks that the best friend meant more to Rachel than she let on. But he didn't push because now they were dancing and having fun.

Rachel was laughing at Brody for his lack of skills when it came to getting a girl to stay interested in him longer than five minutes, he was definitely handsome enough just didn't have the talking skill that she has. So tonight she will help him. She gives up after a few minutes the alcohol making it harder to be a patient teacher. So they just danced in their small group of three.

By the time they got back to Nyada Brody did pick up a girl and asked Jessie to stay out tonight and so Jessie went to Rachel's room. When they got in the room Jessie kissed Rachel and quickly got rid of her shirt. Rachel didn't like it much but tried to just to forget her. Every touch Jessie gave her every kiss every word she pretended it all belonged to Quinn, her hands her kisses her touches her words but it wasn't it was Jessie's and she felt guilty because Jessie did try and be a good boyfriend again. She let herself try and like what Jessie was doing to her, the alcohol in her system helped a lot.

With thoughts of Quinn Rachel reached her climax but Jessie had to focus hard not to release before Rachel did, he did care for her. Jessie rolled over and pulled Rachel with him he quickly fell asleep not knowing that Rachel was in his arms crying yet again for that someone else. Rachel wiped the tears from her eyes, they weren't all sad tears but she cried because yes she wants Quinn the way Jessie has her, she is crying because Jessie is caring but she couldn't bring herself to love him back the same way but only as friends.

Maybe she could learn to love him that way the way he thinks he loves her with time who knows. With those thoughts she fell asleep dreaming about Quinn yet again.

Both girls were longing for the other and both girls didn't know that they fell asleep in the same city wishing that the other was with them. But that city is big and paths don't always cross when you want them too.

-*4 years later

Four years, four years went by and their paths crossed when Rachel volunteered to go sing for the kids at their school in Manhattan. She had a wide variety of fans but she loved kids. She was a rising star with her movie although it was a small budget movie it's still a movie, she was making it on Broadway she has had several shows off Broadway and she landed the lead on an on Broadway show Moulin rouge of all shows. And the first show got good reviews and her name was spread throughout the papers. She was on the verge of the life she always wanted.

She was about to turn and go home when a little girl with blond hair and hazel eyes stopped Rachel dead in her tracks. She saw the girl run to a older man could be her granddad but Rachel could not believe the girl reminded her of HER, just as she thought she could forget and be happy with Jessie something comes to remind her of Quinn.

What almost made Rachel faint is the fact that said little girl ran straight to a woman with the same looks. And the girl yelled "mommy, gwampa Andwew I saws the singew she was good" "I'm sorry I missed it baby girl I promise to make it next time ok?" the little girl nodded her head but Quinn didn't see it she only notices the brunette walking slowly toward them.

Almost as if she's not real Rachel approaches Quinn, locked out of the world with only Quinn there she stops walking, Quinn made her way to Rachel also in disbelieve and when she's in front of Rachel she stops and looks at Rachel and before she could say anything she hears a sad whisper and feels a tiny hand to her cheek "Quinn? You're here?" and tears find their way down both their faces again.

AN2: Well I hope that it is an ok chapter it's not long but I have so much I want to write. Please tell me what you think and if you would like to read more. I am so not a pro but I try