A.N. I should probably be working on Find Your Love but this is something that has been pressing on my mind. This whole one shot is about my feelings for someone who had been my best friend until he started dating this girl and he started treating me differently. This is just a mirror image of my feelings that I needed to get off my chest. So here it is. There might be an accompanying poem that I add as a second chapter but that will be it and I'll try to update Find Your Love when I get a chance.
Finding My Soul Mate
Finding your soul mate is supposedly a wonderful experience. But what they don't tell you is its only wonderful if the person that you know is your soul mate feels the same way.
I never knew when my feelings had gotten so strong. He was just like a brother, someone else to watch out for. Who knew that not only would I begin to care more than I should, but I would, dare I say it, fall in love with him.
I was jealous when he started dating her. The thing that made it worse was she was like a sister to me, a twin if only we had been born by the same mother. She was prettier than I was, more athletic, the works, and I felt insignificant. I was soon forgotten in his world, excluded from the special place that she had taken in his heart that had once been mine. She became the one that he turned to when he needed help and I was engulfed by the despair that comes from being left behind.
I soon decided to confront him about it. Unfortunately he didn't know what I was talking about.
"What are you talking about?" he said, his face contorted in blatant confusion. "We're the way we always were. Like brother and sister."
But that's just it! I wanted to scream. I didn't want to be his sister anymore. I wanted to be the one he went to for comfort, his confidant. But it seemed as if my dream would never be complete.
And as I began to accept this, the connecting ties that intertwined our lives soon become dormant until we were almost strangers with nothing to say to each other but unable to accept it. We continued to make small talk at gatherings and owling each other nonsense so we didn't have to say we'd lost a friend.
We still go through the motions, though we both know it's over. They've broken up but when I found out I wasn't in the least bit happy. Because I know that he wouldn't be single for long nor would he suddenly develop feelings for me. I guess in time, I'll come to accept that. But I still know he's my soul mate and even if we aren't together, he will always hold a place in my heart, in my soul.
