Title: Losing Love
Author: Tara
Disclaimer: I own nothing but some pen and paper to right this story.
Feedback: Please tell me if that ink and paper was a waste
Distribution: Take it. just ask
Rating: PG
Pairing: Anya/Xander
Spoilers: None
Summary: Anya is offered her powers back in Season 4, but for a price **************************************************************************** ******************************
I can't wear this shirt. This shirt reminds me of him, like everything else. But he told me this one was his favorite. He said it looked nice with my eyes. That was before I lost him though.
When D'horrryn offered me my powers back I knew there would be consequences. But back then I didn't know how much I loved him. I didn't know how much I would miss his arms around me. I didn't know how betrayed he would look. I didn't know much of anything. I was punished though. At least he doesn't have to live with it, no of course not. I have eternity to remember every painful second.
D'hoffryn keeps telling me I'm slacking off. He knows I can't stand the pain, and he laughs. He should have explained the price before I so quickly agreed to have my powers returned. I would have never said yes if I knew how much guilt I would have.
Buffy's hunting me. She'll never be able to find me. I'm in a different country everyday. But for some reason I keep referring to Sunnydale as "home". I don't understand it. Buffy comes to my "house" everyday and of course I'm gone. Buffy should realize I'm not that stupid. She should also realize you can't find a vengeance demon unless they want to be found.
Giles is hurt. But then again they all are. But he's the only bright one among the group. He knows none of them will find me. Even if they do there is no way Buffy will be able to kill me. I'm strong. Yeah, real strong.
Willow hates me more than any of them. She was the only one in the basement with him. Neither one thought anything when I said hello. There were so many screams and tears. There was one shriek I will never forget. I just don't know if it came from me or Willow.
And Xander. I came. I killed. I left. I told him I could be a vengeance demon again, but there was a price. Him. He just stared at me for a moment. Then he told me he loved me. I don't know if it was supposed to stop me. If that's why he said it then it didn't work. I ripped out his heart, At the same moment I ripped out my own. Two seconds later I realized I forgot something. I forgot to tell him I loved him.
Now, I'm thinking, maybe I want Buffy to find me.
Author: Tara
Disclaimer: I own nothing but some pen and paper to right this story.
Feedback: Please tell me if that ink and paper was a waste
Distribution: Take it. just ask
Rating: PG
Pairing: Anya/Xander
Spoilers: None
Summary: Anya is offered her powers back in Season 4, but for a price **************************************************************************** ******************************
I can't wear this shirt. This shirt reminds me of him, like everything else. But he told me this one was his favorite. He said it looked nice with my eyes. That was before I lost him though.
When D'horrryn offered me my powers back I knew there would be consequences. But back then I didn't know how much I loved him. I didn't know how much I would miss his arms around me. I didn't know how betrayed he would look. I didn't know much of anything. I was punished though. At least he doesn't have to live with it, no of course not. I have eternity to remember every painful second.
D'hoffryn keeps telling me I'm slacking off. He knows I can't stand the pain, and he laughs. He should have explained the price before I so quickly agreed to have my powers returned. I would have never said yes if I knew how much guilt I would have.
Buffy's hunting me. She'll never be able to find me. I'm in a different country everyday. But for some reason I keep referring to Sunnydale as "home". I don't understand it. Buffy comes to my "house" everyday and of course I'm gone. Buffy should realize I'm not that stupid. She should also realize you can't find a vengeance demon unless they want to be found.
Giles is hurt. But then again they all are. But he's the only bright one among the group. He knows none of them will find me. Even if they do there is no way Buffy will be able to kill me. I'm strong. Yeah, real strong.
Willow hates me more than any of them. She was the only one in the basement with him. Neither one thought anything when I said hello. There were so many screams and tears. There was one shriek I will never forget. I just don't know if it came from me or Willow.
And Xander. I came. I killed. I left. I told him I could be a vengeance demon again, but there was a price. Him. He just stared at me for a moment. Then he told me he loved me. I don't know if it was supposed to stop me. If that's why he said it then it didn't work. I ripped out his heart, At the same moment I ripped out my own. Two seconds later I realized I forgot something. I forgot to tell him I loved him.
Now, I'm thinking, maybe I want Buffy to find me.
