Chapter 1

Hikaru's POV

I opened my eyes as the smoke that was until recently in my lungs swirled and danced towards the ceiling. God, I wished it was her dancing in front of me instead of the the habit I picked up to stop thinking about her. The high I got from the cigarettes cannot even compare to the high of her touching me, even when she just accidentally brushes past me.

"Hey, Hikaru?" My twin asks me, coming into the school bathroom, the only place I can get away to smoke. "The Boss is starting to get concerned, and our costumers are starting to wonder why you've been gone for so long." Luckily, he already knew of my vice, or else I would have been in some deep shit.

"Yeah, I'll be out in just one minute. I just want to finish my smoke." I smiled at him, trying to reassure him.

I finished the cigarette, dreading returning to the club room. To her.

As I entered music room #3, I noticed how the boss was glaring at me. I normally didn't give a fuck, he was always glaring at me, as if he knows I have it bad for the girl he loves too. But today was different, I had finally gathered enough courage to ask Haruhi if she wanted to get a cup of coffee with me. I was so nervous, but I couldn't let anyone see through my cool, sneaky demeanor. If they did, I don't know if I'd ever be able to talk to her again. I barely can now.

"Hikaru? Are you okay?" Obviously I had been standing in the door way for too long, as Hunny had walked over with a piece of cake, "Do you need some cake? Or maybe Usa-chan, you're looking kind of pale." This snapped me out of my internal monologue.

"Oh, no, I'm fine, Hunny. Don't worry about me, I think it might have been something I ate. Really, I'm fine." I walked over to where Kaoru was sitting, and tried to focus on the clients. This, of course, failed abysmally as soon as I saw her.

Her porcelain skin shone in the sunlight, while her eyes sparkled every time she would smile at a client. The way she moved her lips, or the way she puts her hand in her hair when she's embarrassed; everything she did made feel serene and as if I was going to explode at the same time. She noticed I was looking at her, and smiled at me. She is the only goddess I will ever worship, I would go to the ends of the earth for her. But when she smiled like that at me, I couldn't help but smile back, blushing.

When all of the clients finally left, I couldn't have felt more relieved. I didn't have to pretend to be interested in any of them for the rest of the evening. Not to say that what I did as a host was boring, but some of those girls were just so stupid. I swear, if I had one hundred yen for every time one of them squealed when Kaoru and I even looked at each other, I could buy out any one of the other hosts companies.

There she was, talking to Mori, probably about Hunny. Mori was so desperately in love with him, I think even the girls were starting to notice the way they looked at each other.

Focus, Hitachiin. You can do this. Just walk across the room, and ask if you can talk to her. Here we go.

"Hey, Haruhi," God, I could not get my palms to stop sweating if I wanted to, "Can I talk to you for a moment?" Please say yes, please don't laugh in my face.

She smiled at me, setting off explosions in my heart again. "Yeah, of course," she turned to Mori, "We will continue this conversation tomorrow, okay?" Mori just nodded at her, his lips upturned just slightly.

I could feel my heart racing as I led her towards the nearest empty classroom. I closed the door behind us, but left the light off. I don't think I could confess my love for her if she could see my face clearly.

"So what's up, Hikaru? Also, why'd you leave the light off?" She was surrounded by the evening sun light, and her face looked like that of an etherial moon goddess.

"I just needed to say something to you, and if you talk to me while I'm saying this, I will never be able to get this out," I looked at her, and she nodded, blushing slightly, "Okay. I am in love with you. Soul crushing, can't sleep, can't concentrate on anything but you, love with you. When I'm around you, I can't think straight, and not like how the clients think I am with Kaoru. I want to be with you, I want to be around you everyday, not just goofing around like we normally do. So, I was wondering if maybe, if you are even interested at all, and I pray that you are interested, you would like to maybe get a cup of coffee sometime?"