A/N: Hey everybody! Ok so this is a new story that I am writing which is based off of
Man-Suz-She & PurpleTwilight9720's story Perfect, but instead of Chad it about Sonny's struggle so I hope you enjoy!
Rating: Rated T for language, cutting, adult situations, and anorexia, bulimia and drugs.
Disclaimer: I don't own SWAC, Steak and Shake, or Man-Suz-She & PurpleTwilight9720's story
This story is Co-written with Man-Suz-She.
Chapter 1: Realizations
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Just A Tear Drop Away ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
"How could I love someone so ugly and fat like you Munroe!" Chad screams at me.
Everything goes to slow motion. I stare at the face of a slightly embarrassed, angry Chad Dylan Cooper.
I caught him with a picture of me in his dressing room.
This was his response when I acused him of being a crazy stalker and liking me.
None of this would have bothered me if it was someone I didn't like, but this is Chad! I'm in love with him.
Guess I was wrong. All this time I thought he liked me too, but he obviously doesn't. How come? Oh right, because he is the great Chad Dylan Cooper who gets any girl he wants.
Everything starts again and his eyes start to show guilt. "Sonny…" He speaks softly.
"Well that's fine . . . Just don't look at me again! Oh, and by the way I have a boyfriend so why would I be interested in you! Jerk!"
I turn and run out of his dressing room, all the way to mine half sobbing. I open the door and Tawni is in there.
When she notices me her face is shocked. "Sonny? What's wrong?"
I don't have time for this and her right now. I need to be alone so I can think.
"I want to be alone for a while." I snap shoving her out the door. After locking it I fall into my chair. I stare at my reflection in mirror, that's when I saw it. I saw what everyone else sees.
IMy hair is the ugliest shade of brown I've ever seen! I mean look at my clothes, they make me look like a guy! Now my figure. I closed my eyes tight, too scared to see it. I slowly opened one eye then the other. I gasped jumping out of my seat. I'm so freaking fat! How could I not notice all this before? Was it because I was blinded by other things in my life, or did I not take a good enough look at myself? Well this is another reason . . . why Chad doesn't love me!
I started to remember all the girls he dated! They were all perfect! Perfect hair, clothes and figure..If that's what he likes that's what I gotta be . . . perfect!
I ran over to my secret safe and pulled out my credit card for emergencies.
Well this is an emergency! I grab my phone and call Tawni telling her to meet me at the mall, around 7 o'clock.
"Sonny? Time for dinner! I made you're favorite, steak." My mom yelled up to me in my room
Steak? So fattening! That would make me gain a ton of weight with one bite! As, the sent of the staek hit my nose my stomach starts to growl. I take my hand and punch my stomach to get it to stop.
Curious as to how much weight I need to lose I walk to my scale in the bathroom and step onto it. I gasp when I see the results. 134.
I mean really! Who weighs that much! His girlfriends are probably like what 90 pounds, because I know its not it the triple digits.
There is knock on my door. "Sonny! Are you feeling ok?" It was my mom.
I smile a sad smile even though she couldn't see me because if the shut door.. "Kinda, but . . . I'm going shopping with Tawni and sleeping over."
A sigh escapes her lips, "I wish you told me before I made the food."
I should tell her I would eat it later, but then throw it away, Yeah that's a good plan.
"Sorry, mom, but don't worry I'll eat it Wednesday for lunch. See you tomorrow, night!" I say giving her a kiss on the cheek and going out the door.
I arrive at the mall to see Tawni standing there. "Girl what is up?" She asks in her high voice.
"I need a new image . . . Can you help me?" I ask innocently with a nervous smile.
"Of course!" She grins, jumping up and down, while clapping her hands.
After we shop for hours getting me new . . . well . . . everything! I bought a least 15 dresses and 30 pairs of shoes.
But I still look fat in about everything, the only thing I don't look fat in is well . . . nothing! Now, just wait till I lose all this weight! Chad will love me, more then any girl he as ever been with. I know he will, he just has to!
"Oh look Steak and Shake! Let's get something to eat, I'm starving!" Tawni screams.
"No way! Food just makes you lose your figure and fat! Especially Steak and Shake." I explained with my head held high.
She gasps. "That is our favorite restaurant!"
"I don't eat at restaurants anymore." I spoke.
She gasps shocked. "Sonny . . . what's wrong with you?"
"Nothing!" I snap.
She looks away, I see tears in her eyes. I grab her hand and run towards a store.
"Where are we- slow down, Sonny!" Tawni shouts.
"I want to do one more thing, before we leave."
"Are you sure about this," She asks, "I like your brown hair."
"Yes! It makes me look fat and pale." I snap.
"What is with you and being fat today?" Tawni questioned.
"Nothing." I say pointing the hair stylist towards the black dye.
"Fine." She says sitting down and picking up a magazine.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ 10 Minutes later~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
The stylist pulls the towel off my head to reveal my . . . now black . . . hair. I smile as I played with it.
"I love it!" I pratically scream.
Tawni smiles. "It's very pretty, but not like your brown hair." Is that a compliment or a insult?
We go back to Tawni's house and we fall asleep after I tell her I am sick and not hungry.
*Sonny's dream*
"Jason! Why are you so worried about the way I look in public?" I cry at my ABUSIVE boyfriend.
"Because I don't want you to look ugly and fat like you always do!" He snarls throwing me onto the ground.
I fall cowering in the corner. He lifts the computer from his desk and holds it above me.
He let's go and everything goes black.
Suddenly Chad stands before me with a blonde in his arms. "Why would I ever care about you?"
He laughs kissing the blonde. "She is perfect in every way and you…are fat."
*End of dream*
I wake up gasping for air. I start to sob into my hand. He hates me, I knew it. I guess that's where the problem originated from . . . my abusive boyfriend.
He has always said that but I didn't care or believe it until Chad said it, or shouted.
I walk into the bathroom and look in the mirror. I have to get rid of some of the food I ate today.
I take a deep breath and shove two fingers into the back of my throat causing nausea as I double over as the vomit passes up my throat and out my mouth, then into the toilet bowl.
Tawni runs into the bathroom and gasps. "Sonny! Are you ok?"
I pull up nodding. "Yeah, I'm just a little sick."
She nods thinking. "I'll go get my pregnancy test." Pregnancy test? What?
I shove my finger in my mouth and the toxins flow out once again.
Tawni comes back and groans. "That's so gross."
"I don't think its pregnancy Tawn" I smile weakly, "last I checked I'm still a virgan."
She nodded. "Ok. Maybe you should get some rest then."
I nod. "Ok. I'll be right there."
She nods leaving the bathroom.
I smile and flush the vomit. I look in the mirror. Oh yeah he will love me, soon enough.
If not I will just keep trying till he does. I will do anything and everything for it. Just wait and see.
Thanks for reading the first Chapter! Please review!
