In the Rain (I'll sleep in His Embrace At Last)
The rain poured down in torrents, but that was the least of her troubles. It was as if the rain was cleansing away everything bad in her life. When it would rain, she felt that the world was a better place. The world would become harmless and her surroundings seemed unearthly. She would often walk the streets in the pouring rain. The few people who would be brave enough to be out in such horrid weather would pass her by with questioning stairs, but she didn't seem to take notice of that either. She didn't mind that her clothes, if they could be called clothes got soaked through and she didn't mind when mud would splatter and splash on her skin as it was already covered in grime anyway. She didn't care how pathetic she looked walking around in the dead of night in the pouring rain. The sound alone could do wonders to her battered heart and body. But, walking out in the rain would do her even more good than just hearing its steady downfall. If this was what heaven was like, then she wouldn't mind dying right that very minute. Her favorite days were the ones where the sky suddenly becomes gloomy and dark with a threatening downpour. It wasn't that she didn't like the days where there wasn't a cloud in the sky in the sun shone brightly, but there was just something about the rain and the special smell that graced the earth before a storm.
There were countless nights where she would be walking about in the rain, thinking of her dreams that only seemed to slightly be real whenever the world was being drenched in water from the skies, and only then, did she feel safe. Sadly however, even the rain couldn't keep all of the hurt away. She knew that she only could dream about the one person who she wanted to be there with her beside her in the rain. If only Marius was here with his arms around me. It seemed, that the only time of day to fantasize with her with thoughts of Marius, was when darkness settled over Paris and the streets became empty. She knew only then that she could live inside her head. It made her loneliness seem almost like a feeling that was mixed with the happiness. Her fantasies in daylight didn't have the effect they had on her when the darkness settled in. No matter if it was raining hard, or if it was giving off a spray like the rain was some expensive perfume: she would be lost in her thoughts of her and Marius. The thoughts were so real that she could feel his arms around her waist and she would close her eyes and he would find her. In her dreams, Marius and she were in love and there was no denying that.
Everything was so real. She could feel their hands touching and she could feel his lips against hers and all of it seemed so unlike a dream that when the first streaks of the early morning sun shone through the darkness, she knew it was all over and that nothing had ever happened between her and marius. But, for reasons that are unknown even to éponine, she kept a small flame burning in her heart that one day; he might see her and love her.
